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Writing Practice 14

In this section, I will write using the simple past tense in 10 minutes weekly. I won't pay attention to the grammar. This section only focuses on the using simple past.

I wrote this journal around 3 minutes ago. I studied that the difference between present perfect and simple past is the using of adverb of time. In simple past, the adverb of time is specific. Besides in present perfect the adverb of time of past in is not mention specifically. So, If I distinguish between to of the is the simple past focus on the time of the event and present perfect focus on the event in the past. Today, I met with Lela in the school. That was met as usual like in the workplace. I chused on her in the previous Ramadhan. I wanted to get a relationship with her, but fate did not support our desire. So, I asked God to erase my feelings because crushing on someone that you couldn't be together is painful. Therefore, God accepted my wish and my feelings were erased just by deleting the conversation social app. Actually I still her can meet the best person as soon as possible because it was what she wants. I've been feeling that I'm not the right person to next with her to complete her half deen. Hopefully, she gets the right man that will assist her journey.

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Do you know if I have any deadlines? I don't think so. But life itself is the deadline. I too enjoying this life without think the life what I want to do. What will be I am. Life is short. So, make your life meaningful. You always regret about what you've been through. You should take the action that can avoid the mistake repeat. You know that procrastinate is not good, but you always do it. Today your student has grown up and will go to the national university. and you still don't change your behavior and your habits. how will you go to university and study with them? You have imagination that it will be cool If you can take the master study while your student take the bachelor. Then why you do not try to make it true? You actually have potential that has been given by god. You know it and you still not use it properly because your lazyness. I know that you not a genius person, but whenever you know your weakness and you can analyze it, it is an inteligent that not all of person god give it. So, starting now, you have to make the difference and make a productive activity. The first steps is making an observation and determine the step will you chose and what you want to be in the next 5 and 10 years.

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The thing that makes you sharp is one thing that you repeat again, again and again. Actually, I don't know what I want to write this time. I just write in my mind. Just releasing the nothing that pops up in my mind. Right now I am doing nothing in my place. I work as part-time work. Truthfully, I don't have much time left since I have to find a new workplace. I have been confused about what is the field I have to take. I want to change my field from the education field to others because I know the education field can't earn much. I need to master and train one skill that I am very good at and make it a professional. This is an urgent matter that I have to solve as soon as possible. To know what is the next step make me sure what is the step I have to reach. Don't only focus dunya which is temporarly, but I have to rely on spiritual value. So, whatever I am going to do will be everlasting.

By the way, let's check the path I've done. and then evaluate what is the problem and then what is possible the solution. The current condition is I am as a part-time employee who has four month left.

I have to finish this journal because there is interconnected idea when l had been drafting this eighteenth journal. Therefore, I want to make a new journal for the new idea. Just post what you write in that day. don't delay it.

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Work and Gratitude

There is a chapter in the Qur'an which has ayat said: "Hey Dawood's family, get to work to show yours gratitude, because there is a little people who grateful". This concept give new perpsective about how to do something. It show the difference menatality when do do shoeting. Doing something because you grateful is more energy to do it. For instance, you work out due to you has given healty body, the more you grateful the more you maintain your body and your health will increase, at leat you will maintain your body. If we apply this concept to the another field such as study, you study because you has given brain for think. The more you grateful for your think, the more you learn and use your think for the good and study. This is make you motivated more when you study. You work to show your gratitude. This is what Prophet Muhammad show to us. He prayer very intens due to express his grateful despite Allah guarantee in hereafter his place is heaven.

What I can learn from that verse is I will take action to study, and work as gratitude express to Allah because give me think device and healthy body. Using this intention make me more calm and relax to face further challages. I will more ambitious and persistent to aim something because it is grateful expression. If I am lazy when doing something and nothing goals in this life, It indicated I don't grateful of my life.. :)

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Failure

It's been a while since I came to this site to write whatever I want. This session I would like to write use simple and progressive tense to train my grammar and increase my writing accuracy. unfortunately, this platform where I can write everything I want and I won't be barrier by grammar. at leat now. cause If I want increase my level I have to pay attention to structure, grammar and time. :)

Let's get back to the topic. This time I will write 10 minutes about one topic, a failure. What I learned from this week is "don't afraid do a mistake". There are many success person who failure many times. You also experienced it while memorizing quran. The more you got corrected, the more you know what is right. You become expertise because you face multiple mistakes in your life. I remembered a URS quote saying, "finish your failure turn until there is no left space for the mistake.". You also got advices from my memorizing experience that:

you must evaluate and pay attention to what you memorizing to accelerate your memorizing progress.

manage your time properly.

be persistent, just like memorize Quran, you have to patient in looking for job.

While you focus on difference rather than similarity to clear and distinguish ayat mutasyabihaat. It gives you lesson that you must evaluate again and what is make you different from other which will make others choose you! see you tomorrow :) * I write this passage in 13 minutes.

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Measurable and Well-organized

Tonight I will try to practice writing in 10 minutes based on the skill that I want to improve. Right now I am training in both simple and progressive tense. It looks easy in the beginning. But the important thing is that I have to practice it a lot to avoid mistakes when choosing either simple or progressive tense. While I'm writing this practice Hafidz is watching his phone. I also listen to music while I'm writing this journal. Okay. The time is already up. until left one minute. I have to stop this journal and see you in the next session. :) bye...

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Curiosity

For the last few days, I have been curious about how to increase my literacy ability. I think this is necessary for me, especially to increace my critical thinking and to feed my mind. because in islam the aspcet must be feed is not only physic and ruh, but also the mind to increase my mindset and to avoid alzheimers. Back to the topic, I want to repair my 5 aspect in my life. to fulfill every aspect to be complete human who creeate by Allah. This is important to fulfill every that aspect. The aspect are Ruhiyah, Physic, Aql. Let's break down the components:

Ruhiyyah - I have to pray and obey the rules of the god and avoid to be disobey slave. This is important for my ruhiyyah. Solat, Dzikr, recite quran, and revise the memorization.

Aql - This is think and brain aspect that important for every moment in life. Learn is not only in the class. you can learn every where and any where. This is what in recent day called as growth mindset. It is talk about the intelligent of human being can be develoved as long as she want to learn.

Physic - this aspect that very lack of me. The weakest posture, unballace stucture, lazy to excercise my body. I should repair this sector as soon as possible. Don't be excessive, must calcuated and consistent.

Mental - This is the role aspect that control every aspects above. You are born to be a champion. So, you must ask the power from Allah and don't to be the wakest person in your life. The Strongest Muslim is more like by Allah rather than the weak muslim.

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"wait a minute"

Don't put till tomorrow what you can do today. It is the topic on this discussion and my journal. Sometimes, you lazy to do something and give an a "little" minute as an excuse to dalay or extend your duty. It may seem an insignificat activitiy, but for me it very dangerous. When you repeat that activity in a varoius aspect, it would impact your attitude, because it will become habit. I felt and experienced it that it affect to my work. I dalayed my thesis uncounsiously because "gimme a minute", and too easy for my self. That's why discipline is very difficult for many people who not used to do it. For instance, I didn't consistent to write this journal, make 2 minutes video, 20 times push-up every after sholat, practice IELTS test, study stucture of english language, and every schedule that I've made it usually didn't happen because that habit, too much blame the other for the mistake. You know what is the most pathetic? I blame my self and couldn't forgive. It's the horrible thing that I must change. So, for sake my self, I must change my self and not be a procrastinator. Stop scrolling phone more than 2 hours in a day, and be productive. You know how much the option and change that I've passed because I felt incompetent in a filed that should my be my expert. I only stress on my condition and compare my life and acvievment to the others. Just can you see at my written, there need a fixation and improvement to be perfect. But perfect is a result of the process. If my objective is perfect, it wuold stressing and I will came back to my habit, "give me a break". Moreover, I should focus on my process as I've said to my student that I appreciate their process instead of the result. It also one of the Japanese philosophy that don't to aim the perfection but focus on the process.

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Excuses

Every time we face the two conditions, either reality matches the expectation or the second one the reality doesn't match the expectation. While I reflected every steps that I have pass and see the failures that I have experienced, I sometimes blame the condition and myself. The often compare my self to other, so, I stessed out because I can't reach the same achieved that other can achieve. I became jealous when I saw the other achievement that I wished for. and then I blame the condition and myself. The more I blame the condition and the more I stessed even I blamme the god and desperate for my life. So, I the solution is I have to focus on my self and the possibillities for the chance. don't look down to yourself and stay positive. I know, there are not many chance for me as an mediocre and lower class person. when I want continue my study, I need a lot of money, and I have no much time in my age. I also have to sacrifice maybe chane of marriage I want to focus on sutdy. Seeking for scholarship is need high motivation and consistency to be to be woth to achiee that. So, stop every you face the mistake and the decision that have made. Allah knows you will take that decision. So, from now onwards, I will fix my mindset and my habit. Try change from a small thing, from now and from myself. It takes 30 minutes for write 2 paragraphs. :(. hopefully toworrow can be better.

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History

Some events in your life will be history, either good or not. Like today, I want to tell about the event that will be history in the future, maybe next days will more hectic and will cause the chaos. Today 22 August people from various elements come to the legistative building in the capital city of Jakarta to protest the corruption which have done by legislators. I think this is demo will give huge impact to the democration in Indonesia because the participants in this demonstration not only student but also artists, comedian and inflencer. This event is important to show that the dictator sovereign can cause the anger of people and make the revolution.

One thing that interesting for me is that the more I older the more I like news about my country. When I was child, I hate about the news, especially political news. I think it's only a waste the time, but the time is passed. And when I was high school student, I started interesting to politic bacuse I have to choose my president. And a Indonesian who want my country grow to be better I watch the condition about Indonesia political and because of my chemistry teacher I opened my mind and interested about politic. That is I think. enough fo today. I think my writing don't improve since last time, maybe it's going to be worse. but it's okay. this platform I used as a practice media for my excercise. So, anyone who read this just ignore it. LOL. I only write what poped up in my mind. This is free write where I can writingfreely without worrying about the mistakes and stuffs like structures ect. See you in the next session. Hopefuly I can write better that this.

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Love

Today I will discuss the special feelings for some people, but some people do not consider that feeling special. I want to discuss Love. Actually, love is similar to other emotions in human beings. It is the same with anger, disgust, happiness, sadness, excitement, etc. but, why do some people use love as a special feeling that others? The highly state is consider that love is a god. It assumed that love is everything and can change people and the world. every relgion in the world is teacing a love and peace. there is no peace without love. Are you sure with that statement? I couldnot agree and before this essay finish, the library will close soon. So, see you in the next sessions. the important thing that I want to say is love can change person to the other personality, something i think that is very stupid lol..

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Motivation

Have you ever felt a desire to do something strongly, or don't you want to do anything in a certain situation because you aren't interested in what you have done? Yes, It is a motivation, a desire that drives you in what you do either bad or good. Sometimes it triggered because the event that happer in your life or others life. Generally it will come and relate to your life. Maybe you wanna be a doctor because you experience the bad related to your family or person who have you meet in your life. For instance, dr. Gamal has a strong desire to be a doctor because he reads the news about a scavenger who lost his daughter in the cart because he can not afford basic medicine. The scavenger pull the cart on the street. it's broke hte heart whoever see or read the new. That is an example of the motivation. Moivation can be gain from others. That's why the training of motivation is very rapid in early 2000. But based on what I heard from the research, motivation from others can stand in approximately three days and a week. the longest is a month. After that the motivation will dispread. Moreover, the strong motivation is come from the individual its self. As I exampled above about dr Gamal bin Said. That is the will which give you power to be consistent and you will be persistent in facing the challenge while you achieve what you want. In the last sentence in this journal, I pray to god to make me a good person who has a strong motivation and ambition both dunya and afterlife and avoid me from the poverty that lead me into kufr. I feel sad to watch my mohter and father try to survive in the last period of their life. I wish God to help me improve my skills and growth to change my life. Allahummarhamna... ya rozzaqqq, give a chance in my life to zakat mall 500 million in a year.

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The Aim

Everything in life must have a goal. You should know what you want to do when you go to the mountain or beach. When you study something you must to know what you want to achieve. If your intention is clear and good, you will be able to focus on the track based on the objection. For instance, if your objection is a graduate legal document, you will do anything to achieve that regardless of the process. maybe you will do Machiavellian. I mean you won't consider either good or bad; the result is important for you. Besides, if you study because you want to learn, you will respect the process and you will be patient to do it. Actually, this time me too long to write 2 to 3 paragraphs. I think my level is still in A2. I don't know what will happen to my test in September. That is my test for getting the professional certificate. I have to get a good score to prove that I'm a professional. If I want to go to Japan to be an English teacher, I have to master English, at least my CEFR has to be C1. Moreover, I must study hard in the last three months to improve my level. This time, my CEFR is around B1 or B2. So, I have to exercise more. So See ya tomorrow.

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Emotion

Today in this place, accurately in the unpam's library I'm very relaxing. the ambience is very smooth, calm and not much noise that can distract my mind. The distraction only come from my stomach and my phone. I enjoyed the situation that I hadn't felt while I had been studying for 4 years. My responsibilities decrease after I apply the resignation letter to my job. I think it's very tired, have to study and deal with complicated problem. So, this is the best feel and condition for me to focus upgrade my value. There are many ways for me to create the plan, to make the dreams come true. that is the emotion that I'm felt while I was writing this passage. There are many mistaken grammar but it doesn't matter because I want to write free without worring about stuff like that. Besides, I should improve my writing to corret one by one the mistake and master the English structure to reach the C1 CEFR level.

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Problem and Thinking

Okay, just sit and write in 10 minutes...

As always, I will continue my writing practice today. I think it was a long time ago since I stopped writing in English. It was around 5 months ago. I didn't notice the date. Today I will continue my free write. So, if you are one who read this you can skip to read this passage because this is just for my reflection.

The topic is about problems and thinking. The most words or ideas that pop up in my head about problems and thinking is the mind that causes the problem. overthinking usually causes the problem bigger than the fact. It deals with how we can face and interpret the facts. A small problem may be bigger if you hyperbole the fact. And you know what the major factor is? yeah, it is your mind. The problem can be an opportunity if you have a positive mind and motivation. Besides, the problem can be challenging or something that can stop our steps if we see it from a negative perspective. Now that I want to write two paragraphs in 10 minutes, the fact is I still need a lot of time while I write these paragraphs.

Back to the topic of problem and thinking, I have a major issue in this semester, especially at the beginning of July 2024. I have to decide either leave or take separate of my activity. This distracts my mind around 1 month. I don't know what should I do. I feel I was a ball of a tennis table that push and beaten between two places. They seem don't want me to stay there and want to sack me off. I'm very tired of their treatment and I want to focus on my study. Actually, in the first place, I was happy about the problem. i was happy beacuse I think God wanted to give my wish. I want to travel the whole Indonesia and the world. So, I think this is the best mind that I have to keep. and I have to focus on my goals and avoid the feelings and distraction event and problem. Keep relax and set the goals that you've written in last written. So either tomorrow or next year you go out of the your job, you still focus on your way. Okay. you good, great and amazing muslim who has confident in speaking other language and good skill at relationship. Don't think too much about tomorrow, because you life in present. Don't want to be an ordinary person, but you have to the most beneficial person for other people. Palestinians are the best muslim today. So, I they need your help, can you be one who help them in your current condition??? (In this passage you will find many mistakes and incorrect grammar. But I won't revise it because this passage is the reflection of my future.) (-_^)

this passage took around 30-45 minutes.

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To be Persistent

I failed to persist in this program, the last day I wrote a post was 5 days ago. I don't know what I feel now. I feel nervous and uneasy. There is a lot of business I have to do, but I can't do it properly. I must evaluate myself in some aspects, significantly in using the time. I don't know how this thing happens. I think I crumble the program I have planned. Today is the third of Ramadhan. My expectation for this month is to do the program resolution in 2024. I have high expectations for this month, but in 3 days that have passed, I can't even do the activity better. The problem is I didn't write the exact plan for each day. The reason that I did it is because I am a procrastinator. I usually put the small task in "later, it's something easy", that habit unconsciously installed in my brain. That mindset makes me late in anything and resists my growth. This is the last semester in college, and I want to make a move to take another chance, but I can't cause I fear many things. I want to leave teaching stuff and try something new, but I admit that teaching is my prominent skill. There are options that I choose in the future such as voice-over, translator, or programmer. A voice-over can be a supporting skill in MC. The teacher also needs that skill. Translator, a profession that I have to improve my proficiency in all aspects, at least my CEFR in C1. If I reach that level, I will also be a teacher in EF. The last profession may I choose is a programmer. It will be too late to learn it because it's very logical. It's not even impossible, but I will struggle to learn it and I must invest my time. I like programming, but I don't have many skills in it. Maybe I should try it as an entertainment.

Overall, The next step that I must do now is to make a clear plan for the day, month, year, and next 5 years. I also have to deal with my procrastination, because it will crumble my plan if I don't fix it.

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Don't be afraid to fail

Fail can happen to anyone, like this time, I failed to consistently write one post in a day. If I evaluated, it is easy to write freely in 5-10 minutes. Just watching YouTube or scrolling social media, 5 minutes will insignificance the the whole time that have been wasting in look at the screen. The point is not to focus on the failure, but on how to step up based on the evaluation and motivate change for the better condition.

5 days I skipped the exercise in writing English. I only write on Tumblr and have not started yet writing in Cambridge Write and Improve. Duolingo also I haven't started exercising. To write these two paragraph, I need about 15-20 minutes. So, I think my level is still in A2. In the end, don't be hopeless when you're still consistent. No matter how many you fall down, the important thing is you must get up more than you fall.