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I Can't Stop Eating

by Ben Courger

Just a tasty one-off tidbit to whet the appetite...

I can’t stop eating. Look at me. I’m so fat now, and I keep getting bigger and bigger. I haven’t been to the gym in over a year. I mean, I know I was fat before, but…

When we started going out, I was like 280 or something. I thought I was fucking huge. You remember? And you’d take me out to dinner. Come by after work with dessert, or wake me up with breakfast in bed. My friends all warned me. Showed me pictures of me before and after I met you. Six months of dating you made me 80lbs fatter. And now… fuck, they were so right… it’s been barely two years, and look at me now! I can’t believe what you’ve done to me. Did you know this whole time I was going to be a fucking blob? I used to be scared I would end up like this, but even when you’re not around, I can’t stop eating. 

I stuff myself before bed, but I’m down in the kitchen in the middle of the night… I feel my rolls of fat jiggling with every step down the stairs, and it just gets me even hungrier. I’m ploughing through whatever I didn’t finish at dinner, and I hear you on the stairs. I see you looking at me. Looking at what you’ve turned me into. Does it make you proud? I see you smiling at me, stuffing my face even though I’m so full I’m in pain and can barely breathe. I know it gets you hot. Please, I’m begging you… Please, I can’t stop eating. You gotta promise. You know how much this scares me, but you gotta push me. I can’t stop eating. I need to be fatter. I need to be heavier. I need to push myself every day. And you need to push the food into me if I say I’m full. I can’t stop eating. I gotta eat all the grease. Drink all the sugar. Just like you said, as much as I can. Every day. 

I can’t stop eating. It’s not enough. I need to drop more muscle too, I know. Get weaker. I need to really tank my stamina. I’ve seen you watch me struggle to get up the stairs. Do you know how that makes me feel? I feel like crap that I can still do that. I hate disappointing you. I promise, that’s gonna stop. I need to be way too fat to do shit like that. And I want people to know it when they look at me too. They should hear me huffing and puffing… see me sweating and out of breath just standing there talking to them. That’s who they need to see… But I’m too small now. Too strong. That’s why you gotta keep pushing me. Please. I can’t stop eating.

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Now available on Amazon

Bennett wasn't always like this... There's a picture of him with a bunch of hot guys shirtless on the deck of a cruise ship. But then Bennett started dating Andrew, who seemed like the man of his dreams. And Bennett got fat.... Really fat. And the longer he dated Andrew, the fatter he got. And now... well, you can read for yourself what happened to Bennett... what Andrew turned him into.

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In case you need to hear it:

I’m fucking proud of you. You’re making yourself so damn fat, and every new pound looks amazing on you. You’re being brave as fuck turning your dream into reality, and I’m so happy for you that you’re getting to be the person you always were on the inside.

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If you don’t mind me asking when might we be getting a new story from you?

I don’t mind a bit! It’s actually very flattering to have my work asked about. I had a huge busy spell that kept me from a couple of new pieces I’ve been working on. I will tease one of them, which is about something I’ve been seeing more and more of in the gainer community.

With a generation or more growing up with the internet, more gainers and encouragers self-identity at a much younger age. So what does a young guy do when he knows that he wants (needs?) to be crippled with fat before he’s even out of his 20s? How does he go about living that life? Also, what about the older man who opted for a career instead? What are his advantages? What are his regrets?

These are the questions I’m exploring in the piece I’m working on now. I hope to make it available in July or August.

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Look. We're all cookies out here.

But the things that make you unique and special are our toppings. Be it sprinkles, chocolate chips or even nuts.. Lol

But people get embarrassed about their own toppings.

Flaunt them bitches. You are the best you, that you can ever be. Be weird, be fat, be smol, be sassy, be you. And you will be beautiful.

Just a friendly reminder from your favorite big Boi!!

Love ya!!

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I really like your attitude about life as a big man. So positive and inspiring. How do you do it? I'm on my journey, similar to yours. I hope I can stay as well adjusted as you when reaching my goal of 450!

Hey :) First of all, thank you so much for taking the time to send this!

The funny thing about social media and these sites is that we pick and choose what we share, so there is a lot that I don’t discuss or dwell on publicly because it isn’t fun to talk about. I struggle maintaining positivity in a lot of public environments, when I feel all of the stares and can sense judgment. Outside of that, it’s taken me quite a few years to get to this point but I’m finally comfortable with my body and being open with who I am.

I think the way we reach that level of comfort is different for all of us. But for me, it became clear that this was what was most important to me and that there was no amount of negativity or judgment that would prevent me from getting bigger. This happened after I went through a hard time and lost 30-40lbs rapidly. I realized how much that weight meant to me and how sad I was without it. Even still being large, I was really missing that 30-40lbs, because the craving to be as big as possible is one that dominates my mind. Once that clicked in my head, things began getting a lot easier, giving into it and learning that most people judge what they don’t understand, and not taking it personally.

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What was the moment that made you go: ”screw it, I’m gonna gain”?

So, before I started gaining I was in a pretty rough patch. I'd had a break-up in the closest thing to a real relationship I've ever really had (not that it was that serious, but yknow, its all relative), my job sucked (call centers just.....suck the life out of you) and I was pretty unhappy. And back then, being unhappy translated into not eating. And I didn't eat much at the best of times.

Fast forward to me passing out on the street after work one day. And that hadnt happened before - I was used to feeling tired and dizzy and weak, sure, but this was pretty scary. So that was the point I decided to work on getting better. And I was lurking on a bunch of gainer websites at the time as well, so the fantasy of becoming fat was there, but it also seemed wayyyy too impossible for me to gain weight - like, I would panic if hit 50kg. Gaining seemed impossible.

And it wasn't easy, but I took some time to just work on eating and gaining weight and being okay with it. And I don't know how I did it, but the weight started to stick, and I started feeling better, not just healthwise, but I was liking the changes. It was exciting, seeing fat cells grow on a body that had so little fat? The changes were weekly.

And I just sorta....kept going with it. I don't think I ever really a 'fuck it, time to get fat' moment because for me starting from being underweight and having such a distorted perspective on things, at the time it was more like 'if I have to get fat (and mind you 'fat' to me back then was like 70kg lol) in order to be able to function, then I'll do it and sort out the rest afterwards.

And then 70kg came and went really quickly. And before I knew it I was over 100kg and not slowing down. And it took until I was....I think around 90kg maybe before I really freaked out and decided to lose weight for a bit. And then I gained back to 120 and freaked out again. But every time I did, I got a little better at understanding what I wanted, and who I wanted to be and the body I wanted to live in. And also learning to not let other people shake that confidence. That took a lot of work.

But the end result has been worth it. Because here I am today, somewhere in the ballpark of 200kg and I have no doubts anymore. So thats pretty awesome. :)

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Bound for a life in bed… Bound to a bed for life… 

Six guys talk to you about immobility... being that fat... getting that fat... making someone that fat... One speaks of how you let yourself become slowly trapped in blubber. Another explains what you need to know before going into the bedroom of a man so fat he’s barely human. One implores you to grow now and savor the joy of crippling your body in fat while you’re still in your sexual prime. And another goads you to prove that you have what it takes to be the boyfriend of a blob. Maybe you’re the one who is speaking. Maybe you’re the one who is spoken to. Explore these desires that you are bound to.

Get it now on Amazon

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New story available now! The Djinn.

As a Harvard freshman on a water polo scholarship, Elliot seems to have it all. But Elliot is plagued with shame and guilt over his secret lust for the massive fat guy in his math class. Then one night in a bar, he meets a stranger who grants his wish to end his suffering, but the consequences are far more than he could have ever imagined. Elliot soon learns that wishes come true…but they don’t come free.

Get it now on Amazon

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I think this is great advice. There’s something here for every gainer, and definitely something encouragers should bear in mind too.

Any tips on gaining weight, because I have been trying to gain weight, but nothing is really working for me can you help?

Breaking a fast metabolism is very challenging, I struggled for a long time with this, I would recommend seeing what you are eating throughout the day and increasing it, eating when you are full etc, it will be challenging. I ate huge bowls of ice cream, pizza, and chicken daily to break mine. Do what’s best for your situation though. Living with others while trying to gain is even harder as well if that is a issue for you like it is me. I was putting my gain on pause in some moments because of that, but anyways, here are the steps I would take…

- evaluate your situation (ie: living with others, mental health, do you have the funds/place to eat alone)

- see your eating habits (ie: do you snack all day or stuff yourself with huge meals)

-DO NOT calorie count!!! (I know other gainers will tell you to do this, but me personally, all that causes is E.D.s and mental illnesses to erupt. I did that in the middle of my journey and it really set me back that progressed me forward)

- Take your time!! (This is a journey, NOT an overnight thing, your body/mind needs to adjust)

-Don’t weigh yourself daily!! (I barely ever weigh myself, because all it does is depress me or makes me happy that is it, no in between, have a day on your calendar in which you weigh yourself, like the 15th of every month or the 7th. It is way better that way!

-Body weight changes!!! (In the morning you weigh less, than the middle of the day. Body weight fluctuates constantly!! DON’T STRESS ABOUT NUMBERS!)

-HAVE FUN WITH GAINING!! (This is fun, with us it is supposed to be fun, not stressful! Don’t stress about not hitting goals or numbers right away! It’s an experience, in which everyone’s different!)

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During the hot weather this summer, it’s so important to keep your pig cool.

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Are you still taking commissions?

Yes I am. I take commissions by schedule and my next openings are in May. I work on the scheduled day, start to finish. Feel free to send me a DM if you’re interested in reserving a date.

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I’ve been actively gaining for years, and I just want to say that I absolutely love what you’re doing here. Thank you for all of the invaluable information and incredible stories- I’m hoping to truly blimp myself and your blog will help tremendously. Thank you!

Thank you so much and for taking the time to write. Much appreciated. 🙏🏻

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What tips would you give to a new gainer?

1. Comparison is the thief of joy. Don’t ever get yourself down because someone else is gaining quicker or “better” than you - revel in your own progress above all.

2. Consistency is all that truly matters. You can have days where you eat like an absolute hog, but if you spend most of the other days eating a lot less, you won’t get anywhere. Maintaining a consistent intake of about 4000 calories a day every day will get you fat much better than the odd inconsistent fast food binge.

3. Also, home cook if at all possible. Fast food is good but it’s super expensive and also not really great for your digestion if you have it every day.

4. Try and shut out toxic encouragers who don’t appreciate what you’ve already done. If you’re talking about how happy your weight makes you, and they just talk about how much more you should gain, it’s a major red flag.

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When he said that gaining and eating whatever he wants just felt natural...

When he said that he gets slightly aroused by the thought of eating..

When he said I’ve helped boost his confidence and that he loves his body now..

I know I did my job, and did it very well

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I know it was made about 5 years ago, but I was recently diagnosed with prediabetes and I was super worried on how that might affect my gaining, but I looked around on Grommr about diabetes and gaining and found someone who posted a link to your diabetes post, and that gave me so much hope for the future, so I’d like to thank you for that and let you know that your post is still helping gainers!

Wow! I’m so glad! Thank you 👍🏻