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right to breathe "Every fiber of you has the right to breathe no matter the amount of melanin your epidermis has." —eunoiaartwork: Strati Di Blue

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On giving gifts

We decided to see each other, for the first time, after everything. While we sit on our favorite spot, at our favorite coffee shop, the awkward breeze made me shiver.

“It’s been a while. How have you been?” He blurted out finally.

“Yeah, it’s been a while and I’m perfectly fine. You?”

I smiled at the thought that my lips were not trembling anymore.

He heaved a deep sigh I didn’t know…

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On Today's Caffeine

On Today’s Caffeine

Perhaps, you’re wondering why I haven’t talked to you for a while now. Although for sure, you knew I’m up most of the time because of too much caffeine while scribbling.

Well, I had to say this; those caffeine I had made me think where we went wrong from the very start.

Yup, I finally learned to live without you. No amount of hi or hello could pull me back towads you anymore. Also, learning…

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fireflies

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Grow into me

Truth is, I’ve wandered long into your soul already. I had this bad habit of getting lost in your eyes that I usually find myself mingling with your thoughts. And on the few accidental trips I had in there, that place grew into me.

It was filled with so much hope, joy and love that you long withheld. You’ve got so many positive thoughts to share and good words not to spare but you always end…

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Lessons

I’ve learned my lessons from that break-up; On how doors were easily shut behind, alongside with the inability to hear explanations. On how galumphs were louder all of a sudden than our heartbeats. On how tears poured and gone to waste just like those promises. On no amount of comfort words and foods could ease the pain in the chest triggering anxiety and panic attacks. On waking up feeling the…

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Another Shot

I’d like to think and give this relationship another shot, just one last shot.

No matter how painful, that last grain of salt which you rubbed to my wounded heart.

Tried to seek, and to look for a silver lining, and even romanticized your infidelity.

Justified your actions, thinking it was an own fault. But how do you sleep, upon a questioned self-worth?

But then, I’d like it more to give myself…

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Hopes After This Pandemic

—bsb

I hope after this pandemic, may we finally realize how a family becomes a home. May we try reaching out to them more often and resolving our differences. Now, more than ever is the time we can talk to them and tell them how much we care for them.

Acknowledging the fact that not all families were home, I sincerely hope we heal from all the wounds of the past. May our scarred hearts…

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i wonder

sometimes, I wonder; how does it feel to be chosen by someone you earnestly desire?

were those butterflies in the stomach never cease? or giddiness exist only in the first few weeks?

how was it not to linger long, in that option stall? an aisle passed by too many, but only a few were chosen and picked.

were your doubts cleared, and insecurities erased? did you stop seeking self-worth and finding…

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i wonder

sometimes, I wonder; how does it feel to be chosen by someone you earnestly desire?

were those butterflies in the stomach never cease? or giddiness exist only in the first few weeks?

how was it not to linger long, in that option stall? an aisle passed by too many, but only a few were chosen and picked.

were your doubts cleared, and insecurities erased? did you stop seeking self-worth and finding…

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Does it?

Does it scare you when you see me consume more than a cup of coffee every day and how it makes me sane more than anything in this world? Coz love, it scares me more knowing that you will leave again, one day, any time. So I try my best to be awake and watch you endlessly until I feel the need to sleep. Just so you know, you are much more addiction to me than coffee.

Does it scare you when you…

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favorite street

when the weather is fine and the stars finally realign we will meet again at our favorite street and reminisce how we’ve come this far by being broken and being boxed in an identity which we clearly are not and realize too that no matter how far our dreams fly us the stars will conspire, and the weather will be fine for us to meet again, . . . at our favorite street.

—bsb Artwork: @artruthpage//instagram.com

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When I Call You Home

Some people have been through hell and high waters and not all were able to get up from the pit and beat the tides. So, don’t act surprised if everyone else could not just shove home into their mouths. They may have been tricked not just once, but many times of what a home is. And really, some were small, some were colossal but they all don’t appeal to them. Instead, these pseudo-homes just made…

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Few Ways on How to Ease Anxiety and Panic Attacks Amid COVID-19 Pandemic

I’m aware of how our current situation all over the world impacted our mental health. It is not surprising at all knowing that most of us have lived our lives outgoing, loud, outspoken and partying. We do stay in the virtual world for longer hours, but seldom because of work.

We can not visit our therapists, we cannot talk to our counsellors and sadly, we can not even see our real friends.

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LDR

We stopped missing each other again. Maybe, this is the thing about a long-distance relationship. The distance can grow on us we stop measuring how far we’ve moved away from each other, every day.

Or maybe you’ve lost that thing called love again, haven’t you?

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Artwork: Alessandra Olanow

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ANNOUNCEMENT!

Hello readers! Been on a hiatus for how many months now. I hope you are all well despite the worldwide condition at the very moment. May we all heal from this pandemic and emerge from it successfully from battling with boredom, stress and anxiety.

It will never be easy. It will be a whole different world next time. But I sincerely pray, it’s better.

Stay home, although not everyone has a…

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A Wife's Letter to an Unsung Hero

A Wife’s Letter to an Unsung Hero

“I remember you telling me you wanted to be a hero. I’ve got a lot of things in my mind when you said that; you might be a reserved army of this country one day, you might save a drowning person because you were too good at swimming, you might save someone from being depressed because you were such a happy pill, and the list goes on. We were still young and naive at that time. Until one day, we…