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Why is it so hard to get help. I’m trying so hard to get help.

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Somewhere along the line passion turned into a project

A project to an obligation

An obligation to resentment

When you take something you love

And try to turn it into profit

It’s no longer “I’m improving”

It’s “I’m not good enough”

It’s no longer stress relief

Its a reminder of your failures

You’re not exploring new things

You’re wasting time

You’re not relaxing

You’re being lazy

You didn’t find a new interest

You quit

And in the end

All I have is a pile of supplies

Sitting in the corner

Mocking me for what I never was

And what I couldn’t be

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ig: slavenavena

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the amity affliction / pittsburgh

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barbara dzērve-ozoliņa

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i was never supposed to make it this far what do you mean my future depends on me i cant even get my ass out of bed to make myself a sandwich

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me: *gets drunk*

mental illnesses: we’re still here btw (:

me: what the fuck??????????

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Hey

Let’s get drunk and pretend we are ok!

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Anne Sexton, ‘The Addict’

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"what are your goals for 2025" honestly, to not kill myself but I don't wanna bring the room down lmao