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Spawns in from the darkness to offer you some mental illness in these trying times cutely

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I must materialize from my eternal void to say I've made a snurp. More will appear. Behold my son

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Honestly tho

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Hot take: they should have shown Zuko explaining what "flameo hotman" means to Aang

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genuinely one of the worst things that’s happened to television in the last few years (exacerbated by streaming services) is death of Filler. going from 20 episodes to 8 because “we didn’t really need that episode where the main characters went to the beach right? it had no long lasting effect” but we DID!!! we needed to see how they act without the Big Bad Plot and to establish the dynamics between the characters and lay in the sun (do they forget sunscreen? how do they react to a thieving seagull? do they get buried in the sand or do they do the burying?). the plot isn’t everything. the action doesn’t hit as hard without the quiet moments. give us character development and our little scenes back

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I haven't posted in ages and probably won't post regularly anytime soon, but I got a new favorite game in town

And I made fanart of one of the critters so enjoy

I may eventually make a fanfic of the critter

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I became so normal over a game that isn't even out and I have no regrets

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I love how people with chronic pain can be at extreme levels of pain and just be like “My body is ouchie”

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people with medical issues are not “putting a strain on the medical system”. that’s what the medical system is for. yes this includes people with substance use related medical issues and other people considered “undeserving” of help

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I wipe the sweat from my brow as I stare at my to-do list. I'm doing all of these tasks at once;

-bouncing a baby on my leg for a spy friend (they need babysitting, I need money)

-fixing a motorcycle for my other spy friend

-making a fake id for my friend in the CIA

-making a cake recipe so perfect, my friend's coworker will definitely win that competition or whatever

-writing a script for a director friend of Cheryl's (she's also my friend)

-thinking about getting new friends (pending)

I never left college. I've learned that the moment I do, I won't be of use to my "friends" anymore. I'll be abandoned, just like I was back in '97. I've got no family out there I can fall back on.

Don't get me wrong, I love helping people. My only issue with my life thus far is how I cannot relax anymore. I'm always doing something for someone, usually for free or at a very discounted price.

I held my nose, calming the baby. It's all okay, at least. At least my friends have an easier life. If I have to suffer, at least it's not in vain.

I looked down as the phone rang. I picked it up and heard Jacque, an old friend, on the other line.

"hey, can you do something for m-"

I hung up and threw my phone across the room. It's as if they ONLY ever contact me if they want something. They may be my friends, but I'm not theirs. I was never THEIR friend.

Honestly, the only good I can think of coming out of this is the fact I could do whatever I wanted, all by myself.

... Hey... I could do it all by myself. If I WERE to be a "bad guy" in society's eyes, it would be hard for me to get caught... After all, I'm "close" to all of the "heroes".

It's not like I'd kill anyone... I would never hurt anyone.

All I want is a break.

Yeah... A BREAK.

I'm done being the nice guy that helps everyone without question. It's time to do a little something for ME.

Besides, it's not like it's a bad thing to want a bit of space, right? As long as they don't get in my way, everything will be just fine.

I smiled to myself as I looked at the kid. I'll continue to play their little games... So they won't know what is happening until it is too late.

“Don’t worry, I’ve got a guy.”

You’re the guy everyone’s got.

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I've seen this before, but it's been years and it just came across my Twitter in its dying days. The words are from a favorite author of mine, Maggie Stiefvater, and they are the words I most need to hear when it comes to dealing with chronic pain and illness. I didn't need this the first time I saw it, six years ago. I need it now. Maybe you do, too.

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April fool's? ⁉️ Only for April 1st? ⁉️ That's a weak mindset. That's low perfomance 📉 👎👎 I am a fool every day 🗓 The grind 💪💪💪📈 never stops ❌ ⛔️ I am in it for the long run 🔛🏃‍♀️ No quitter mindset here 🚫🔝 🏆

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