bearlydruid

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friendly reminder that even if i take ages to reply, i still want to roleplay with you

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'𝕤𝕡𝕚𝕔𝕪' 𝕘𝕚𝕗 𝕡𝕣𝕠𝕞𝕡𝕥𝕤 🌶️

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[bearlydruid]

Papa Bear (ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ.ﾟ

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He is absolutely perfect - I didn’t WANT to look the last third because I wanted to see him all finished first. And I cried!!!

[bearlydruid]

// I’m not dead, I’m slowly getting better and making progress but today I’m doing an extremely important thing to me - I’m getting a memorial tattoo of my baby boy Couper.

I had 17 BEAUTIFUL years either him. Five homes. He saw me through horrible circumstances and was with me in my most joyous times too. He was a sweet presence with my baby when she was born, and until his last days had an abundance for love.

Im sure I’ll be crying through parts of this, but I’m so happy

[bearlydruid]

reblog if you’re 25+ and still roleplay; or if you believe older muns have a place in the rpc and shouldn’t be told to give it up when they turn 30. 

i received this anon & i just want to make a point. 

[bearlydruid]

PROMPTS FOR REUNITING LOVERS *  assorted dialogue for my fav scenario ever where two lovers have been apart for a while and finally see each other again, adjust as necessary

i never thought i'd ever see you again.

so many nights i have spent tossing and turning, dreaming of the day i see you again.

you're a sight for sore eyes.

i missed your hugs.

i never should have left your side, not for a second.

we were apart for far too long.

i cannot be away from you ever again.

kiss me again.

where have you been? i've been searching for you!

these are happy tears, i promise.

let me take this opportunity to remind you how deeply i love you.

just look at me for a while. let me remember your eyes.

seeing you again just reminds me how much i love you.

quick, while no one's looking - let's find a place where we can be alone.

sleeping without you has been impossible.

don't let me leave you ever again.

i need you to promise me we'll never be apart ever again.

please forgive me for crying, but i never thought i'd ever see you again.

you're just as beautiful as i remember.

let me get a good look at you.

when i went looking for you, i couldn't find you.

never leave me again.

i never should have let you go.

kiss me a while.

you were worth waiting for.

we were meant to be together.

i searched and searched and i couldn't find you.

i'm looking forward to some alone time with you.

please don't cry. i'm right here.

will you hug me again?

hug me and never let go.

i missed the taste of your kiss.

please touch me.

i need you close to me at all times.

that was far too long to be apart from you.

i can't sleep without you.

you are the most beautiful sight i have ever seen.

we're going to need a lot of time to catch up.

i hate when you leave.

they told me you were searching for me.

this was worth the wait.

am i dreaming, or are you really in front of me?

[name]? is that really you?

be with me tonight.

we have been fighting all day to reach you.

they said you stayed behind to wait for me.

[bearlydruid]

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[bearlydruid]

reblog this if your icon could kill a man

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The best ship dynamic is actually just. "I love you and it terrifies me. I'm terrified how much I need you and how much I want you to need me. I'm terrified I'm no good for you and I'm going to hurt you and ruin you and I'm terrified of how I feel when you're around me but I can't bear to push you away completely because I'm terrified to be without you so now we're stuck in limbo and that's terrifying too. I'm terrified that if I lost you now it'd destroy me and I'm terrified that it's too late to do anything about it. I love you. And it's terrifying."

[bearlydruid]

pampering...

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The chuckle he let out is obvious, even if it sounds far more throaty and deeper. He cannot resist his lover, his mate, and the desire that clung heavily to their scents. With these senses and the proximity to Astarion’s skin, the pheromones Halsin is all but basking in send him seeking more. The tip of his tongue greedily swept across the head of Astarion’s weeping cock, the bear giving a heavy groan. Although he is not immune to his beloved’s hubris, there are many ways in which it has been well earned and the only world that Halsin could think of to describe Astarion’s taste was divine.

He felt greedy with the way that he alternated carefully licking and teasing his prehensile lips up Astarion’s cock until the bear plunged his tongue deep inside his lover - he was already relaxed and loosened by their earlier fun, but then Halsin knew it was still a great ask when covered in fur. He wished he could have told Astarion how much it meant, how much he meant, but his mother had taught him it was impolite to talk when his mouth was already occupied. He adjusted his weight, one heavy paw pressing against his heavy cock. It made him groan, the sound coming from deep in his chest, tongue curling to press everywhere he can reach. He took particular joy in the memory of the first time Astarion had ridden his face, controlling just how deeply Halsin’s tongue had been sank into him.

It took a healthy deal of control for Halsin not to spend the rest of his evening just like this, devouring Astarion’s soul orgasm by orgasm, just seeing how many he could wretch from his vampire. There would be time, surely, and if he wasn’t careful he’d find himself on his back at the rogue’s mercy. Not at all an unpleasant thought, but perhaps one for later - if of course Astarion even enjoyed the feeling of his much larger body. The anticipation made a shiver run down his spine, shifting his weight so that he can press a paw onto the mattress. Lifted up he towers even more drastically over Astarion. No doubt it might call a visceral, instinctive response from Astarion - every instinct in him wanted to prove he was good enough to be chosen by his mate. Astarion deserved to be taken care of properly.

Halsin was still taking his time even as settled himself properly. Thick hips rocked without the intention of burying himself in his rogue yet, but more to ensure contact and give Astarion a proper way to feel his size. The sound that comes from the mahogany bear is tender and crooning, seeking permission - approval from his mate. There still is that low whisper in Halsin’s mind that Astarion could do better - that he deserves better. It certainly had no room between them as he flexed his hips again, dragging his cock just over Astarion’s entrance. There was a sharp inhale, a grunt as his cock twitched against Astarion’s ass. He was happy to serve.

@taleswritten

[bearlydruid]

“Too well tangled”🤍

[bearlydruid]

BLOOD  KINK  PROMPTS 

this is exactly what it is so ya know consume kink content at your own discretion.  general content warning for blood consumption, cannibalistic implications and knife cutting. *blows a kiss* this ones for all you monster fuckers out there. 

[ CUT ]  for sender to use a knife on receiver,  making light cuts on their skin as a form of foreplay. 

[ SLIT ]  for receiver to use a knife on sender,  making light cuts on their skin as a form of foreplay.  

[ BITE ]  for sender to bite receiver hard enough to draw blood during sex. 

[ BITTEN ]  for receiver to bite sender hard enough to draw blood during sex. 

[ CLING ]  for after battle sex with both muses covered in blood. 

[ TASTE ]  for sender to bite receiver’s lip hard enough to break skin and then lick the blood. 

[ TASTED ]  for receiver to bite sender’s lip hard enough to break skin and then lick the blood. 

[ SAMPLE ]  for sender to wipe at smeared blood on receiver that isn’t theirs then proceed to lick it off their finger. 

[ SAMPLED ]  for receiver to wipe at smeared blood on sender that isn’t theirs then proceed to lick it off their finger. 

[ TAKE ]  sender has a small injury and receiver wipes away some of the blood then licks it off their hand. 

[ TAKEN ]  receiver has a small injury and sender wipes away some of the blood then licks it off their hand. 

[ CONSUME ]  sender needs to feed on human blood,  receiver makes cuts in their skin for them to feed off of. 

[ CONSUMED ]  receiver needs to feed on human blood,  sender makes cuts in their skin for them to feed off of. 

[ OFFERING ]  sender lets receiver feed on their blood through whatever means is natural for them. 

[ OFFERED ]  receiver lets sender feed on their blood through whatever means is natural for them. 

[ GIVE ]  sender wipes their own blood off their skin then puts their blood-stained fingers to receiver’s mouth for them to lick clean. 

[ GIVEN ]  receiver wipes their own blood off their skin then puts their blood-stained fingers to sender’s mouth for them to lick clean. 

[ MUFFLED ]  for sender to bite receiver during sex to muffle themselves but end up drawing blood. 

[ MUFFLING ]  for receiver to bite sender during sex to muffle themselves but end up drawing blood. 

[ DRINK ]  sender feeds off receiver’s blood by biting their breasts. 

[ DRINKING ]  receiver feeds off sender’s blood by biting their breasts. 

[ SAVOR ]  sender is giving receiver oral then bites their thighs to lick at their blood. 

[ SAVORING ]  receiver is giving sender oral then bites their thighs to lick at their blood.

[ PAIN ]  sender makes cuts in receiver’s thighs before or during oral. 

[ PAINED ]  receiver makes cuts in sender’s thighs before or during oral.  

[bearlydruid]

// My brain has been *loudly* just protesting and I feel really insecure. I'm sorry :< I want to be more present and I'm really trying, though

[bearlydruid]

Astarion's parents still being alive and visiting his grave only to see the fucking new date carved into the stone.

And then Halsin and Astarion coming back to see it only to see there's a little star blanket folded up on the grave stone.

What ensures is a parent/child hunt.

But also, Astarion stumbling on his parents when they're putting something down on said grave and he gets snappy because to him, there's just two strangers but then the strangers start crying and he's just stood there watching with his emotional support Halsin stood at his back.

[bearlydruid]

Astarion and Halsin's traumas were meant to be foils

When characters are foils, there are two components: first, there's a shared background, event, personality trait, etc. But how the characters act from then on are diametrically opposed, allowing us an insight into the various ways people can act or respond to one core "element". In this case, I would argue that Halsin and Astarion are meant to be foils in their responses to sexual slavery.

Both Astarion and Halsin were denied their freedom and agency, raped and abused. Both were very young when this happened; Astarion was in his 30s, which is before elves are considered to reach their majority, while Halsin's age wasn't specified, but he goes out of his way to mention "youth" many times. In other words- both were young enough for this to be a formative memory for them. Both carry deep traumas from their experiences. Both are incredibly physically attractive, and allude to or outright say that their looks played a part in their captivity; Astarion was used to seduce others for Cazador, while Halsin notes that his Drow captors "took an interest in him" and saw him "as a novelty"- most likely for his looks as much as for his race. Both were raped by people of high social status- Cazador a wealthy influential figure in Baldur's Gate, and Halsin's captors high-ranking Drow nobles. That is what they have in common.

But their responses to their traumas are complete opposites.

First, just the nature of how they express their traumas. Astarion is LOUD about it. He expresses it all openly; he is traumatized. And he knows he didn't deserve what happened to him.

Halsin buries it. He pretends it was no big deal. He victim-blames himself, saying it was his fault for being a "foolhardy young Druid" intent on seeing the Underdark.

Astarion despises Cazador; he wants revenge. He will do anything to get revenge on his abuser. This need for closure is the core of Astarion's entire arc, to the point that of all the scenarios I can think of where Astarion leaves the party, most of them involve his journey to kill Cazador.

Halsin has trauma bonds (also known as Stockholm Syndrome.) He speaks kindly of his captors even when describing their abuse. He says he feared for his life, but he "did some things that were less than necessary," making it sound like he was complicit in his own rape. He can't even bring himself to call them captors (except for one option in the new datamined dialogue), nor himself a sex slave; instead, he was something "between a guest, prisoner, and consort."

Astarion is (in most cases) ultimately allowed closure; he kills Cazador. In the bad path, he then joins the cycle of abuse by killing the other vampires; in good scenarios, he only kills Cazador, and then has a cathartic, tearful breakdown after.

Halsin never had (or seemed to want) that closure; he escaped while his captors were fighting another noble house, and his freedom was all he wanted. Whether his captors lived or not, he doesn't care.

Astarion is younger, and his trauma a shorter time ago, yet he has processed what happened more; he is both further ahead and further behind on his healing journey than Halsin.

Halsin is older, and his trauma longer ago, but he hasn't processed what happened to him; bouncing from trauma to trauma and being forced into a leadership role caused him to have to bury it. He is both further behind and further ahead on his healing journey than Astarion.

Astarion makes a point of avoiding intimacy; he only has a few exceptions with the player. (Ascended Astarion becomes much more confident, but that's a bit different.)

Halsin is incredibly sexually open. He enjoys sex of all kinds; he finds it comforting, the only way he can openly express his emotions after having to stay in control as Archdruid all the time.

Astarion dissociates during the Drow brothel orgy. He is miserable and uncomfortable, but doesn't regret it; he needed to take the step to explore his sexuality on his terms. Even if it triggered him, he still wanted the experience, and indeed, finding what one's triggers are is an important step for many survivors.

Halsin enjoys himself during the orgy, and even seems pleased after, but then he lets the cracks show, talking about how he was held as a slave. He enjoyed it during, but after, the thoughts started creeping in, as he was reminded of his captivity.

Astarion will respond to cruel player comments about Cazador with a massive hit in approval, and possibly breaking up with a romanced player, like when they say they have a kidnapping fantasy about him if he's kidnapped by the spawn.

Halsin, in the new dialogue options, doesn't seem to react that much even to cruel comments; when the player threatens to sell him back into slavery, all he has to say is, "you would be unwise to attempt it, trust me. In any case, the house of my captors is long-extinct." (Followed by him having an epiphany that they WERE his captors) He never gets angry at the player despite the absolute evil of this option; as with nearly every other mean thing the player says to him, he simply shrugs it off, clearly sad but brushing it off as always. Being the "bigger person", literally and metaphorically.

Astarion was left with scars all over his back, symbolizing how this is something he'll never break free from entirely.

Halsin was left with no scars, his only prominent one being from an unrelated incident, symbolizing how much work he puts in to hide his traumas.

It's understated, so a lot of players aren't going to think about it much because of this, but I think it's worth bringing up as a note on characterization!