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imagine looking in your rear view mirror and you just see this

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https://www.tumblr.com/artdcnaldson/759016621811646464/praying-for-it-to-happen-to-you-bc-im-too-nervous

I’m in the same boat as you, and I’m too scared to even try and catch up i’m 23 w no romantic / sexual experience and it makes me so upset , but I am too terrified to try cuz I don’t think I’m appealing to men (lol idk if I’m saying this right ) and I happen to be a straight girly

I need someone to approach me first cuz there’s no other way , and this feels impossible cuz everytime I bring this up to my friends they’re like ‘’it’s ur energy, the energy you put out is what you receive’’ i have no idea what they mean other than be extroverted and look a certain way.

I know for a fact there is nothing wrong w my energy, i hit it off w girls and guys in a platonic way constantly (I literally work in public relations I have to have good people skills!!). ALSO I refuse to believe straight men are these Intuitive creatures who can ‘read energy’ they’re literally the shallowest demographic on the planet , I have no idea and I keep hearing this advice from my friends who get male attention

And also I’ve been on dating apps, I’ve been set up and I’m not attracted to anyone (when I had to text this one man I wanted to throw up) it’s just so hard I’m so tired 😭

I love them but they don’t get it, and everytime I hear this it makes me want to tear my hair out ,, feels like I’ll never be seen in that light and I’ll be stuck wondering what’s wrong with me

Omg sorry I went on a tangential rant 😭😭😭😭

But anyway my point was that ur not alone in this and good things will happen for sure ❤️‍🩹

I’m 🔮anon at poppy’s blog and if it’s not taken can I be the same anon here also pleek 🙏

Ofc you can baby <3 welcome 🔮 anon <3

But it’s genuinely the fucking worst and it feels like no one gets it!!! It’s so fucking damaging to the psyche to make it THIS far without having romantic experience like. I’m sorry but I cannot take advice from anyone not in the same boat seriously. Like clearly we are living to drastically different lives!!!

And literally about not liking anyone and wanting to throw up messaging people…… you’re so real for that. I’m the exact same way and idk if it’s a defense mechanism or what at this point. I’m just so used to literally being completely overlooked and ignored that it’s like well… I’ll just do that first 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ it’s like u said, that feeling of something just being inherently wrong with u like…. Exactly!! Like if someone would just be honest and say what it was about me that wasn’t good I could just fix it yk?

I also feel like completely unsexy and unappealing, like I feel like I’m the type of person that someone will end up settling for once I’m like 35 and desperate but even then like probably not yk!! Who wants to date someone that no one else has wanted so it’s like !!?!?

Anyways now I went on a tangential depressing rant so we’re even <3

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this is so me coded 🤪😩😫

Sugar daddy applications open because I am single and jellycats are expensive

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miniso.official on ig

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please look at this graffiti my sister saw in paris

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you can’t pick and choose when you want to be a girl’s girl btw

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I absolutely will love my stuffed animals for life ❤️❤️ if you're gonna make fun of me for being childish go away :(

at least I have a youthful heart that isn't stone cold ☺️

“oh I’m too old for stuffed animals” skill issue. sorry you can’t appreciate little creatures made to hang out with you, I on the other hand am full of joyous whimsy and therefore vastly superior.

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Wow wtf HIV/AIDS was discovered by Flossie Wong-Staal, an Chinese-American woman, and she’s the reason the HIV test even exists. AND THEN she invented the molecular knife that lead to treatments for HIV/AIDS. And she’s STILL ALIVE. We don’t hear about the contributions of Women of Color enough, my word. Madness.

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sabrina carpenter: my give a fucks are on vacation

sabrina carpenter in the next song: please don’t embarrass me. please don't make me cry and ruin my makeup. please don't prove 'em right. you're so embarrassing i need you to stay indoors... ooh what a nice ceiling fan

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the tortured poets department - taylor swift

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i have this sad lonely little girl inside of me all the time and all i want in my life is for someone to sit with her and hold her and love her and i think that person has to be me

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Taylor Swift, Fortnight (feat. Post Malone)

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snoopy of the day

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late night musings

sometimes, all a girl ever wants is to experience that sweet feeling of falling in love. to find someone that is so like-minded, yet different. to find someone that challenges the mind, yet still respects and validates your thoughts and opinions. someone who supports me and my life ambitions as we work towards a common goal - be it career or family-wise. to find someone who I'm able to have endless conversations with about absolutely anything.

but in life, we can't always have what we want. and that's the hard truth. I've always been envious of people who are lucky enough to meet the right person and fall in love because I've never been able to experience it, not even once.

i'm comfortable with my looks, my ambitions, and life goals, my qualities as well as the status of being single. I've learnt to live with my singleness for 21 years of my life, what's a couple more years? but just once, I wish I could experience what it feels like to fall in love - with someone that actually reciprocates it. just once, I wish to have someone who would hold me close and tell me that I'm the star of their world. just once, I wish I wasn't overlooked for someone prettier, someone conventionally more feminine, someone closer in proximity, someone who's willing to drop all other important things like work responsibilities to just "hang out".

i have so much love to give, and I wish for once, someone would just be able to see it and show the same for me. unfortunately, no matter how hard you wish for something, no matter how badly you want it, some things are just not meant to be. and you have to live with and accept it, no matter how long it takes for you to come to terms with it. but it still stings, especially when you lie in bed and dream about your dream wedding, or dream of having a blissful, married, domestic life, and realise that it may never happen for you.