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From “did you feed Gary?” To “did you water Gary?” is such a bittersweet transition, but that’s how we go on our life each day.

3 weeks ago, my boyfriend’s cat passed away. He is not my pet but I cared and had a strong bond with this cat for over 4 years of me going to my boyfriend’s place. He became part of my morning routine when I sleepover. He has been living for 22 years, longer than the average life span of a cat. He had a good life being an indoor cat. He was my boyfriend’s best friend.

We all grieve differently, and there is no wrong way to grieve even though society says so otherwise. I cried a lot for a week while my boyfriend took a week for everything to sink in before he gave in and cried. Now, we’re watering a pot containing his ashes to make it bloom into a flower. I even decorated his pot with stickers (and plan to put more) just so it’ll be nice to see our Gary is blooming on a pot that is truly dedicated for him.

Life truly goes on for the living. We have to move on with our lives because we don’t have choice. We have to live and carry on with our lives. I don’t think we’re never gonna get over with the pain. It just goes on waves. Sadly, it applies to everyone that we care for that will die before us eventually. The world doesn’t stop revolving but it’ll feel like it when we are truly in pain. I had grieved over the death of my uncle, my childhood bestfriend, and now with Gary (the cat) recently. I have to remind myself that I have to be strong because this is only the beginning. Every time death comes to the conversation, it makes me appreciate all the people that are still living. I suddenly find myself saying “i love you” randomly to my mom (and even to my dad when we get in touch).

We’re never promised a tomorrow so let’s make the best out of life while we can.

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My two workspaces.

First photo is at my boyfriend’s place. We got an L-desk from my friend who left Hawaii so I’m so grateful that I got it for free. I didn’t need it but it’s hard to pass up a free desk especially desk nowadays cost up to $500. It came as a good reason to get it since I always wanted to draw on a bigger canvas so the table at the right which was my former desk is gonna be used for bigger projects. I’m honestly excited to use this workspace more now than my workspace at home.

Second and third photo: my very own small workspace. I love this room and I’m here most of the time. The only thing that annoys me with this room is it gets really hot since this room faces on the west. Not even my ceiling fan can save me. I like natural sunlight in the room always but it’s hard to face my window when it’s also sunny. I love every bit of area in this room though. Small but I tried to make do with every space.

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Going back to Tumblr. ❤️

I’m just tired of Instagram. I realized over the past few weeks and even the past year how I hate the app but still continue to use it because of reasons. Now, I feel like I can really leave it and not care about it at all. I’m not gonna delete it and I’m gonna come back from time to time but I’m going back with more intention. Hopefully. I do tell myself this all the time but I still get sucked in but I plan to leave it eventually. Having a small art business and still seeing a big art community on instagram is what is still holding me back so I wanted to slowly grow a community in real life and online like here on Tumblr, Discord, Substack, Youtube, and even Reddit (in moderation since I still sometimes get sucked into a rabbit hole). I feel like going to healthier alternatives of social media will be a lot more fun to use the internet for than doom scrolling for ages with no little to no value in my life.

Consciously curating what enters my life, the power to choose what content to see, and enjoying real life experiences and moments and enjoying hobbies is very gratifying and makes life so much better.

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