To all of us who are a wacky mess and don't really understand wtf we are.
You are valid my friend. Just because you don't know which one suits you best or you just don't like fitting into one term, you're okay, you're still part of the community and I love you.
Sometimes you need to scorch everything to the ground, and start over. After the burning the soil is richer, and new things can grow. People are like that, too. They start over. They find a way.
Start over, my darling. Be brave enough to find the life you want and courageous enough to chase it. Then start over and love yourself the way you were always meant to.
self care tip: if you’re depressed or feeling down and don’t feel like leaving bed, change the sheets on your bed to nice, fresh, clean ones that smell good, and then take a shower or a bath, dress in clean pajamas, and go ahead and get back into bed. the tiny bit of work for the day will make you feel like you accomplished something, and you’ll feel clean and refreshed which will put you in a better state of mind.