bemsss

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will You hold me

if i do this

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i guess people expect you to just chase them forever

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i went back on ig to share some updates on what God has done in my life this year + finishing first year. i finally chose to stop hiding.

fear has many names, i've noticed.

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keep moving forward

as your life moves forward

don't let it pass you

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endless love for this place ❤️🇰🇪

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i want community 🥺

the brother of an old friend from college is a content creator now. i've been seeing her on yt and it doesn't make me sad or nostalgic for the friendship but it makes me ponder on what it means to be seen. it makes me wonder if i was actually seen in that friendship. it makes me think about the importance of being seen.

community takes time. God has pruned a lot of what i thought i had. it will take time to rebuild. i'm tired of feeling like i'm perpetually starting over but who am i to fight what God is doing in my life? unless it isn't God and it's me trying to arm myself with a faulty shield

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i've been off ig since january. i've been feeling disconnected from everyone. ig is full of distractions and i don't enjoy it which is why i left but i feel like i should learn how to tolerate it. i've been missing feeling creative. hard to explain it. i feel like i've created this rigid box for myself under the guise of "focusing on me." i can't really tell if i'm actually doing that or being scared. "focus, faithfulness, and freedom" were my words for the year. we were doing great until fear kicked in

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idk sometimes adhd feels like a trap. trying to view it as a superpower but living with it feels like towing a tightrope at times

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self-imposed silence?

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ought to start printing photos for storage space

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where can i cop an air afrique jersey 🥺

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i think i wanna raise my kids in a metropolitan African city. i have really loved nairobi. it's Africa of the future to me.

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i'm in Kenya 🥹

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sometimes she's #baddiebems 😏💟

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me today 🥹 praise God 💜💜💜

Trust God