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People are selfish

They only want your presence for their benefit

Nothing else but to not feel alone

In a world where connection is most important,

I don’t feel connected

I feel I’ve neglected

Myself

Just to please everyone else

What more do you want from me?

All this outside noise getting to me

Expectations expectations expectations

I don’t want to join in on the fun

Because what is really fun?

When you’re not having fun

What is your definition of fun?

Because it’s not mine

I

Rather do what I wanna do

I don’t wanna waste time

Old conditioning still pressuring me

Telling me I’m not free

Stop asking so much of me

I can’t take it

I don’t want to take it

I want to be left alone so I can actually be alone and not feel alone in a room full of people who aren’t supposed to make me feel alone

I don’t really relate to anyone anymore

Every conversation is a bore

I don’t care about him or her

Useless information

Useless conversation

What happened to talking about education

Or honest communication?

I don’t trust anyone who talks about everyone or even anyone for that matter

Because when I turn my back,

I’m part of the conversation

And when I tell the truth

It doesn’t get the right interpretation

Everything is taken into projection

And posted in a publication for everyone to see how bad of a person you can be when you really had the need

To speak the truth

That’s why they say the truth hurts

It’s all in the pudding

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I reflect on what emotions I’ve gone through and find that you’re feelings can be changed in seconds with your thoughts

Auto pilot in the sky for long flights

Sometimes I like being in my head

Sometimes I like thinking to myself

Sometimes I like fantasizing and replaying and reprogramming my experiences in my head

I’m discovering a more intense level of myself

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I don’t want to lose the people I love

I really love them

Even when we’re both comfortable not talking for days, sometimes weeks

We still come back to this feeling that we’ve always given each other

A comfort that allows compassion

A true friendship, I’d say

And darling let me just say

It’ll all be okay

I see what you’ve gone through

Nobody really sees you

You stay strong for yourself

Because if you’re weak

you’ll only feel more pain

So you find love in the most familiar places

Finding out that those were the most toxic spaces

And now you have to re-wire your brain waves

And hope that you reach your good fate

Destiny will give you those opportunities

It’s your choice to choose

So choose wisely

And love hard

That one was about my friend ^

This one is about you

To you learn what unconditional love is

You have to be conscious of what love us

Til then I ask the question

Why must there be conditions

Why must i put up a shield of ego

Why must i push myself away

And self destruct

I never can tell what’s right or wrong

I’m only listening to songs

I’ll try not to be indecisive for long

So I can make a choice to stick with it

I self destruct because I feel the need to control my feelings rather than not

You gotta realize at some point you have to let go of control

And let your heart lead you

You need to meditate more

You’re reacting more

You’re letting emotions guide you

But it’s confusing cause don’t we let our emotions guide us

Or actually not

We actually have to have self control with these emotions

But also how can you distinct emotions with feeling

Hmmmmmmmm

Emotions are feelings

Feelings are from the body

Your body is your subconscious

If you’re aware of ur bodies feelings and not emotions you feel, then you are following intuition

If you’re aware of ur emotions and not ur bodies feelings, then you’re letting fear take over

Okay boom bam Sam

Figure it out

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I’m sitting at my 9-5 thinking about what’s about to happen on my 5-9

After work, I’ll get off and spend time with people

Kinda don’t want to spend time with people

Kinda want to be selfish cause I got work to do, for myself

I don’t ever seem to have time for myself

But who’s fault is that

Nobodies but my own

I don’t set boundaries, I never say no

I’m giving my soul away to people that don’t care

They only care to have me in their energy so they don’t feel lonely

How empty is that?

But i keep going back because I only care to have them in my energy so I don’t feel lonely

How empty is that?

I keep going back to the people that hurt me and the places that make me feel

Trapped in my mind,

Guess that’s where i reside

I keep finding that life will test you a million times

because your karma is a cycle

Going in circles

Spinning around with the world,

Sometimes i have to stop myself from thinking the world is spinning around me

Ego can get to me

Ego can get to me

Sometimes i have to stop myself from talking too much

Opening my mouth seems like a waste of energy

when people aren’t ready to hear the truth

Cause when you speak the truth, they judge you

Taking your words to offense and creating a perception that’s filled with lies cause they’re too afraid of themselves,

They won’t face themself

They won’t face themself

So they victimize and put the blame on you

Nothing that you can do

Nothing that you can do

That’s why it’s so important to be confident in your truth

Stay grounded, keep grounded

Because these opinions will penalize you

Make you feel bad

Projections from other people’s dark clouds

Rain can’t stop me

Rain won’t stop me

Even when it’s cloudy

I’ll still be me

while the world is spinning

I’ll always be free

In my mind

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You bring out the best part of me, babe

Effortlessly

Hope you never dim your light

Hold me close as you can

Hold me

Hold me

Your skin feels so good on mine

You make me shine

You make me shine

You make me feel right on time

Crossing the line

Just for u

Safely in ur arms tonight

I just know, I just know

I love u forever still

Til you go

Til you go

No more attachment to u still

Still I’ll think of you

I know u care about me still

The way you hold me close

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Was going through my notes and I found this in my archives. A letter I was going to give you, but never did.

I miss you all the time but now is not the time for us

And I don’t know if it will ever be

But I’ll always remember you through my tattoo

And the color blue

I’ll see you in the next life

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I’m sitting here thinking what I’m thinking

I’m trying to keep my head above water

I only keep sinking

Im not sure what im doing or thinking

I’m trying to figure that out myself

What is going on with me?

I feel crazy

I haven’t done work in a few weeks

I keep going back to you

Phone calls

Text messages

What do I do?

Do you still love me?

What do you see?

I have no self control,

I feel crazy

I find comfort in the ring,

when I keep calling

You don’t answer,

I get worried

Why do I feel so insecure?

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Love is an addiction, a drug I can’t stop

I’m trying to detox & im going through withdrawls

Should I cave in? Or stick it through?

I don’t know what hurts worst:

killing myself

or

the thought of you

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I feel alone when I’m not with you

I don’t know how to handle that

I have these visions of the life I want

But it feels like I can’t attain that

I keep thinking of ways

to try and take away

This attachment that pains

Is it me? What is wrong with me?

Why can’t I just be with me

Instead I wanna be with you

All the time,

I take my time

and take the time

To take my time

To think of times

When I’m with you

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