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Wake up thoughts

I am so proud to have a partner for 7 years. Yes, 7 years passed and more than the importance of time together as a couple, there are even more special moments. Ofcourse, moments of laughters and fun are counted but, also moments of pain and tears. Now, I am proud to say I've overcome a very painful circumstance that I feel can never taunt me ever again. The nonstop crying, the over thinking, the never ending indenial of infedelity from my partner, the pain of letting myself continue to live with the pain in fear of losing a lover, and the feeling of nothingness and all emotions at the same time. I have accepted and forgiven my partner last year after about 6 months of his ugly games only after he told me all his doings with the woman (which by the way, is 10 years older than my partner, married, and have a son) because I did not want anymore secrets or lies and only until I felt that natural and genuine love from him again. How did I know and feel? It is the way he changed for the better and it is the way he treats me because I believe that how people treat you is how they feel about you. Most especially, his seeking of our Father for his love and guidance. At this moment, I am very blessed and grateful for the challenges that him and I surpassed, alone or together, and we will always become stronger after with God's love and presence in our lives.

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Gracecapade 💪🏞

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Gracecapade 💪🏞

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I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

Maya Angelou (via lifeofquotations)

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To my ex boyfriend who cheated on me, to my ex boyfriend's lover who was cheating on her husband, to my ex boyfriend who became my boyfriend again, to my boyfriend's ex girlfriend who was his lover during our 6 year relationship......??? How do you refer to this kind of situation?

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A year from now...

“A year from now, i will look back and see myself that it was all worth the pain because a year from now, i am happy. ”

Last year, I went through a heart break from a 6 year relationship. I was devastated, depressed, and very broken. Part of my coping was journaling my emotions so that I have a private outlet- so that I wasn’t always venting to my friends. I know they are there to listen, but it was me who got tired of draining them with my depression. So, everytime I felt the need to speak my mind out, I would write it out.

Same time last year, my motivational quote for myself was “A year from now, i will look back and see myself that it was all worth the pain because a year from now, i am happy.” And I am happy because with all the pain that tried to weaken me and with all the tears that tried to drown me, I survived.