bigbadalien

[bigbadalien]

Hello, it's March!

Right now you're feeling pretty great and optimistic (despite being within a sea of shit), and I'm feeling a little more capable, so gonna re-do my resolutions:

🍑 99.9kg before March

Babe, that was unrealistic, even if you had had the energy/executive functioning, and routed in a deep hatred for yourself that you're doing your best to keep back with a tonne of willpower and a big stick.

🐌 Continue exercising as much as you can a week, stay on keto and cico, maybe try to get to 90 by the end of the year

🐌 3+ new tattoos

🐌 First class honours

🐌 Investigate pathways/options, with the aim to get into a research position/apply to Masters NEXT year. Honours IS your research experience this year.

🌸 Figure out your meds (ADHD, Aropax, whatever weight loss drug if applicable)

🌸 Work on those feelings of rejection to neutral stimuli, find contentment within Honours classes even if you don't feel comfortable. You're perfectly valid to be there, no one hates you just for existing.

🌸 Save up, maybe try for 10k? Not for anything in particular, just to boost your savings.

🌸 Try and get into a new psych for eating disorder stuff?

I've been really struggling to write this this year. I know, logically, I've done a lot. I completed a research internship, got a third job, got head hunted to apply for PASS mentorship (3.5th job?), completed my undergrad with all Ds/HDs. But I'm struggling, and my mental health has been a bit low since October-ish. A lot has happened that explains it, and despite ALL OF THAT, I still did so good. Primarily, it's getting knocked off keto and regaining all that weight that has upset me. I'm sorry we're still here. But also, you're coming off your meds and we don't yet know how much your bad brain is because of that/because of the transition.

Anyway, you deserve to be so excited and celebrated, so I'm sorry I'm not giving you that right now. But look at you, trying.

Half-Hearted Right Now But Fuck Me, I'm Trying Resolutions:

🍑 99.9kg before March

🍑 3+ new tattoos

🍑 First Class Honours

🍑 More research exp, if you can fit it in

🍑 Pathway options/decisions

[bigbadalien]

I've been really struggling to write this this year. I know, logically, I've done a lot. I completed a research internship, got a third job, got head hunted to apply for PASS mentorship (3.5th job?), completed my undergrad with all Ds/HDs. But I'm struggling, and my mental health has been a bit low since October-ish. A lot has happened that explains it, and despite ALL OF THAT, I still did so good. Primarily, it's getting knocked off keto and regaining all that weight that has upset me. I'm sorry we're still here. But also, you're coming off your meds and we don't yet know how much your bad brain is because of that/because of the transition.

Anyway, you deserve to be so excited and celebrated, so I'm sorry I'm not giving you that right now. But look at you, trying.

Half-Hearted Right Now But Fuck Me, I'm Trying Resolutions:

🍑 99.9kg before March

🍑 3+ new tattoos

🍑 First Class Honours

🍑 More research exp, if you can fit it in

🍑 Pathway options/decisions

[bigbadalien]

Good job on a fucking incredible year, lil me!

• Did you keep up your D/HD streak? You smashed it, baby!

• That research scholarship? You applied and were turned down, but then suddenly were offered one after all!

• Did you get into other extracurriculars? Yeah, you smashed that too! You're doing part time social work in Leash's non for profit AND got offered a PASS leadership position! All of which is gonna look kick ass on your CV. (p.s. you're still doing great at LL too BTW!)

Business and personal not as much, although you did the cons you planned to. You did also do a bit better at sharing time between business/uni in the middle of the year but it's been a bit more difficult this last SP. You're currently on keto again and doing good, but it's still early stages. I'm sorry we're always lamenting the weight we are, you are beautiful and smart and capable.

You also have been doing good work on hurt/hate, but not with Karen - with Dr Knight. Talk about finding the right psych, you've done well!

2024 is your last undergrad year, so the focus is there. We'll keep up appearances at cons but less focus on laser stock, maybe? Also you started a podcast? What's up with that??

2024 Resolutions:

University

🤓 Maintain D/HD streak

🤓 Get more research experience, see if you can look into posters etc.

🤓 Finish LL

🤓 Get into Honours

🤓 Start your LinkedIn page?

Business

🍞 SMASH, AVCon, MelbOZCC, Dark Moon Faire and Oddities and Curriosities

🍞 Open ya dang store

🍞 As always, try to do more art - KW posts, bug/witchy stuff etc.

Personal

☕️ Continue losing weight

☕️ Work on fears around work and maintaining schedules/sleep

☕️ Save for/Go to Japan

☕️ Get at least 1x more tatt

☕️ Work on strength in legs/general and walking

☕️ Dentist

[bigbadalien]

Happy 2023, future me! Yo that was a year, huh? You proved how smart you are and you started a new career path! Recently, you had a big deep and meaningful with dad about your trauma, and you started seeing a new psych about your hurt. I'm proud of you. You went through that whole thing with the back/hand/all over pain, I hope that's a distant memory now.

Re: last year's resolutions, the scholarship wasn't actually a thing to apply for so 🤷‍♀️ but you do have a much better idea on which paths to take! Business stuff didn't get far off the ground, but that's OK too, you prioritised uni! And you started on BF stuff so that's good! You have been losing weight with L&E but it's been slow. Slow and steady is better than nothing, babe.

2023 Resolutions

University

🤓 Continue D/HD streak

🤓 Get into a research internship

🤓 Figure out other extra curriculars for CV

🤓 Do well at LL training

🤓 IRM/ARM tutoring, if necessary

🤓 Previous class upkeep (reread, do tests, etc)

Business

🍞 Work on a better set up to facilitate artwork/keeping shop open

🍞 Do as many cons as possible (the 2 Perth, Adelaide ozcc, AVCon, 1 - 2 x Brisbane, 1 - 2 x Melb, 1 - 2 x Syd)

🍞 Keep on top of con stock

🍞 Get back to posts? At least get back to ART.

Personal

☕️ Continue losing weight

☕️ Save for Japan

☕️ Save for tattoos

☕️ Work on hurt/hate with Karen

☕️ Get hair redyed

☕️ Do more art for myself

Longterm/Maybe Goals

🌼 Redo AUSLAN

🌼 Read lots of stuff, always be learning

[bigbadalien]

I can't remember why I didn't do a 2022 resolutions in January, and even though it's just gone July I wanna do a resolution list because 2022 has so far been such a huge swing in a different direction!

University Resolutions

🤓 Apply for the Academic Excellence scholarship

🤓 Understand my pathway and look into resume activities (volunteering?)

Business Resolutions

🍞 Get KW shop back up

🍞 KW posta

🍞 Make money with BF/Acrylic stuff

Personal

💞 Be kinder

💞 Lose weight

💞 Save up for tattoos

[bigbadalien]

New Years Resolutions, 2021

Business 🍞

🥪 Make enough money to get off aid

🥪 Get back to regular posts

🥪 Get 10k+ insta followers

Personal 🐌

🌱 Lose weight

🌱 Do more art, maybe teach myself more traditional mediums (goache, acrylic, watercolour)

🌱 Better work/life schedule

and as always;

🌱 Be kinder, softer, and less bitter