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being drunk is fun until you start scaring yourself into believing that you’re gonna throw up or die or both

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sometimes I smile and then I remember shit ain’t funny rn

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saw a girl on TT spew that “it’ll happen when you least expect it” rhetoric and then someone asked her where she met her boyfriend and she deadass said bumble…

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I tried lighting my favorite candle, but there’s not enough wax so the flame is just slowly dying

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neurodivergent sex where we both wear headphones

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I saw lisa frankenstein for the first time one year ago omg 😭💓 It simultaneously feels like yesterday and ten years ago somehow. It’s actually making me existential because it’s made me realize how many people have come in and out of my life since then and how much I have changed. wow wow wow, lisa frankenstein ily forever!!!!!!!!

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Keep away from me. I am unclean. Never.  THOMAS & ELLEN HUTTER in NOSFERATU (2024) dir. Robert Eggers

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when the crash out song ends and you gotta lock in for a baddie anthem

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I feel like a blessing in sin’s clothes

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don’t you just love that awesome moment where your appetite is gone, there is an unshakable heavy feeling in your chest, you cannot sleep, every smile/laugh is followed by a shaky breath, you’re dangerously dehydrated, and you find yourself staring at things for way too long?

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getting that 4 am wash of reassurance that everything will be okay and will work out the way it’s meant to. that i’m so grateful for every experience because I have learned more about myself through each one. I love becoming who I am destined to be.

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crying into my salsa rn <3 #newlow

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devastating news! the depression I knew so intimately as a teenager and thought I had killed at around twenty was just found alive in the pit in my stomach!

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okay my dream partner let’s go

• woman (lesbian, but bi is fine too)

• speaks another language (please please please have a cute accent, my god)

• from another country (preferably brasil because every brasileña i’ve met is like my dream woman), but also has citizenship in the states

• undeniably hot, but in an interesting way and also in a way where people would be like “wow, they’re hot” not like “um, how tf did she get her” because my insecure ass would not be able to get over it, sorry

• slightly taller than me

• physically affectionate asf like does not let a moment with me pass without showing some affection in one way or another

• to piggy back off that ^ proud PDA-er. nothing gross or crazy, but like…c’mon. it should be clear that we’re together

• wants children, but not in a creepy way/would be an actually supportive partner to the point where having children wouldn’t feel scary (my biggest fear is being the “primary parent” and completely losing myself)

• a certified yapper and active listener

• loves to be my munch <3 (the feeling will be mutual)

• we instantly click and i’m just like “oh yeah. that’s my girl” and vice versa

• but we actually court each other and it’s fun, not like confusing and uncomfortable

• only has eyes for me and is available to me in every way

• is college educated

• hard worker, but not a workaholic/is really good at work life balance

• creative

• so stable and mentally well that it’s insane and helps me/is understanding when i’m going through my shit

• has a great family who adores me

• is adored by my family to the point that they’d be more excited to see her than me at that point

• everyone around us is just like “damn. I wish I had that” but in a good way! inspiring!

• obviously an amazing kisser who can go for hours

• gets me nice things, but in a very genuine way

• well read

• has the same tastes as me

• great cook that loves to cook good shit for me and teaches me how to make everything

• generous and genuinely charming af

• amazing communication between us both

• is my number one fan

• ^ loves me loudly, even someone who has only known her for 5 minutes will know of my existence because she loves me so much and can’t help but mention me (i’ll be the same way)

sigh…baby, I promise i’m coming for you

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imagine fumbling marina, my god

jenny you fucking idiot