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your name and pictures still show up on my phone. My heart stops when I look at you. I never stopped getting butterflies when you talked to me.

I would have done anything. And as much as I hate myself for it, I still would do anything.

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I was hurt and I couldn’t cope and I made you feel like it was your fault. maybe parts of it was but the way I acted never helped or made anything better.

I’m sorry. For everything.

I pray I get a chance to prove it. to be yours again. I pray you think about me. I pray you fight yourself on texting me.

I’ve never stopped thinking about you. How can I when nothing else compares. no one comes close.

unfortunately I know you don’t think about me. I know none of it matters. I know you won’t ever reach out.

But I pray you do. And I will keep praying that you do.

your voice is what I yearn for. When I get good news, you’re who I want to tell. When I get bad news, you’re who I want to confide in.

I always wished it was the same for you.

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I would do anything for voice. I don’t want it to be the end.

I wish you knew. I wish you’d call. I wish you’d text.

I wish I didn’t care.

no one has ever compared to you. The way I would kill for you is unmatched. You were the center of my world and I liked it that way.

I would do anything for your heart again.

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I’m sorry for everything. and I’m sorry for making you feel like it was your problem. I never wanted that.

I wish things were different.

I’m sorry.

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🥺🥺🥺plz conejita

my new boots are so sexy

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🚨🚨🚨

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It’s just affects Apple/IPhone

……… yea I noticed lol

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Fuck iPhone for this update smh. This is literal company censorship. Knew I should have stayed with android. I’m gunna find my mutuals again

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My fat daddy dick

What y'all getting me for Christmas!

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I love that you’re unapologetically gorgeous and sexy 💚

thank u 🤍

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Princess

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Happy Wednesday 😘

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*still uses pinky promises as a legit form of trust*

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I feel attacked

americans are like i was gifted child but also i didnt learn other countries existed until i was 35 years old

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To my ‘sensitive’ friends and mutuals…

I MISS YOU ALL.

Please let me know when/if you’re back?