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No one wants to talk about how intimate jump starting someones car is.

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i’m sorry kink fans but i just can’t see the suffix ‘con’ without thinking it means convention

‘dubcon’ will skrillex be there??

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People know that the whole "don't portray [harmful action] because viewers might recreate it" thing is a rule for children's shows right? It's supposed to be shit like "don't show peppa pig playing with fire so we don't get sued if a kid watches it and burns their house down." Not like, fanfiction for adults.

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Apple TV Murderbot + Text posts

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the only rules of the internet to stand the test of time in their rule format usage are rule 34 and 63. all other rules still may be true but the average user can only recognize the two. which means 2 things are eternal: porn and transitioning

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affirmations

i am a complex organism brutally engineered by uncaring forces of nature

i am a product of billions of years and trillions of deaths

i am building a machine greater than myself

i am able to make phone calls and appointments

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There are all these spreadsheets and guides to 'proper Discworld reading order' and I feel the youth are missing out on the true way to start reading Discworld

You are in the fantasy section of the library, you see a book with Josh Kirby's cover art, you think what the hell is going on here and then you never escape.

Josh Kirby, you'll always be discworld to me

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me walking to the bathroom at 3am in a massively oversized shirt using gay fanfic on my phone to light the way

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Saw a stag beetle fight off a magpie today it looked like this

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Pippin-centric doodles from Book 2 of Fellowship during my recent reread

(comms open!)

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A few years ago while trying to find ways to commit suicide as painlessly as possible, I came across a PDF of Dr. Paul Quinnett's The Forever Decision. Thinking it might go into actual methods of suicide (I read an article once that actually did that and was trying to find it again) I started to read it, and I think I only got about two pages in before I was crying too much to actually see the words.

I downloaded the PDF to my hard drive and I open it again whenever I'm feeling too suicidal to do much else, but not enough to start booking a ride to the hospital. And every time without fail I only go up to a few pages before backing off and choosing to live another day just because suicide suddenly seems even more unbearable than whatever the hell upset me in the first place.

All the book really does is [I'm pulling a summary from GoodReads here as, again, I've read no more than 5 pages] "discusses the social aspects of suicide, the right to die, anger, loneliness, depression, stress, hopelessness, drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences of a suicide attempt, and how to get help."

But it also starts with the author kindly asking the reader to complete the book before going through with anything, and for some reason I'm compelled to really just try to read it all before finalizing everything. Despite not yet completing it (hopefully never will) I think I can safely say it's saved my life at least a few times now.

It's intentionally legal to copy and redistribute this book to keep it as accessible as possible, and it's very easy to find, but here's a link for it anyways.

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>forgotten where I've left my keys

>no worries, I'm an intellectual

>simply stop, smug look to camera, and announce that I'm entering my mind palace to remember where I put them

>close my eyes and pinch my temple

>instantly find my consciousness transported to the entrance of my mind palace

>mfw I've forgotten my mind keys

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love going on callout posts for "thinks cnc is okay" and seeing people talk about how us freaks need the electric chair. fantasizing about violence is okay as long as its not sexual, funny that

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all of this turbulence wasn't forecasted apologies from the intercom and i am relieved that i'd left my room tidy they'll think of me kindly when they come for my things they'll never know how i'd stared at the dark in that room with no thoughts like a blood-sniffing shark and while my dreams made music in the night carefully i was going to live you wouldn't leave 'til we loved in the morning you'd learned from movies how love ought to be and you'd say you love me and look in my eyes but i know through mine you were looking in yours and did you know the liberty bell is a replica silently housed in its original walls? and while its dreams played music in the night quietly it was told to believe i always wanted to die clean and pretty but i'd be too busy on working days so i am relieved that the turbulence wasn't forecasted i couldn't have changed anyways i am relieved that i'd left my room tidy goodbye

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it does still make me insane specifically how many queer people lovingly embrace astrology. I went to a poetry workshop yesterday that was genuinely quite good but also included an option to disclose astrology designations during introductions and so many people broke out some variation of "I'm a [x] sum but I have a [y] placement and it SHOWS" girl no it doesn't. that's meaningless correlation you completely invented the causation