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Whatever, surely crying myself to sleep listening to Preacher’s Daughter will fix me this time

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Antipsychotics got me inventing the best breakfast sandwiches known to man at 1 am

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My psych today: okay sooo we can try putting you on another anti-psychotic 😳 (that doesn’t work on me & gives me heart problems) orrr we can forcibly hospitalize you 😉

Me:

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pioneering something called "gritted teeth optimism" where everything is gonna turn out okay even if i have to bite and claw and gnash my way through it

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One of the worst things about BPD is the addiction to pain. You feel so hollow that when you feel any kind of pain, you want to continue it for no reason other than to at the very least feel something. I was just watching a triggering video and continued to trigger myself further, I started crying, and I still didn't stop. And now that I'm calm, I have no idea what to do with it, and the emptiness that came back, so I want to trigger myself again. Because even with all the mood swings, you're still hollow. That's probably why so many borderlines refer to self-harm as a coping mechanism. Love and pain are probably the strongest emotions I've ever felt, and that's probably why abusive relationships felt right in the past.

But also knowing this feels like people would diminish my pain, to he honest. I know it doesn't, and I still have trauma, I'm hurting, it doesn't matter who triggered me... but still.

-host

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The only good thing about not sleeping is that my kitty is also awake ☺️

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I literally don’t even want the food i made because even the thought of eating makes me nauseaous 🤢

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Roomates: it’s 6a.m. what are you doing???

Me, Manic off the shits:

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i think when some of you say "neurodivergent" you just mean adhd and autism

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Life’s all fun and games until. Disorder

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i just think people should be able to navigate difficulties in their personal life without having the threat of homelessness or starvation or destitution hanging over their heads the whole time

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legitimately from ages like 12-25 i thought everyone was exhausted to the point of suicidal depression and i was just bad at handling it. kids the normal amount of suicidal ideation is NONE and if you don't physically recover by sleeping you should see a doctor