#actuallybipolar

[disappearintheether]

[rainbowchihuahuabunny]

Every day I am brutally reminded in one way or another that this society isn't built with disabled people in mind

[raccooninapartyhat]

being mentally ill while holding a tiny plush pigeon is infinitely better than being mentally ill alone. i definitely recommend just getting yourself a little guy to hold while you're busy being crazy

[unstablemotions]

I want every mental health professional that has treated me through out my life to get into a roman amphitheatre with a weapon of their choosing and the winner will decide what disorders I have

[prenchpolar]

we need more bipolar success stories. because all you hear about are the ones who died, or had breakdowns, or struggle every day.

it will be okay. it can be okay. i'm bipolar, and i'm doing well. i'm medicated, i'm stable, i'm happy, i'm living my life. things will be okay.

[221bluescarf]

Everyone with mental illness is going to be better or worse in different areas. Even neurotypical people are better in some areas than another.

Some can work, some can't. Some can live alone, some can't. Some can drive, some can't. Some can put on a mask, some can't. Some can cook, engage in hobbies, read books, do chores, eat without purging, maintain hygiene, care for pets, go shopping, ignore hallucinations, manage delusions, be self-aware, find meds that work, rely on a support system... some can't.

Your best and your worst can even vary from one day to the next.

Don't compare yourself to others

And don't compete with others either

[decease-soul]

me and who?

[thatadhdfeel]

"Am I Hypomanic or Hyperactive" - the greatest thread in the history of forums, locked by a moderator after 12,239 pages of heated debate,

[historian-in-pearls]

My new therapist is AMAZING, and she’s Catholic!!! We opened with a prayer and closed with a Hail Mary (my choice). I think we’re going to do amazing work together with my anxiety.

We did some baseline assessments to see where I am, and I scored in the ZERO category for depression, from being suicidal a month ago. So...yeah :) I guess everything I've been doing has been working; the proof is in the pudding. I'm happy and hopeful and stunned and I can't wait to get back to work and piano next week and let my life begin again. Deo Gratias!

[justabipolarprincess]

[thevirgodoll]

message this morning is to ask yourself why you won’t set yourself free and create the reality you deserve. sometimes, we get complacent in our own suffering. it becomes somewhat of an addiction because we feel like we deserve it.

but you made yourself endure and endure, and for what? what did you gain by not having boundaries with yourself and others? absolutely nothing. put the weight down.

as you’re reading this, you already know it’s time to change your perspective. this is the confirmation you needed.

[traumakid-hideout]

An episode of mania almost always always always starts out so euphorically, makes you feel like you’re on the perfect drug, makes your confidence and motivation sky rocket and has you romanticizing all the fun it baits you with. It feels so amazing, you feel like nothing can hurt you or get to you.

Then the irritability comes, genuine rage, such an uncomfortable and overwhelming increase in libido, dangerous impulses, social behavior to be humiliated from by the time you crash, severe sleep deprivation that disorients the fuck out of you the longer you go without it, without even feeling tired at all. But feeling completely out of control. And if it escalates, Lord help you. Hallucinations, bad paranoia, black outs, substance abuse (or relapse if you happen to be recovering), delusions, everything that could get you into a psych ward. It isn’t fun at the end and any pleasure you feel is completely illusionary.

The worst part is I still normally never want it to stop. Because the depression after, which gets so ugly and terrible the longer, more intense the mania is, is something I’m not looking forward to at all. That, and mania can really sometimes convince you that you love it. I’m not wanting to go there though, because I have a lot to lose. Even if I don’t lose anything, I’m tired of this cycle and just can’t afford to desire it anymore. So I’m managing where I can, but wow it’s just scary to watch it take you higher and higher into it, and further and further away from yourself.

This is precisely why I despise any sort of stigma toward bipolar disorder. It’s so misunderstood, misquoted, and mistreated. I just really want and need some help. My hands are so sweaty and shaky, my heart and my mind are racing, I can’t stop talking, I can’t eat. I can’t focus, I can only fixate. And it’s just so overwhelming already.

[lamiictal]

me learning to manage my mental illness

[that-bipolar-mood]

Being medicated doesn't mean becoming normal.

There's this trope I've seen in media, mentally ill that take meds and suddenly become neurotypical. To me this was a harmful fantasy, thinking that medicine means cure, and a fast one.

The reality of meds is often disappointing. You still find your limitations and differences. Lots of underground symptoms and sensitivities don't ever vanish.

Being bipolar myself it often left me perplexed, the fact that I was receiving correct treatment, but still struggled. Not with acute episodes, just a baby version of previous symptoms.

I'm trying to accept bipolar as my personal disability. I figured that medicine is my support, like a cane could be for those with physical disabilities. It means I'm still not like the rest and I will always struggle, but man is it nice to have some help...

[butchboromir]

[healinglilia]

uh oh, carefully there now girl !! you're dangerously close to losing your sanity...