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When all you want is your spouse to notice you….give you a compliment….do anything at all out of love for you besides go to and talk to his ex fiancé? Would that hurt anyone else besides me? This has been going on for years and I feel completely lost and alone in all of this.

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Sorry I’ve been away

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Things have been way too much to handle lately. Like world is falling in around me. Crumbling away piece by piece. Will it ever calm down? Will it ever be silent?!

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wisdoom

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ahh yes, the constant battle between soul crushing loneliness and longing for romantic connection versus knowing you are not mentally in a place to actually have a partner

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I'm waiting for your end. You deserve it. You deserve to be alone. I hate you.

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“Once you know a thing you cant ever unknow it.”

— Carol Rifka Brunt

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splitting

it is the moment when the person in front of you becomes the most dangerous enemy.

when you feel you need to protect yourself.

suddenly you are no longer yourself.

you are anger, fear, despair.

the voice within you takes over.

you say the most cruel, hurtful things.

you know what you're saying isn't true, but you know it hurts the other person more than anything.

and then you wake up.

realize what you've done and wish you would be silent forever.

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"I'm Okay Though" by Sara Kays

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nobody

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Is it fucked up if I want to date someone with self-esteem issues? I want to be the one to prove their insecurities wrong. I want to become their only source of validation.

I want them to need me to feel good about themselves.

To need me.

Just me.

Only me.

No one else. Not even themselves.

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i'm still here, loving you silently

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i hate feeling annoying and bothersome- normally idgaf who im annoying and talk for my own sake but when i have a fp, i hate feeling too needy or like im burdening them by wanting them to be around. ESPECIALLY bc im isolating myself from everyone else rn. i stg, its times like these i j wanna block everyone, dissociate for the rest of forever and never get attached to anyone again, i fucking hate feeling like a burden

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BRUUUUH I’M FEELING THE SWITCH AFTER MY DEPRESSIVE EPISODE GIRL IS GOING INTO THE CRAZY MODE

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