#actually mentally ill

[autopsyfreak]

people when i warn them my mental illnesses cause me to have inappropriate emotional responses: 👍🏻

people when i show those inappropriate emotional responses:

[cut-n-snared]

everyone is lying.

when will somebody finally tell me the fucking truth about what they think of me instead of gaslighting me into thinking you tolerate me and then just FUCKING LEAVING?????

[defiantcripple]

Okay, breaking out of the crippleposting to do a Mental Illness Post rq:

On top of depression and anxiety, I have BPD, CPTSD, OSDD-1b, and Bipolar II. I experience delusions, psychosis, and severe dissociation. I am a *severely* mentally ill person. Because of all of this, I require several mood stabilizers and an antipsychotic to keep myself grounded to reality, let alone functional.

I swear to GOD, if one more person with depression looks at me and says some shit like "yeah, I'm sure medication would help me, I just don't want to be dependent on it." I'm going to fucking scream. The sheer ableism in y'all's attitudes towards people who can't just opt out of medication and who ARE dependent on it is fucking crazy. The way they hit the word "dependent" in that sentence always holds so much judgment and distain, like they don't even consider that some of us don't have the luxury of choice. Being dependent on medication has literally no moral weight, and for me it's that or dead. So.

***and before someone goes off on me, this is NOT about people who can't afford medication or who medication doesn't work for, and I am not saying that depression can't be debilitating. I am only referring to exactly the situation I described, so don't try and gotcha me***

[chaerrycoke05]

𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑒𝑠𝑡

˖ ࣪ . ࿐ ♡ ˚ .

[afuckingsystemsthoughts]

radqueers actually admit it. they support faking disorders.

studying a disorder enough to convincingly fake it is wrong and damages the perceived credibility of real people with disorders. now fdc and systemscringe have more things to use against us. its ableist to fake disorders and have the opinion this person does.

[insignificantfailure]

I'm such a failure, a complete fucking failure

[dollkisses05]

I need to escape

[juiceboxs-posts]

Uhm uhh uhm uhhhhhhhhhh no words

[autopsyfreak]

i don’t see the point in apologising, it seems pointless and hypocritical.

the only thing that would warrant an apology is an action that hurt/negatively affected someone, which i either didn’t mean to do or i did mean to do.

if i meant to do it then an apology would just be lying. if i was intending on hurting you and then apologised for the pain i caused, i wouldn’t actually be sorry because i got the outcome i wanted.

but at the same time if i didn’t mean to do it then why should i apologise? accidents happen so really there’s no reason to apologise, even if i have caused you accidental hurt.

apologies just have no value.

[stingray-blast]

ok so you support the disabled, disordered, and mentally ill. but are you normal when someone takes long to respond to you? or if they have a hard time listening to you? when someone has a hard time giving you their attention? or when their manners aren’t perfect? or when someone makes mistakes that may be obvious or simple to you? or when someone talks loudly or “causes a scene?” are you normal when people have to think really hard to explain things? or when they have a hard time putting their thoughts into words?

are you normal when people’s hair is unkempt or oily or visibly unbrushed? or when their face might be full of acne? or when they don’t have deodorant on for one reason or another? how about if their clothes are dirty? 

are you normal about disabled/disordered/mentally ill people when they make you a little uncomfortable?

[cut-n-snared]

[freakorgasm]

[chaerrycoke05]

I am the space between my thighs, daylight shining through ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖࣪

[recoverr]

i don't know who needs to hear this, but guilt, self-hatred and shame are not sustainable sources of growth and healing. you can't hate yourself into feeling better, or being better. you can't repeatedly punish yourself for your flawed humanity and expect wholesome results.

[something-existing-somewhere]

Sorry I Spent all mY spoons this week already and it's fucking Tuesday. We're heading to the knives