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with that, my readings are closed for the time being 🩷 wip content will be published soon and after i’ll have an announcement

…i don’t hide behind fake accounts or alts. to get my point across, i’ll literally just say it because i have a spine amongst the weakest bitches i’ve ever seen.

stop insinuating, alluding, or even theorizing that i’m behind that deranged ass account, otherwise i will proceed with legal action because that is considered defamation of character. there’s zero proof that i’m the owner of that page and it will continue to be, so please be mindful of who’s feeding this information to you as a “source”, they’re unreliable and not smart. this paper trail of bullshit will get you in trouble, i don’t take accusations like these lightly (death threats, wishing rape on women, harassing random people, etc.) and it will be filed in a police report. digital footprints do exist, dumbass.

i don’t owe explanations to anybody on the internet, i don’t know y’all and i don’t care enough to plead my case, so the drama, the situation itself and people involved hold little weight in my bubble. i have nothing else to address because i simply do not care. to witness a skill issue play out on this scale is childishly embarrassing, but alas that’s not my problem.

sitting at a computer to doxx, stalk, or even @ people that could care less about my existence aren’t a part of my agenda, my job isn’t invisible and doesn’t rely on anons as income. just because you’re a crumb in the real world doesn’t mean you’ll convince me i am lmfao, i have value that doesn’t come at the expense of slandering others. stop throwing temper tantrums to imaginary therapists and start swallowing those meds in the morning instead. pretend you’re sane even if it’s not believable, idk.

there will be no more posts from my account about discussions, circumstances, and strangers that do not concern me, especially if they haven’t been brought to the source herself. drag my name with discernment because i will use all of this evidence in a court of law if i see fit, and nobody’s getting off the hook that easily with proof involved (thanks for the screenshots 😘). a few bozos stay in the states as well, so be wary of your hatred just in case the police show up at your door asking qs about my charges. have a beautiful day!

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…i don’t hide behind fake accounts or alts. to get my point across, i’ll literally just say it because i have a spine amongst the weakest bitches i’ve ever seen.

stop insinuating, alluding, or even theorizing that i’m behind that deranged ass account, otherwise i will proceed with legal action because that is considered defamation of character. there’s zero proof that i’m the owner of that page and it will continue to be, so please be mindful of who’s feeding this information to you as a “source”, they’re unreliable and not smart. this paper trail of bullshit will get you in trouble, i don’t take accusations like these lightly (death threats, wishing rape on women, harassing random people, etc.) and it will be filed in a police report. digital footprints do exist, dumbass.

i don’t owe explanations to anybody on the internet, i don’t know y’all and i don’t care enough to plead my case, so the drama, the situation itself and people involved hold little weight in my bubble. i have nothing else to address because i simply do not care. to witness a skill issue play out on this scale is childishly embarrassing, but alas that’s not my problem.

sitting at a computer to doxx, stalk, or even @ people that could care less about my existence aren’t a part of my agenda, my job isn’t invisible and doesn’t rely on anons as income. just because you’re a crumb in the real world doesn’t mean you’ll convince me i am lmfao, i have value that doesn’t come at the expense of slandering others. stop throwing temper tantrums to imaginary therapists and start swallowing those meds in the morning instead. pretend you’re sane even if it’s not believable, idk.

there will be no more posts from my account about discussions, circumstances, and strangers that do not concern me, especially if they haven’t been brought to the source herself. drag my name with discernment because i will use all of this evidence in a court of law if i see fit, and nobody’s getting off the hook that easily with proof involved (thanks for the screenshots 😘). a few bozos stay in the states as well, so be wary of your hatred just in case the police show up at your door asking qs about my charges. have a beautiful day!

[bitdemonic]

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۶ৎ blk people are ruled by saturn ۶ৎ

i saw a post talking about black people not being saturnian so i had to defend the black saturnians’ honor… it’s gon be a lot… so… buckle in lmao. 🤺 enjoy, and keep in mind i’m speaking from a mostly african american perspective bc i’m african american, & no hate to the creator i saw this from i just wanted to infodump on why i believe what i believe lol

briefish history lesson. with sources, of course lmao

it’s not that race is founded in something biological or evolutionary. in fact, according to the human genome project, humans are 99.9% identical in dna. there is no standing in the belief that race is something determined by genome

race itself is a fairly young concept… not that pre-racialized humans didn’t have established beliefs that differentiated between people, but this basis was more about culture or tribe than arguing for some biological divergences of humankind. race as it’s understood today (being very european or western) has only been dated back to the 17th century

but it’s hard to pinpoint when race began. because it’s not something biological, it’s something completely social in how it’s experienced. so that means that how race was/is understood is constantly subject to change bc society changes. however, i believe the earliest distinction of people on the basis of observable physical traits (such as skin color) dates back to the arab slave trade… a longgg time ago. try thousands of years ago.

the arab slave trade was responsible for the enslavement of mostly sub saharan african people who were forcibly removed from their native lands. even though there were slaves of others races and cultures, most slaves were african. and there were distinctions made between african slaves and non-african slaves. this slave trade forcibly converted indigenous africans to islam, to speaking arabic, and adopting other arabic customs… it’s a cruelty hardly spoken on because europeans would soon get their inspiration of race politics from asian arabs lmao

even though the arab slave trade didn’t begin with racial hierarchies, due to the fact that most slaves were from sub-saharan africa, there started to be a cultural association between black africanness and slavery. so by the 14th century, the most difficult slave labor would be reserved to the black african slaves whereas non-black slaves would be given gentler labor. and this is an attitude that still plagues the arab community today - have you heard the way arab people refer to west and central african people? even in palestine, there’s a town of mostly afro-arab people that is named “the [town of] slaves” in arabic.

so… once distinctions were made, there were many names to describe the class of alienated black african slaves. for example, during the arab slave trade, there were titles made for mixed race slave children born to arab fathers and black african slave mothers — these mixed race children were referred to as being “ravens” due to their coloring (fun fact, ravens are ruled by saturn). (source pg 5-6, and i advise you read the text of Badawī because it sounds like some real saturnian shit. keep in mind, these are the “first” socially black people! and they had an astute awareness that this growing identity was one borne from hardship)

and this isn’t exclusive to the arabized world. in greece, the name for black people was “aethiope” (meaning burned / dark faces). many non-black groups who came into contact with black african people made it clear that we are seen for our darkness.

so this tells you three things:

enslavement predates race. it’s not until people of mutually foreign lands began making consistent contact with each other that conceptual race would’ve been a useful tool to brutalize entire groups of people

that asserts that racial hierarchies are born because of slavery, not in spite of it. blackness only exists because we needed to be easily identifiable and classable in order to enslave

and lastly, since the beginning of race’s conception, black people have always been placed as the worst race any person could possibly be. whether you’re in asia, in africa, the americas, europe, or australia

and that’s not even considering me getting into the western race hierarchy and politics lmao. ( recommended text )

if you read that, you a real one. now that we got that out of the way, let’s discuss the ways it correlates to saturnian themes.

saturnian delineations

saturn rules over things that are dark or black in color. and what are we called? … black people (like, proof so in the pudding but i digress)

what were black people compared to during enslavement? beasts of burden. that’s saturn ruled

how was the race “black” conceived? through forced displacement of black africans from sub-saharan africa conjoined with forced labor. saturn rules both displacement / exile and forced labor, as well as hierarchy. slavery also is ruled by mars and the sixth house, and in what sign does mars exalt in?

in this racial hierarchy, where are black people posited? the bottom. saturn rules things that are low; subterranean

where did some of the first humans originate? from africa. saturn rules ancestry and things long-lasting — black african people are among the oldest living being and we still have people of the same matrilineal line today

what do black people struggle with? being poor (saturn), unhealthy (saturn/mars), death and violence (saturn/mars), etc. black people experience disproportionately higher rates of poverty and unhealthiness but this is on purpose. it’s a form of systemic hardship and oppression. not because we are just “genetically predisposed” to behaving in certain ways. however, try explaining that to a bioessentialist

what commonly happens to black children? adultification, which is saturnian. how many of y’all been dress coded when your nb peers haven’t? or people said you were an old soul? mature for your age?

which racial group has the highest rate of single motherhood? black women, and this is also saturnian, as the goal of colonialism was to separate us. saturn rules absences, neglects, the father, isolation, being single. NOW i’d like to also add i feel like this is truly because african cultures do not follow a nuclear-family model and that’s largely a western fascination. with african communities, usually all adults are made responsible for all children. but that’s something difficult to act on under western individualism, which is why “single motherhood” here seems more debilitating. but i know plenty of great single mothers who do what they need for their kids. i also think westerners overstate the importance of a father lmao

what are black people often associated with? political movements, which is saturn (both capricorn and aquarius). yes we create art and we express ourselves, but a lot of self expression for black people is still done with a political commentary being made. even to be black without intending a political commentary is to be politicized

think about african-americans’ most popular and impactful genres… which genre is the root of them? blues. a genre characteristic of discussing the hardships of living as a black person … and this quality is present in r&b, country, hip-hop/rap, folk, disco, etc. come on now

who is disproportionately incarcerated over all other races? black people because of the modern slavery model. prison, slavery, and exile/isolation is ruled by saturn.

all oppressed people are ruled by saturn period.

which race is the most generous in donating to those in needs? according to this study, it’s black people. and this is something people have exploited. our generosity and community-based action is a thankless job - so it’s not like venus generosity in the sense that venus stresses reciprocity. black people will give and not receive the same advocacy or care OR people are transactional with their support of black people. it’s said to remedy saturn, you give to those in need

we die at disproportionate rates compared to white people too. who rules death? grief?

and there are countless other things i could discuss that are unique to black people and i can substantiate it with statistics bc i’m nerdy =3

now does this mean there aren’t other planetary influences in black people? no, lmao. yes, there are solar (creativity), lunar (community), mercurial (communicative), venutian (artistic), martian (passionate), and jovial (liberating) qualities in black people but that’s bc we aren’t a monolith and we have vast experiences

when you consider the development of blackness, the social position of blackness, and the reality of the average black people, saturn is the planet most consistent with the history of our identity. there’s nothing wrong with coming from a people who experienced hardship =3 it’s sad, but it’s true

so yes. that concludes my post. black people are saturnian. court dismissed! *bangs gavel* 👩🏾‍⚖️

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Grace Jonesssss

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𓂃 ♡⸝⸝ the entire chart is spiritual

anytime i see a post about spiritual gifts, it’s always like “12th 8th 4th” or “jupiter and neptune.” not untrue. i just feel like bc the entire chart is drawn from when the body takes its first breath and develops spirit, then naturally, the entire chart indicates spirit

sun . dreams, enlightenment, soul, life energy, religion, the beginning

moon . dreams (and messages in the dreams), mind, subconscious, psyche

mercury . connects the subconscious to the conscious, thoughts, the mind, spirit

venus . the power of creation

mars . life force, destruction

jupiter . guru, religion

saturn . fear, illness, isolation unconscious, death, the end

first . spirit, mind, mindset

second . sustinence (very spiritual), family, karma

third . dreams, emotions, prophetic messages, communities, intimate cultures, goddess

fourth . the unseen, unconscious, subconscious, fear, the dark, the night, ancestors

fifth . creation, energy transformed

sixth . the senses, the seen

seventh . yin & yang, balance, the other

eighth . ancestors, karma

ninth . god, enlightenment, awareness

tenth . legacy, how your spirit and life stretches past your existence, your descendants

eleventh . enlightenment, religion, community

twelfth . isolation, exile, solitude, meditation, death

see? all of it is spiritual. that’s because our spirits are us more than our physical bodies.

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the venius is here

𓂀 18+ PAC: YOUR STORY AS A FEMME FATALE .

༒︎ 𝟔 𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐒.

USE YOUR INTUITION TO PICK YOUR PILE.

CLOSE YOUR EYES, TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND EITHER LET A NUMBER FORM IN YOUR HEAD OR GO WITH YOUR GUT.

THIS IS FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES ONLY! TAKE WHAT RESONATES, LEAVE WHAT DOESN'T.

𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝟏

CARDS 6 of swords, 4 of swords, knight of pentacles rx, 7 of wands, THE HIGH PRIESTESS, 4 of wands .

♟️ your story is one of abandonment, isolation and found family. it begins with you being forced to leave your home for a new, unfamiliar place. whether this is a new city, town, country or even a new continent is up to your own imagination. either way, you are decidedly a "newbie" and all alone, forcing you to grow a backbone, tough skin and figure out a way to survive. this is difficult as you do not have the many privileges others benefit from: money, family or even friends to rely on financially or emotionally. instead of waiting and praying for a saviour, you are forced to become your own provider.

♟️ the hardships you endure force you to erect several walls and hard boundaries around you that anyone would be hard pressed to even form a crack in. your street smarts not only enable you to survive but thrive, as you manage to climb from a lonely poor girl to a wealthy elite woman. through dubious means? sure. but if life has taught you anything, it's that the cards one is dealt are entirely unfair and you need to gamble and cheat your way to any semblance of success. and that's exactly what you do. you lie, cheat, gamble (and maybe even kill) your way to the top, forming strategic alliances and not worrying about who you betray or whose lives are ruined to get you there. these happen to be the tricks of the trade and it's not your fault that you happen to be better at playing the game than anybody else.

♟️ however you, like any main character, actually have depth and are not just a steel-clad, cold-hearted bitch (like your enemies describe you). some of the strategic alliances you form blossom into beautiful and genuine relationships that last lifetimes. you also try and balance the scales in such a corrupt system, building community wherever you go and offering protection to those less fortunate and most vulnerable to the most powerful. you become a figure of community in a shadowy, crime-ridden city — a place of refuge for people who are like you once were, when you had no-one.

EXAMPLES: selina kyle [the batman], vito corleone (not a woman, but still) [the godfather] .

𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝟐

CARDS 10 of cups, 9 of cups, TEMPERANCE, 2 of cups, STRENGTH, 4 of wands, knight of pentacles .

🍷champagne, diamonds, cashmere and first-class plane rides. your life radiates luxury, you radiate luxury. draped in the most expensive fabrics and custom lingerie pieces, sultry aromas ooze off your glowing skin. it's not just your access to the best life has to offer that makes you irresistible and unique, but rather your unmatched self possession. you carry yourself with the confidence of a woman that is well-kept and practically worshipped. your hair is somehow always perfectly done, your makeup is precise and your outfits are tailored to your body.

🍷 the personification of privilege, you have clearly never seen a day of hard work in your life. your name carries with it a legacy that spans generations and continents, as blair waldorf said — "Generations of breeding and wealth had to come together to produce me. I have more in common with Marie Antoinette than with you." this same quote describes you to a T. you possess the same essence of ancient queens and princesses, the best courtesans and legendary muses.

🍷it wouldn't be far-fetched to assume that you coast off your silver spoon upbringing, but you subvert all expectations. you never settle for less — some may call it greedy, but you simply have a desire to experience the best of the very best. socially, you are the queen bee and your influence even permeates the minds of those who consider themselves unable to be influenced. of course, the best of the best line up to court you. yes, i said court. why on earth would you settle for the bare minimum? an average date for you is a flight to a 6 star hotel on a romantic tropical island. someone would have to go above and beyond to catch your attention.... perhaps a crystal grand piano or a yacht in your name would suffice? after all, it's the least they could do for someone as exceptional as you.

EXAMPLES: naomi lapaglia [the wolf of wall street], blair waldorf [gossip girl], miranda kerr, serena van der woodsen [gossip girl], elvira hancock [scarface].

𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝟑

CARDS 10 of wands, 7 of pentacles, 3 of pentacles, king of pentacles, king of swords, 4 of swords rx .

👑 the world revolves around you. no... not in a delusional, "high self-confidence" way. you genuinely control the trajectory of the world socially, politically and economically. your intelligence, charm, strategy and diplomacy make any other world leaders crumble before you, your beauty is simply the cherry on top. the term "girlboss" doesn't even come close to what you are - you're a myth, akin to cleopatra, you sound mythical, but are somehow totally the real deal in the flesh!

👑 your intelligence is seductive. others are lured in by your sharp intellect, your smooth and charming words, your never-ending knowledge. it's as if you alter their brain chemistry much more effectively than any love potion or aphrodisiac could. your intelligence is sharp, cutting and inhuman. imagine if the intellect of light yagami and L from death note were fused with the greatest minds of the human race (think einstein and tesla) and put into your head. your intelligence puts AI to shame.

👑 you treat people, especially men, like chess pieces to be played with. you understand the cheat codes to life and you use them well. the girls that read "the 48 laws of power", "the art of seduction", "the art of war", worship machiavelli, and fervently watch thewizardliz's videos could only dream to possess as much stupifying charm and confidencr as you. the way you navigate social situations, manipulate people and play with them legitimately needs to be studied. you are so detached from caring and so detached from men that nothing can stop you. you know that men, unfortunately, control the world and so you use your charm and intellect to tip situations in your favour.

EXAMPLES: cleopatra, catherine tramell [basic instinct], queen of sheba, beth harmon [the queen's gambit] .

𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝟒

CARDS THE DEVIL, THE EMPEROR RX, THE LOVERS, TEMPERANCE, knight of pentacles, king of swords .

🩸you possess raw, tantalising seduction. it oozes out from your soul and seeps straight into the hearts and brains of your victims. yes, i say victims. like a succubus-turned-human, you hypnotise those attracted to you and drain their life force... like a vampire. your power is subtle yet undeniable, capable of rendering the strongest weak for you - nobody is immune.

🩸you weren't born cold and vampiric. life was immensely cruel to you and so you were forced to adopt this nature to survive. using others for your own benefit is your way of balancing the scales, of making sure you'll never be taken advantage of again, of making sure you'll never be rendered powerless. some may call you heartless, but you're simply making sure nobody will rip your warm, beating heart clean out of your body. it's all a complicated survival tatic and it's not supposed to make sense to anybody but yourself.

🩸 your natural enemy is the doe-eyed ingenue. the odette to your odile, the elena to your katherine, the needy to your jennifer. she manages to captivate everyone with her perfect innocence and rosy-eyed naïveté. however, you have a couple of tricks up your sleeve. after all, who can resist a sultry voice, beckoning bedroom eyes, and an aura that spells danger? you are a guilty pleasure personified and everyone wants a taste - to their own demise.

EXAMPLES: katherine pierce [the vampire diaries], amy dunne [gone girl], jennifer check [jennifer's body], odile [swan lake].

𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝟓

CARDS knight of swords, 3 of cups, 2 of swords, page of cups, 2 of pentacles, THE HERMIT .

🪽 the best way to describe you would be a cherubic babydoll. your expressive eyes and facial expressions, ooze raw emotion and sensitivity. you seem inexperienced or naïve, but you simply possess enough hope and warmth in your heart to melt any cynic. your lust for life makes you seem younger than your years, and your soul may have actually come out of the fountain of youth itself – your inner child thrives in your vivid (and some may say overactive) imagination.

🪽 despite your child-like whimsy, you have experienced this world as well. unfortunately, the cards that life hands out are not fair and so you have dealt with your fair share of struggles. sansa stark's quote "my skin has turned to porcelain, to ivy, to steel" may feel like it came from a story on your life. your innocence stripped away by cruelty and injustice, stripping you bare and leaving you raw, the only thing left being the walls you erected to protect yourself. pretending you're invincible and forcing past your own vulnerabilities may have tricked everyone else that you were unbreakable, but your heart is still as fragile as ever – like glass that is one touch away from shattering completely.

🪽 you have transformed into a diamond. the pressures left you hardened, yet crystallised. still possessing the same cherubic face, yet now with a stern expression of someone who has seen the best and worse the world has to offer. you have shed your downy grey feathers and traded them in for shadowy majestic wings. you are not to be underestimated due to your prior innocence – you are able to bring an entire city to its knees and you are able to command an entire audience. you are metamorphosis personified.

EXAMPLES: nancy callahan [sin city], nina sayers [black swan], daenerys targaryen [game of thrones], sansa stark [game of thrones].

𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝟔

CARDS knight of cups, 5 of wands, 7 of pentacles, 2 of swords, 3 of pentacles, 10 of pentacles .

🗡 carved out of steel, nourished by your own sweat and blood, sanctified by the tears of your enemies – your empire is built on revenge, toil and sheer discipline. nobody handles a sword or any bladed weapon, in fact, as well as you do. your backstory is a legend, almost mythical in nature, with several different variations and all telling of your traumatic beginnings that led to your slow and steady rise to the pinnacle of success. some say you began racking up your immense death toll from the age of three; some say you secretly controlled the underworld from fourteen, taking down entire empires from the shadows; some say you aren't even human and instead possess the spirit of some ancient warrior - reincarnated into our modern times with an archaic sense of discipline and sense of honour.

🗡 your moniker is whispered behind closed doors, in shadowy alleyways and in clandestine meetings held by secret agencies all over the world. most don't know your real name, and the ones who do are afraid to even think it - lest you suddenly appear around them like a supernatural horror film antagonist. your legend is older than you are, backdated to the world wars and even before, the same idea remaining - that your power extends beyond anything the human mind can imagine, that you secretly control all the goings-on geopolitically.

🗡 they say your presence is electrifying in all the worst ways. just like the weeping angels from doctor who, anyone that sees you is surely doomed. you are akin to a prehistoric predator that has remained unchanged for thousands of years, as the perfect invincible killing machine. the story is as such: you stalk your prey like a leopard to an antelope - by the time you have set your sights on them, they may as well be dead; then you playing with them like a cat plays with a mouse - catching them, letting them go, and repeating the cycle; at this point, they have some hope they will survive but it's misguided.. nobody ever survives once you have them in your grasp; when you finally kill them, it's more of a mercy killing than anything - especially after the torment you put them through. your style of slaughter is predacious and animalic - you are more like a sleek jaguar with blood dripping from its canines than a mere human being. you are an angel of death.

EXAMPLES: o-ren ishii [kill bill], beatrix kiddo [kill bill], natalia alianovna romanova [marvel comics].

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soul this lifetime + connection to spirituality

ψ ❝Birthspiria❞ $65

Happy Cake and Candles.⊹ ࣪ ˖🍰₊˚⊹♡. Birthday themed tarot reading that goes into detail about querent’s upcoming celebration! A solar return in the form of cards, in which there’ll be an explanation of everything meant to come for you in the year. 4 sections, details included in description.

section i

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ querent’s birthday, what to expect, how the day’s events will come about + be as an experience

section ii

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ lessons learned, age + developmental growth, blessings incoming + celebratory news or outcomes

section iii

(3 cards will be pulled) ➞ a tarot prediction for each astrological house [1H - 12H] for upcoming year/birthday

1H ⟶ aura, beginnings, first impressions, self-knowledge

2H ⟶ values, abundance & finances, self-worth, material possessions (desires)

3H ⟶ short travels & journeys, mentality, communication, to do list, ideas

4H ⟶ home & familial ties, security (comfort), inner self & emotional stability, parenthood

5H ⟶ entertainment, creative expression & hobbies, flings & drama, enjoyment

6H ⟶ lifestyle (routine), health, service & duties (work), the unexpected

7H ⟶ open enemies, commitments, relationships & marriage, business (contracts)

8H ⟶ karma, debts & resources, death (rebirth), intimacy

9H ⟶ far travels & journeys, spirituality (worldview), higher education, beliefs (morals)

10H ⟶ public image (reputation), career, goals & achievements, exposure

11H ⟶ friend groups & community, networking, aspirations, social issues

12H ⟶ hidden enemies, secrets, mental health & endings, dreams

section iv

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

birthday plans, celebration(s), and invitations

appearance + overall aesthetic

happiness + gratitude for the year

gifts received

universal blessings

wild card — unexpected surprise

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Sexual Tarot

ψ ❝Hailo Merci❞ $45

First Time With Them. ݁₊ ♱ . ݁˖. A look into querent’s first time having sex with your partner, lover, or person. Meant to provide insight on the sentiment, how it’ll be in terms of excitement or intimacy. 6 cards pulled.

included details

who’s it going to be with, emotions + chemistry felt, the sexual energy between them, what leads into the moment and how it starts

the foreplay, querent’s first time, overall enjoyment between both partners, what about the sex is fulfilling (i.e. favorite parts of the sex), what’s special about the experience

coming down + aftercare, feelings and connection afterward, how it affects future encounters

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

sexual dynamic of encounter

secret kink(s)

sexual personality after first time

ψ ❝Tainted Damiana❞ $55

What's Seductive About You. ݁₊ ♱ . ݁˖. Based off this pick a card I posted, querent's sexual attractivity, magnetism and sensuous power will be discovered [and uncovered]. This is written with the intention of exposing what's insatiable about your energy, it's going to heighten that level of desire. The magnitude of sexuality in my words. 3 sections, details included in description.

section i

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ querent’s magnetism and appearance to others, their appeal and seductive energy (strengths), and the effect their aura has in public (i.e. special occasions)

section ii

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ querent’s seductive “powers” and how it transforms them, their dark side (lilith) seduction and desirability, and how partners/suitors respond

section iii

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

signature scent

outfits + accessories

hairstyles, makeup, and attractive traits

personality, charm, and 'special' techniques

essence + qualities (i.e. magnetism)

spirit animal ("inner animal")

ψ ❝Devian Eros❞ $55

Next Sexual Encounter. ݁₊ ♱ . ݁˖ . Explicit context of querent's future escapade(s) and the adventure of the circumstance. Every tantalizing touch alongside each rise of building tension, all the way to the resolution of passionate messes in the bedroom. Beware of how raunchy this reading will (not can) get. 3 sections, details included in description.

section i

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ querent’s expectations + how it happens, who it’s with (i.e. the partner), the sexual tension and energy of the encounter before, during, and after it takes place

section ii

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ details of the encounter (e.g. positions), how it feels + emotions felt, overall pleasure and orgasms given

section iii

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

sexual chemistry and intimacy

orgasms + aftercare

foreplay

lovers kinks

future encounter

wild card — sexual surprise

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Love Tarot

ψ ❝Doveliene Cupid❞ $45

Love Compatibility. ݁₊❦｡‧ྀི° ݁. A calculator that determines the romantic chemistry and synastry between you and a chosen lover. 4 cards will be pulled for each person.

included details

how the romance and connection would be between querent/querent’s lover, overall compatibility, the relationship’s potential dynamic and outcome

how querent/querent’s lover feels about the love, their favorite traits about querent/querent’s lover, their development being with querent/querent’s lover

advantages and disadvantages of being a couple, the reaction to the relationship, “5 years later” being together

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

couple traits

ψ ❝Aphrodite’s Kiss❞ $45

Incoming Love. ݁₊❦｡‧ྀི° ݁. Upcoming love for querent and what to expect when it arrives. Romantic expression for you if you’re single or expecting someone to come into this area of life. 6 cards will be pulled.

included details

who’s coming in + what they’ll offer, what’s significant about them, what do they like about querent (physically, mentally, personality wise, etc.), how will they show up romantically

romance + love with them, pros and cons in the connection/union, their special qualities + positive effects on querent

the future of this connection, significant changes from being with each other (positive or negative), advice for the relationship and for querent

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

love languages (both querent and their lover)

intimate traits

love messages from them

ψ ❝Delicate Amor❞ $55

All About Your Future Spouse. ݁₊❦｡‧ྀི° ݁. Full detail about querent’s future lover in this lifetime, who they are and what ways they show up. A tale of affection that is unique for each individual, yet explores the avenue of connection and devotion the same. Succumb to temptation of their commitment to you. 3 sections, details included in description.

section i

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ future spouse’s personal information (i.e. who they are), how querent and future spouse meet + come into fruition, what it’s like being their partner

section ii

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ future spouse’s love for querent (love languages), romance with them + the effect on one another, effort that’s put in towards the connection (i.e. planning dates, bonding)

section iii

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

future spouse’s appearance + personality traits

first times with them (kiss, lovemaking, “i love you”)

the wedding + married life (ceremony, pregnancy, in-laws)

domesticity (home, parenthood, routines)

intimate traits

overall bond and relationship (e.g. in the end)

bonus — love messages from them

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Dr. Deviant’s Notes

ψ Fashion Prescription $40

How To Guide on Aesthetic, Beauty, and Style (Beauty Analysis). ݁₊𖤍. ݁˖ . A visual tarot reading that offers appearance suggestions and advice, for a chance at evolution.

details included

beauty interpretation (i.e. notes on querent’s appearance)

accessories

hair

makeup

fashion (style)

influence

evolution

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Misc. Tarot

ψ 5 Card Pull $35

Free Choice Question . ݁₊ ♱ . ݁˖ . Querent can ask anything, any subject (love, general, self, sex), and have it answered with a five card spread. In depth answers are provided, as well as a personalized shufflemancy and channeled messages. 1 section, no details available.

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♰ 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

[bitdemonic]

black women as vampires

[bitdemonic]

SABRINA CARPENTER via Twitter (June 5, 2025)

[bitdemonic]

i remember when i was young and being really confused about my mother crying in the bus when she was taking me to school. i sat next to her and didnt say anything because i knew she was someone that didnt express her emotions as much so i didnt expect her to tell me anything and on the other hand i was a child so i dont think she was even contemplating on telling me the heavy news while i was going to school.

but i remember when a couple of years passed and i was a bit older to understand her grief but still confused about the root of the issue. i was told that her friend was killed by a rebel apart of the M23 Movement.

the M23 movement involves Rwandan "soldiers" [and Ugandan and more] that attempt to overtake eastern congo! it has been happening for a long time, and im old enough to see how terrible the impact has done to congo and i am old enough to understand that my mother's friend died fighting for our country.

[if you stumble upon any video that speaks about the M23 MOVEMENT being for congo please understand it is propaganda].

when i saw the video of the palestinian baby under rubble and the aid being kidnapped it was one of the most final straws for me. and also my anger towards the oppressive capitalism that use my country for its minerals. and the oppressive capitalism that funds the genocides that is happening

many companies like samsung or tesla and even apple have exploited congo for tech. and where it mainly happens [eastern congo] is where soldiers force children as little as 3 to work, children so young being sexually assaulted, having their mothers be raped and murdered in front of them. there are so many heart-breaking stories and i feel so hopeless. i've always felt so hopeless hearing my mother cry or listen to the news about updates about how everything is going.

how people are getting so hungry that they're turning to cannibalism and that shouldnt be the way anyone should be living! so yes i do feel privilleged to wake up and not have to through that. not have to go through being forced to work or give myself up sexually.

but what i can do is help donate and i hope there are other people willing to donate too! and when you donate you'll receive something back from me. the least we can donate is 15 dollars. and you can go to my back up page @venuskura [so my messages dont get confusing with my main account messages] and show proof that you have donated so you can get a reading from me! 15 dollars to the cause and i interpret a placement you're curious about :) thank you!

if you donate 30 dollars, you get two placements read by me. so 8 paragraphs all the together, but this is no forcing! only do it if you know you can support. when you send the money please show me proof that you have donated the money with a screenshot!

PROOF:

and sorry i added a wonky heart so people dont use my screenshot to lie about them doing it. i'll be supporting them as much as i can while also helping my family!

and please remember that war hurts our earth as well :)

as time passes i will be adding more charities that we can help, but please remember that im not forcing you to do it! i'll also be looking for genuine charities for palestine and other countries going through similar awful crisis. thank you :)

this is not an obligation post if you dont want to do it, so be it!

[bitdemonic]

hi. fuck ice. here is how you can help families affected by unlawful deportation

edit: and FUCK LAPD. here is how you can help bail out protestors who are in the trenches, facing mass arrests and putting their bodies on the line.

[bitdemonic]

the only thing that has gotten me emotional is the humanitarian crisis that has been happening. the humanitarian aid on their way to gaza have gotten kidnapped and there's barely been any news and posts about it and it hurts me so bad, it makes me so furious.

many people are so privilleged to live a life where we can wake up and not fear about hunger, death and rape. many people are so privileged to be angry at thy neighbour over pettiness and past scandals but not turn their attention to what is going on in the world. its sickening.

i know my main platform is on tumblr so i want to use my good will to share information about togetherness and help people understand how crucial and vital this situation is. we are so lucky to be able to just scroll past people's videos that beg us to send them money to escape.

and what gets me is that english is not their first language, there's little children teaching themselves our language to beg us to listen to them. there's babies under rubble, without their mother and father or even siblings unaware of what is happening to them. unaware that they're born into a world that barely cares about them. its unfair so unfair.

and for these past days i have been wondering what can i do? to help children and families from gaza, congo, sudan and these many countries where genocide is taking place. maybe i can open a charity? use my platform for good where at least £10-20 is sent to me and i answer mini astrology questions. so i can help these families, it might not sound a lot but i hope we can work as a group. because what we need right now is unity.

<3

[bitdemonic]

𝕭𝐈𝐓𝐃𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐈𝐂❜𝐒 𝕿𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐍

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Self Related Tarot

ψ ❝Anastasia Ios❞ $45

Your Soul’s Purpose . ݁₊ ♱ . ݁˖ . Dedicated to querent’s spiritual duties this lifetime, what you’re meant to accomplish and create on Earth. 6 cards will be pulled.

included details

spiritual identity, past life, special abilities as a divine being

soul’s purpose this life, what they’re chosen to accomplish or do, highest potential

lessons taught and learned, healing missions, blessings and gifts received on this path

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

universal messages meant to hear

ancestral powers meant to guide them

higher self’s influence, messages, and presence for the collective

ψ ❝Emperies Moira❞ $55

If You Were a Tarot Card. ݁₊ ♱ . ݁˖ . A reading that imagines querent's persona, character traits, and uniqueness in the form of a tarot card. Something amusing, yet mystical enough that it serves as inner reflection rather than just entertainment. Essentially, your underlying concept as a divination tool. 3 sections, details included in description.

section i

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ querent's tarot deck + card definition inside of it, the upright + reverse interpretation, and how it is interpreted in a spread if pulled. overall themes and associations in context.

section ii

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ querent's imagery, symbolism(s) and connections, how a reader would describe their card, benefits + disadvantages of this card in a spread [plus its effects on the spread itself]

section iii

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

positive + negative influence

indicators (new love, babies, incoming wealth, etc.)

personality type that pulls this card (i.e. who's likely to get this)

appearance traits (physical)

characters that embody this card's energy

ψ ❝Fama Grailie❞ $55

If You Were Famous. ݁⋆.˚♆. ݁₊｡ Based off this pick a card I posted, this reading will cover querent’s path to fame (as it were). Your unique experience and dealings of a world beyond the norm, the travels to popularity, wealth, and high expectations. Are you ready to be famous? 3 sections, details included in description.

section i

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ who querent is + their rise to fame (i.e. how they’d get famous), public image + popularity, their relationship with fame (i.e. happiness, success), sacrifices and benefits of gaining fame, significant changes

section ii

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ controversies with the media + public drama), celebrity friends or enemies, accolades + achievements, talents (hobbies), special qualities that make querent stand out, celebrity traits

section iii

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

fanbase, social circle, celebrity persona

romance, flings, and marriage

status + public reception (reaction)

peak stardom, awards, recognition

wealth + possessions, appearance, marketing

legacy, downfall, overall fame

ψ ❝Dose O’ Mirra❞ $55

Your Reflection in These Eyes. ݁₊ ♱ . ݁˖ . Self-sufficient kind of reading that delves into querent’s existence, into their identity on Earth (and as a universal being). Look into the mirror I hold up for you, so you’re able to see everything about you beneath the physical—underneath the surface. No sugarcoating, book if you’re ready to see fit.

section i

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ who querent is at the root (core self), how they’re perceived by the world, what it means to be around their energy + presence

section ii

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ querent’s higher self + values, spiritual abilities (i.e. gifts this lifetime), how they heal themselves or the collective/people around them

section iii

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

family’s past (i.e. generational curses and inherited gifts)

past wounds + trauma

childhood + adolescence

relationships and romantic connections (i.e. querent as a lover)

home and parenthood (i.e. querent as a parent)

soul this lifetime + connection to spirituality

ψ ❝Birthspiria❞ $65

Happy Cake and Candles.⊹ ࣪ ˖🍰₊˚⊹♡. Birthday themed tarot reading that goes into detail about querent’s upcoming celebration! A solar return in the form of cards, in which there’ll be an explanation of everything meant to come for you in the year. 4 sections, details included in description.

section i

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ querent’s birthday, what to expect, how the day’s events will come about + be as an experience

section ii

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ lessons learned, age + developmental growth, blessings incoming + celebratory news or outcomes

section iii

(3 cards will be pulled) ➞ a tarot prediction for each astrological house [1H - 12H] for upcoming year/birthday

1H ⟶ aura, beginnings, first impressions, self-knowledge

2H ⟶ values, abundance & finances, self-worth, material possessions (desires)

3H ⟶ short travels & journeys, mentality, communication, to do list, ideas

4H ⟶ home & familial ties, security (comfort), inner self & emotional stability, parenthood

5H ⟶ entertainment, creative expression & hobbies, flings & drama, enjoyment

6H ⟶ lifestyle (routine), health, service & duties (work), the unexpected

7H ⟶ open enemies, commitments, relationships & marriage, business (contracts)

8H ⟶ karma, debts & resources, death (rebirth), intimacy

9H ⟶ far travels & journeys, spirituality (worldview), higher education, beliefs (morals)

10H ⟶ public image (reputation), career, goals & achievements, exposure

11H ⟶ friend groups & community, networking, aspirations, social issues

12H ⟶ hidden enemies, secrets, mental health & endings, dreams

section iv

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

birthday plans, celebration(s), and invitations

appearance + overall aesthetic

happiness + gratitude for the year

gifts received

universal blessings

wild card — unexpected surprise

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Sexual Tarot

ψ ❝Hailo Merci❞ $45

First Time With Them. ݁₊ ♱ . ݁˖. A look into querent’s first time having sex with your partner, lover, or person. Meant to provide insight on the sentiment, how it’ll be in terms of excitement or intimacy. 6 cards pulled.

included details

who’s it going to be with, emotions + chemistry felt, the sexual energy between them, what leads into the moment and how it starts

the foreplay, querent’s first time, overall enjoyment between both partners, what about the sex is fulfilling (i.e. favorite parts of the sex), what’s special about the experience

coming down + aftercare, feelings and connection afterward, how it affects future encounters

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

sexual dynamic of encounter

secret kink(s)

sexual personality after first time

ψ ❝Tainted Damiana❞ $55

What's Seductive About You. ݁₊ ♱ . ݁˖. Based off this pick a card I posted, querent's sexual attractivity, magnetism and sensuous power will be discovered [and uncovered]. This is written with the intention of exposing what's insatiable about your energy, it's going to heighten that level of desire. The magnitude of sexuality in my words. 3 sections, details included in description.

section i

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ querent’s magnetism and appearance to others, their appeal and seductive energy (strengths), and the effect their aura has in public (i.e. special occasions)

section ii

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ querent’s seductive “powers” and how it transforms them, their dark side (lilith) seduction and desirability, and how partners/suitors respond

section iii

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

signature scent

outfits + accessories

hairstyles, makeup, and attractive traits

personality, charm, and 'special' techniques

essence + qualities (i.e. magnetism)

spirit animal ("inner animal")

ψ ❝Devian Eros❞ $55

Next Sexual Encounter. ݁₊ �� . ݁˖ . Explicit context of querent's future escapade(s) and the adventure of the circumstance. Every tantalizing touch alongside each rise of building tension, all the way to the resolution of passionate messes in the bedroom. Beware of how raunchy this reading will (not can) get. 3 sections, details included in description.

section i

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ querent’s expectations + how it happens, who it’s with (i.e. the partner), the sexual tension and energy of the encounter before, during, and after it takes place

section ii

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ details of the encounter (e.g. positions), how it feels + emotions felt, overall pleasure and orgasms given

section iii

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

sexual chemistry and intimacy

orgasms + aftercare

foreplay

lovers kinks

future encounter

wild card — sexual surprise

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Love Tarot

ψ ❝Aphrodite’s Kiss❞ $45

Incoming Love. ݁₊❦｡‧ྀི° ݁. Upcoming love for querent and what to expect when it arrives. Romantic expression for you if you’re single or expecting someone to come into this area of life. 6 cards will be pulled.

included details

who’s coming in + what they’ll offer, what’s significant about them, what do they like about querent (physically, mentally, personality wise, etc.), how will they show up romantically

romance + love with them, pros and cons in the connection/union, their special qualities + positive effects on querent

the future of this connection, significant changes from being with each other (positive or negative), advice for the relationship and for querent

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

love languages (both querent and their lover)

intimate traits

love messages from them

ψ ❝Delicate Amor❞ $55

All About Your Future Spouse. ݁₊❦｡‧ྀི° ݁. Full detail about querent’s future lover in this lifetime, who they are and what ways they show up. A tale of affection that is unique for each individual, yet explores the avenue of connection and devotion the same. Succumb to temptation of their commitment to you. 3 sections, details included in description.

section i

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ future spouse’s personal information (i.e. who they are), how querent and future spouse meet + come into fruition, what it’s like being their partner

section ii

(7 cards will be pulled) ➞ future spouse’s love for querent (love languages), romance with them + the effect on one another, effort that’s put in towards the connection (i.e. planning dates, bonding)

section iii

(oracle cards will be pulled) ➞ additional info

future spouse’s appearance + personality traits

first times with them (kiss, lovemaking, “i love you”)

the wedding + married life (ceremony, pregnancy, in-laws)

domesticity (home, parenthood, routines)

intimate traits

overall bond and relationship (e.g. in the end)

bonus — love messages from them

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Dr. Deviant’s Notes

ψ Fashion Prescription $40

How To Guide on Aesthetic, Beauty, and Style (Beauty Analysis). ݁₊𖤍. ݁˖ . A visual tarot reading that offers appearance suggestions and advice, for a chance at evolution.

details included

beauty interpretation (i.e. notes on querent’s appearance)

accessories

hair

makeup

fashion (style)

influence

evolution

↓

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Misc. Tarot

ψ 5 Card Pull $35

Free Choice Question . ݁₊ ♱ . ݁˖ . Querent can ask anything, any subject (love, general, self, sex), and have it answered with a five card spread. In depth answers are provided, as well as a personalized shufflemancy and channeled messages. 1 section, no details available.

↓

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♰ 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

[bitdemonic]

beautiful, thank you my love 🫂

wounds u need to heal. . . 💮

[ this reading will focus on issues that may be recurring patterns within your life, and methods you can take to heal them. this is probably one of my heaviest readings yet, so please beware. many triggering things are mentioned. ]

[ ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆ ^_____^ enjoy!!! ]

pile 1.

yeah so with this pile, a lot of u absorb other people's traumas and pains like a sponge. you're loyal to the end, even if it means that you yourself drown along with others. many of you stay in toxic relationships (not just romantic ones...) because you still see the good version/idealized self of the other person, and you truly do believe in their potential very deeply.

you guys also have a lot of issues with fitting in. you can't fathom the fact that anyone would like you for the real you, and you only feel comfortable being the real you when you're alone in your room. sometimes you wonder where it all went wrong, and you imagine your little child self staring at you with something similar to disappointment. when did you start seeking attention from people you couldn't care less about?

i think that a lot of the things that you guys will heal will come from being alone. many are terrified of this and that's why you comb yourself and create a specific persona that's catered to whoever you surround yourself with. many of you will grow in phases of your life that require you to be alone, and i think a lot of you may be going through that right now. many will have to use affirmations, and listen to music with good vibes, and generally remove any clutter that serves you no purpose (things that make you want to compare yourself to others). as well as people. many of you will only really feel free after cutting toxic people off!!!

pile 2..

a lot of you have parental issues, specifically with feminine figures (not necessarily a mom, but can be a grandma, or any female figure in your life). if not that, then with femininity itself. you guys could have hypersexualized yourself from a young age, or been extremely modest. many of you just want to be beautiful and you feel like the rest of your life will be spent proving that right, because you can never be beautiful with your simple existence; you must act a certain way, speak a certain way, you can never be 'you' and be beautiful.

for most of you i think that this'll be healed when things that aren't meant to be in your life will just fall out. you may notice things disappearing and you mourn them very deeply, but this'll actually be a good thing. a lot of you are also very worried about losing yourself. you understand what a deep, genuine person you are, and you do see your goodness. but you're worried that with all the tests that the universe gives you, you'll break apart into pieces.

you'll heal by truly allowing yourself to feel things. by letting yourself be, without putting labels onto yourself. you're just you, at the end of the day. beautiful, sweet, tender, genuine you. you don't need to be a certain thing to be any of those qualities, they just come along with the existence of your soul, and you cannot refute them. also, by nurturing yourself. many of you never got a chance to be taken care of and you believe there is something fundamentally wrong with you that you must fix. this is wrong. the moment you start being soft with yourself, is the moment that all your wounds begin to heal.

pile 3...

aww my poor babies :( a lot of you have attachment issues and periods of time where you seek nostalgia even if the past is a very bitter place for a lot of you. many experienced trauma but you still seek patterns from there because it feels safer than the future, because you know you somehow SURVIVED and COPED with that...but the future is uncharted territory that terrifies you. you would rather fall into old habits than carve new ones out, even though you know that there is a tender sweetness in the future.

mmm for a lot of you your healing will come from living things. many are going to make a garden later on in life, or plant a tree, or nurture something that's alive. it'll make your nervous system feel much safer, and you'll be able to regain trust in people and other things. it'll take time and a lot of self-reflection, but things that you associate with trauma and such a deep, fractured pain, will blossom into something truly beautiful. you guys already know you deserve the world; the other part of your life will be spent proving that, with the universe's help :).

also a lot of you will definitely heal by pursuing your craft. so many of you express yourself through certain things; sports, art, tarot, etc. and when you are in a bad mental place, you shut those resources out for yourself or you become manic with them, so when you truly learn how to balance this out without giving too much of yourself away, you'll know that you're really on the path to healing. you guys are much stronger than you think, and i 100% believe in your recovery. stay sweet and soft, my loves. there are good things coming.