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To anyone who believes fairy tale romances never happen in real life, may I remind you that JRR and Edith Tolkien met and experienced a forbidden love in their youth, and then were separated for five whole years because of his guardian’s rules that he could not date till he was 21, and she got engaged to someone else only because she assumed he’d forgotten her and lost hope that she could ever be with him, but then on his 21st birthday, he wrote her a letter saying he still loved her and wanted to marry her, she responded basically saying ‘if I’d known you hadn’t left me on the shelf, I would never have said yes to anyone else,’ then a week later she greeted him at the train station and then immediately dumped her fiancé, and they got married and she converted to his religion and danced for him in a flowering field far away from the trenches into which he was drafted, which left such an impression that he crafted an entire story about the most beautiful maiden in the world who danced in the woods and made enormous sacrifices to be with the man she loved, and they had four kids and remained faithful to each other and blissfully grew old together and their gravestones are now marked with the names of that same fictional couple that he created, who broke every rule and overcame every possible obstacle to be together and get a happy ending, who only did all that because he based it all on their own real love story.

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I recently got my autism diagnosis after being on the waiting list for 3 years and even though I knew that I was for years, it’s still been so overwhelming. One minute I feel happy knowing I’m not broken, my brain is just wired different and that there’s nothing wrong with me, and then I get hit by this deep sadness that I’ve gone 24 years struggling to fit in, hold down a job, make friends and socialise etc. I just feel so sad for little me that felt like such an outsider at school, for her special interests others thought were weird. And now I’ve been dealing with imposter syndrome where I have to physically look at my diagnosis letter and remind myself I have been legally diagnosed autistic because I’ve somehow convinced myself they’ve got it wrong and I’m not autistic enough?! It is so exhausting.

If anyone else has gone through this please feel free to vent here/share your experiences :(

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mr bell in every season

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Wdym I cannot pick it up like this!!!!!!!

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me, continuing to look at a screen despite having a headache: OUCH my brain… OUCH my brain… OUCH my brain… OUCH my brain… OUCH my brain… OUCH my brain… OUCH my brain… OUCH my brain…

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having a freeze response to stress is so funny in the context of normal adult stressors. millions of years of evolution are trying to tell me that the email will not find me if i stay very still and do nothing

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The most beautiful minds of our generation are posting fan fiction on archiveofourown.org

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me whenever anybody says that they like me/that i’m their friend

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one of the most boring lessons I’ve learned is that when a task feels overwhelming, you just have to start doing it. Even if you’re not sure how to do 90% of it, look for one small component that seems close and start there. Sometimes it’s reading one article on the topic, or searching one related term, or literally just googling how to do the task. Do anything other than thinking about it. The process of working on a thing inherently makes it less scary.

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all i do anymore is have a cut on my finger

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lets just live this life from now on

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being sad and trying to think about ur favorite characters to make yourself feel better is always kinda funny when every character u like is an abominable piece of shit. try to think "[X] would comfort me" no they would fucking Noooootttttt. Lol

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reblogging my own post 3 years later bc it still makes me giggle

me in camp trying to get Sean’s attention

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Literally the plot of Red Dead Redemption 2

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Why did it have to be my blood?