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when i eat more than 800 kcal so now i have to kms

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“omg how did you lose the weight, what’s your secret?”

wouldn’t you like to know weather boy

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being short and fat might be the worst thing the universe has given me

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I need to loose weight, I swear that if I dont loose these 5kg before the end of may I'll go totally insane

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I want to lose so much weight that face fucking id doesn’t recognize me anymore

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I COULD BEEN AT MY GOAL WEIGHT BY NOW IF I JUST DIDNT FUCKING EATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

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real

I’m not confessing or asking help until I LOOK like I need help.

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my mom said just now: ”wow you’ve lost a lot of weight” THE MOTIVATION THAT GAVE ME

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the fact there is people who don’t think about their weight 24/7 is crazy. my ed consumes my mind

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I remember how my old therapist just never treated my 3d like one and always acted like is a normal phase that many young girls go through and there is nothing to worry about. it made me understand that people dont care about how sick is your mind if your body remains normal. last week it was the first time I talked to the new therapist about this and I've never felt this free to talk about something this deep

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i don't know if I should be happy or sad that people around me never fully concerne about my eating habits

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I hate how most of the time I spend with my friends is related to food, like I just want to see you, I don't want to eat junk just to have a good time. we could simply be watching a movie and they'll be doing anything to bring chips (that just the color makes me wanna throw up) and only processed food that just by breathing by you gain 10kg.

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my parents left for a trip soooo there will be no one telling me to eat

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seeing the progress of your efforts is the best feeling ever

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"You're literally starving yourself-"

God forbid a girl want to be pretty 🫣

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"you are not even fat"

BUT I'M NOT SKINNY

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my toxic trait is that if a friend tells me that they want to diet (not disordered), it automatically becomes a competition to me