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not enough. never enough. but too much. always too much.

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I feel like I woke up in the wrong body a few years ago and I’ve never been able to shake that feeling since.

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For Christmas this year, I got a relapse.

tw fake body, sfx makeup, NOT REAL

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"lmao" "lol" "haha" "ok" "k"

okay cool lemme just-

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I see my future clearly. Like the future I really want. But it seems as far away as 1 million dollars. So I will continue to wish for death.

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♥️✨💜 Bruises ♥️✨💜

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Tw cutts, beans. Please don’t report just block. Makeup practice, it’s all fake, deep cut makeup.

A few weeks ago. Reuploading bc my account got banned.

Shiiiiny beans✨✨

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Posting again bc my account got banned💁‍♀️

Tw cutts, beans. Please don’t report just block. Makeup practice, it’s all fake, deep cut makeup.

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"I'm fine" also me after all of this

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Me everyday like clockwork

Me wanting to end my life, while also wanting to fuck up my suicide attempt as a cry for help, but not wanting to waste my mother's money on hospital bills, while also thinking that my mother probably wouldn't even care enough to keep my life support on, which also plays a role in my fear of death.

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Cutting myself isn't enough, i need to skin myself alive

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I’m torn between wanting to get another book from the library and read it or kill myself. Like I’ve been planning my death for February 3rd for months and I think I’m finally not scared anymore. I’m almost done with my list of things to do and my letters. I have 7/18 done. 👍🏻