blogkarebear

[blogkarebear]

how did i get here

i really dont know how i went from making money and knowing everything to literally asking myself what the fucking fuck, my cafe is at a stand still im coming up on a realy big resposibility amongst all my othyer ones. im not complaining just trying to see the bigger picture who woukd like let me write about it it will make it all better. well im hopeful that this will shine some real needed lite on my situatiojn. i know i can make money i kniw im something special nbut where do i start to dig deepand find it its never too late to do something but how to start. my daughter got sick and we havent been able to recover . just want to keep moving find a real way to make money to move to florida... i really just want to pick up and leave snd start new but i still have so much to chnage in order to really be able to have the best life we can make . florida you are at the tip og my tongue and im dying here. im dying slowly knwinmg that i do so much to stay away but i think about you almost everyday. universe please see this as a scream for help. i want to manifest all these things that i have in my intentions but the forces that are suppose to be workinmg with me .. we just happen to not be aligned. but i feel you i feel your storm and i want nothing else thyen that. i wanna be in your madness of oh fuck whats next but OOOOHHH FUFCKKKKKK this is it. theres no greater feeling then that “wow this was it” to the unkniwn . help yalll!!!!

[blogkarebear]

keeping up

i really have to keep up with this. the post are all weird anyway hope everyone has an amazing weekend

[blogkarebear]

lifechanged

its so weird how we can get caught up in all the negative things in our lives. for me i was depressed had given up on the ones i love the most and myself. its hard to realize how hard life can get. but im here to tell you that it can get easy with the right help.  i wanted to die and leave this wotrld yes thats a lil dark but thats my reality. im not perfect and i will make mistakes but my small victories is what gets me by. the love i give myself that helps me fuel my family. i love life i am happy and i am loved by me and my family. i love you c & k

[blogkarebear]

holidays

i cant believe it once again we are passin thru this joyful time in our lives where we find giviivg or recieving aso pleasant. welll in my case my life is shit im getting sued i have trail next month 4 days after my daughters birthday with someone who i despise i cant even say hate beacsuse a part of me is with him and the only thing we share in common is my daughter so im cursed to spend my entire life dealing with well maybe until she decides she doesnt wanna be around him ! keeeping my fingers crossed and i know that sounds mean i know theres alot of moms out there that wish the same but theres dads that will be like fuck her ! well i hope all the dads that say fuck you to me think about my situation and how i constantly give him the benefit of th doubt and the growth he has claimed he has gone thru is bullshit cuz you still at home with your mom nd after 8 years you finallly get a bed for your daughter ? you can oofered to live anymore but your moms basement and when she loses that job all of you are in teh street! so with that being said i want to enjoy my holidays but the negativity is tremendous/ and this year is different than last year idk if its because im a business owner now that i no longer wwant to fill this whole i was always chasing. i want to be selfish i want to work on my family but temptation is evrywehwere  peace lovce chicken grease!

[blogkarebear]

hello

i had a previous tumblr which i released alot of my personal info and i think im ready to write about it about. no matter whether one or 1 million people read this . i just opened a business and please believe i couldnt be happier but i feel like my life is falling apart. and the more i try teh more it gets complicated. i want to have it al and i dont think thats reality. im in fear of my life and what could happen at this moment and all i want to do is run. but to where? to whom? i hav a daughter to protect and i cant picture life without with my other half which happens to be my fiance ... but i dont think he is as in love with me as he once was. i have to get my daughter now so until next time. wish me the best !