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The way Porsche paused to say Kinn’s name for the third and final time. There was so much behind it. How does someone manage to say “this is me, think of everything we’ve been through, everything I’ve done and would do for you” in a four letter word?

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There’s a possibility this could be Kinn and Tawan

Look at the clothes from the picture above and below:

Kinn’s black pants. Also the hint of the ring on the second finger. Tawan’s grey sweatpants and Porsche’s black pants in the back.

At some point he won’t be held in their prison anymore and will be working to gain Kinn’s trust back. Either Kinn was lying about shooting him and/or Tawan has some huge sob story about what actually happened.

Either way EP9 is sure to be angsty and Porsche is going to be suffering!

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Porsche Pachara is in love

It’s understandable that there are other elements of the show fans are anticipating but our titular character, Porsche Pachara Kittisuwan, falling in love for the first time in his life is not something to be missed or filler.

Watching Porsche’s desire to nurture their relationship and his momentary fear as he pulled his hand back from Kinn. They are all crucial moments of their relationship and Porsche’s character.

By nature or by circumstance of being a guardian. Porsche is caring and looks after the people he loves. The way he tended to Kinn back in the forest when he was cooling him down with water and pushed the hair out of his face. It’s the same way he prepares the sweet treats and feeds Kinn.

This new experience isn’t just being in a relationship with a guy. It’s being with someone at all. We see his shyness as he admits it’s his first date. His unrealistic expectation of what defines perfect and sadness that he messed it up. This is Porsche in love. Wanting to make memories. Finding joy and comfort from his presence. They are showing Kinn and Porsche’s intimacy on all levels.  It will also explain why Porsche will be so grieved and heartbroken as we suffer work our way through the Tawan arc. He’s given his heart to Kinn completely.

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Vegas, Korn and Big should consider joining forces because individually they suck at breaking KinnPorsche up.

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Porsche trying to navigate and nurture his relationship with Kinn. His first boyfriend. His first and only love.

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Porsche is giving his heart to Kinn without reservation. Kinn’s his first love. His first real relationship. From the date alone, his very first date which he planned and wanted to be perfect, you can see how hard he’s fallen for Kinn. His jealousy, insecurities and fear of losing Kinn will be too much for him to handle now Tawan’s returned. He doesn’t know how to live without Kinn.

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kinn and porsche + being smitten with each other

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“I have something for you. This is my lucky gun. I have it with me every time I have important events. What if I can’t take good care of it? Are you giving it to me? Who said so? When you’re done, return it to me. The gun. And yourself.”

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The fact Porsche was smiling because he thought Kinn was saving him. He didn’t even consider he would be mad at him. He truly believed he was doing that thing where he puts on a different face for his people but Porsche sees the real him. He thought as soon as Vegas and the others left, it would be how it’s been between them since the forest. Trust. Kindness. Tenderness. Right up until the point Kinn called him a whore, that’s what he was still expecting. Till the very last second. If watch him looking into Kinn’s eyes. Poor Porsche.

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hi! i am the vegas/porsche anon, i think maybe it's better if i don't know now that i think about it? i don't wanna dread it everytime i watch an episode in case it's a yes tbh haha ignore my ask!

i do still wanna know if you are gonna do a video with each new ep tho, it's super interesting!

sorry for the trouble!

No trouble at all! I love it! :)

Yes, I'm going to keep doing vids. To reassure you without giving anything away. Just think about all the ways he's going to force KinnPorsche to confront their feelings for each other. It's angsty but it's worth it. He won't diminish their love.

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Not sure if anyone is invested in the VegasPete plot yet because the show hasn’t focused on it but the reason Vegas is one of the most interesting characters is because he constantly presents a false version of himself. You can’t tell what’s real and what’s not. For anyone enjoying his interaction with Porsche. That’s not real. When he makes that comment to Porsche about Macau deserving it. Bullshit. Excuse my French! He adores his brother. Vegas is doing his best impression of a caring normal person with a crush. It isn’t until  Pete that his true self comes to life. If you thought Kinn was intense you’re not ready for Vegas.

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Hello! I'm really intrested in reading the kinnporche noval. Can you enlighten us as to where it's available in English please?

Btw love your analysis for the show.

Thank you so much! :)

I bought mine but there are free versions avaliable online. This is one source I'm familiar with. Hope that helps! (x)

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Porsche’s need for Kinn’s approval even when it comes to calling his brother. “May I?” He looks at Kinn as he makes the call. It’s one of the many reasons Vegas and his tactics won’t work. Flowers. Sweet nothings. It doesn’t compare to raw and overpowering feelings Porsche has for Kinn.

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Porsche’s Feelings and Their “First Kiss”

This kiss is different from any other kiss we have shared before. There is no selfishness in it, no desire to overpower. – Novel!Porsche

What a difference freedom, the forest and a set of handcuffs make? Through literature, water symbolizes rebirth. Cleansing and healing manifested in the physical washing in water. That’s exactly what their kiss represents and from Porsche’s reaction, we understand what’s been going through his mind since EP5. He embraces the kiss fully, this isn’t just a slight parting of the lips, he opens his mouth and kisses Kinn.

Then Kinn pulls away while. Porsche is still leaning into it, leaning into Kinn. Everything he’s seen so far during their time in the forest; cute, annoying, and silly, he’s liked and wanted more. Apo portrays it so perfectly having been abruptly pulled out of the moment, Porsche lifts his eyes to search Kinn’s and understand.

"He pushes a little further away from me. "Oh," I say, confused. What? Why? What is happening? Aren't we going to...ugh damn. I hate myself for thinking ahead and expecting that Kinn would do more. I hate the fact that I was left gasping for more. What the hell Porsche? I willed myself out of the water. - Novel!Porsche

 There’s a longing Porsche has for Kinn, one that was awakened before he was ready for it, but it’s been awakened nonetheless. After that night Porsche had been in a state of agony and distress.

In the morning he asked Kinn, “What happened to me?” which is completely different from the herbal spirits escapades at the pier where Porsche says, “What did I do to you?” By Kinn refusing to address what transpired, what he with his clear mind did, it makes Porsche suffer more. The lack of acknowledgement contributes to Porsche feeling used and completely dejected but he keeps going because throughout his whole life that’s what he’s always had to do. His parents death. The loan. Caring for his brother. He’s not weak as he comments to Kinn but like Pete said, he's sensitive. He feels so much.

There’s a multitude of emotions brewing underneath the surface as Porsche relives what happened specifically after being punished because in his mind it’s as though Kinn is punishing him for what happened that night.

More layered are the memories themselves. They are not of pain, fear, or disgust. It’s all about the senses and the pleasure they brought. It starts with touch. His hand on Kinn’s chest. Kinn running his hands over his torso. Porsche brings the lighter to his lips as he’s remembering them kissing. Taste. Is he punishing himself with the lighter? Trying to burn and rid himself of the memories? Then, the sounds of pleasure, the moaning from his mouth haunting him. Then it’s all a mix at once as he’s brought back to reality by Pete. He feels exposed, vulnerable, shame and alone.

Porsche’s feelings for Kinn at the time were complex and confusing but they were for him to figure out in his own time. Kinn took that from him. He crossed his line and left him all alone to deal with the aftermath. 

 He doesn’t know where he stands or what it meant to Kinn. Nothing is what it seems from the toyboy being paraded in less than 24 hours later. At least in Porsche’s mind. "My life is yours" and apparently my body too, to be used and discarded with when you feel like it. He's devastated. He tries with the girl at the bar to no avail. Then, he finds false security in Vegas. The security and kindness he craves from Kinn.

These two lines: “If I'm not allowed, I won't go” “But you don’t care about me! You never care about me!” That wouldn’t be Porsche’s main concern, hurt or grievance against Kinn if the core issue was that he took advantage of him. It’s the fact there is something chaotic and confusing happening between them, AND Kinn exploited that like Porsche feels Kinn has been exploiting him since the day they met.

So that earnest look on his face, the sadness that washed over him, when Kinn pulled away was because the feelings were and are there. This was finally a moment between the two of them, sober, and with nothing but the two of them, and he still doesn’t know where he stands….until he did at the end of the episode.

I just needed to do some late meta on the delicious angst in between!