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I officially need to purge some story/fanfic ideas because I'm already working on stuff but these ideas pierce my brain and

Absolutely

Refuse

To

Leave

I no longer can keep it inside lol. So yay to posting random things

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YES ABSOLUTELY THIS

As much as I like multi-doctor stories I feel like multi-companion stories could be so much cooler x3 Where’s my episode where amy and rory accidentally stumble into 12′s tardis and they end up on an adventure with clara for an episode. Where’s my episode where 13 accidentally walks into 10′s tardis while he’s out and accidentally abducts donna and martha

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dracula is a coward, lazslo woulve already fucked jonathan

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The Pianolesson, oil on panel, 1897

by Henriette Ronner-Knip (Dutch-Belgian, 1821-1909)

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Absolutely no one: …

Me: … but actually, Nandor having “guy wives” and not seeing the distinction is EXACTLY what historians often mean when saying ancient people wouldn’t necessarily understand gender and sexuality the way we do. They didn’t necessarily have the same binary of male/female, indeed, top/bottom was just as often the more important distinction in Ancient Rome. Also, many famous, powerful men of the ancient world had “male” partners with whom they interacted in both “masculine” and a “feminine” typical roles, such as Alexander the Great with Hephaestion and Bagoas, or Emperor Nero and Sporus. So to have Nandor not make any particular note of the “gender” of his “wives” and that being both surprising to Guillermo and completely routine to Nandor, a powerful man of his time, is a wonderful little nod to an aspect of correctly representing historical gender and sexuality that is often ignored when portraying historic eras and people in this modern, sanitized media landscape.

And I think it’s very neat :3

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what is something you wish you knew before you started writing?

The shitty things you write at the beginning of your writing journey might be the key to solving a plot hole four years later.

Also that you’re going to be your own worst critic. And writing advice are tools, not rules. And that for every person that criticizes a certain trope or cliché, there’s ten people that will love it.

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This is BEAUTIFUL

So after last night's episode of the boys (which I have Several thoughts about), I feel I simply must say it again: Antony Starr is an incredible actor.

I'll hold off on my character analysis for the moment to just talk about how Antony Starr used his physicality in the most important scenes - starting with where he finds out Noir noped the fuck out.

Not only is he scared - actual, real fear, just like we saw when he first saw the camera footage of Soldier Boy - but he's hurt. And not just in the "ow that bruised my ego" way. He almost starts crying. You can see the tears in his eyes. When he leans in close to The Deep, you can literally see the reflection in the shine of his eyes. Another actor's attempt at this would've felt out of character or melodramatic, but with Antony Starr, the audience clocks it as maybe one of five instances of genuine emotion from a man whose most common "emotions", if you can call it that, are "murder", "sex", and "[preens]".

Which brings me to the next scene. I was already like, oh, shit, this is gonna be his best episode to date (which is saying something, because again, Antony Starr Is So Good). The scene where he's talking to himself in the mirror has so many tiny, beautiful expressions that say so much. My boyfriend fiance pointed out that the mirror scene was a definite homage to Willam DeFoe's Green Goblin (specifically the "Yahtzee!" moment), and I think it's fair to say that they're definitely on the same level (and Willam DeFoe is also So Good). For perhaps the first time, we see Homelander, stripped. He is entirely alone. He has no one to perform for; no one to impress or intimidate. He is only himself, but even still, he is divided.

...I said I wouldn't get into character discussion in this post. So. Antony Starr had two difficult tasks: playing off himself (instead of another human to work with), and playing two drastically different emotions. For the sake of clarity, I'll refer to them as Homelander and Mirror!Homelander.

We see Homelander's "last shred of humanity" more clearly here than anywhere. Antony Starr portrays a victim of abuse faced with his abuser, where their abuser is positioning themself as his savior. Antony Starr is a tall, sturdy man, but he makes himself look so small, so young as Mirror!Homelander confronts him. He is a child, scared of the world outside and the world within (Mirror!Homelander). We see Homelander sans bravado, sans ego, sans everything that makes Homelander the character we've seen over the past 2.5 seasons, and instead of seeming out of character, or seeming expected (in the sense of oh no the poor little meow meow had a tough childhood), it opens up a crater of emotion, of depth, of pity for this monster of a person. That would not be possible with another actor, I am positive of this.

Now let's talk about Mirror!Homelander. This is more what we expect from Homelander - big emotions. Anger. Righteous indignation. But it doesn't start that way. It starts soft, the way Homelander tried to approach Ryan - the way he would speak to a scared child. It ramps up, it borrows language from Stormfront, and it comes again to this idea of purity, of being clean. That humanity, even the humanity within Homelander himself - the humanity that has been more or less hidden behind...all of the everything - that humanity is the problem. This is an abuser talking to his victim; telling this scared little boy that he will help and he will protect him from the outside world (and whatever the "bad room" is, which I Will Not talk about right now, I won't!!!), just so long as the little boy does exactly what he says. Mirror!Homelander is the worst of what we've seen of real Homelander, and again, by another actor, it would have felt...overdone, or at least obvious. But Antony Starr's performance makes it clear that whatever pain he inflicts on the world around him (and it is a lot of pain!), he's also inflicting pain on himself, to the point where Homelander has to completely divorce himself from the source of it.

In the last scene with Homelander, after the fight, we only see real!Homelander, standing stock still in front of that mirror. What is Mirror!Homelander saying to him? How is he explaining what just happened to himself? How does he justify the fact that he ran away from a fight between his should-be-dead hero, his nemesis, and a naked twink?

What is Homelander doing to himself, that none of us can see?

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if kimiko has a million fans i am one of them. if kimiko has ten fans then i am one of them. if kimiko has only one fan then that is me. if kimiko has no fans then that means i am no longer on earth. if the world is against kimiko, i am against the world.

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Hughie: Okay everyone, I’m going to countdown from three and we’re all going to apologize to each other, okay? Three… two… one…

Hughie: . . .

Butcher: . . .

Soldier Boy: . . .

MM: . . .

Frenchie: . . .

Kimiko: . . .

Annie: . . .

Homelander: . . .

Ashley: . . .

Neuman: . . .

Stan Edgar: . . .

Black Noir: . . .

The Deep: . . .

A-Train: . . .

Hughie: Well now I’m just disappointed in us all.

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to me, THIS was honestly the scariest scene this episode for me:

hughie has always been the canary of the team, the one who stays away from violence and darker tactics, the one who stays true to his nice-guy tendencies. but if HE of all people been twisted by his new power and everything that's happened, how much longer will the others last?

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WHAT

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I didn’t become a vampire to end up a pen-pushing bureaucrat.

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me after writing out the scene I imagined in my head:

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if a demon from the upside down’s about to kill me and you need to find out what my favorite song is, please just tell my mother i love her. i can’t choose my favorite song for the life of me.

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Me: *starts a new series*

Me: *becomes intensely invested in this new series*

Me: *dedicates my entire existence to this new series*

The series: *ends*

Me: