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i think what bothers me most about the anti argument of “if you’re ACTUALLY writing to vent your trauma, then why do you need to share it” isn’t even how like, grossly victim shaming that is because it’s really abhorrent to tell people that their trauma is unattractive and shouldn’t be shown to other people;

it’s that it completely ignores what is cathartic about sharing your fucking feelings. we are social creatures. when we are sad, or in love, or angry, or happy, or have any strong feelings, we want to share them. and arguing that it’s inherently evil to want to share painful and difficult feelings just because YOU have decided that it is is so fucking ugly of you. not everyone processes things by journaling or writing to themselves, or meeting with their therapist.

some people find healing and catharsis through sharing their experiences and saying “here, here is something beautiful that i was able to make from something ugly, and i’m proud of that.” some people find value in themselves again by realizing that other people who have been through the same things still have value, too, and they find those people by saying “hey, this is what my experiences are.”

to suggest that someone deserves to sit with their experiences alone because their way of coping and connecting with others COULD be misinterpreted or make other people uncomfortable is disgusting. therapy isn’t a fix all for everything, you don’t magically become healed from all trauma and have the answers to all things coping just because you’re in therapy. talking to people you trust isn’t always an option because some people don’t want to disclose their trauma to people that they know, and they may only feel safe disclosing to people who have no way of knowing who they are in real life.

i’ve been to lots and lots of therapists over the course of my life, been in and out of psych hospitals, and whaddya know, i even have a degree in psychology now! and you know what psychology DOESN’T say?

you know what not a single one of my therapists has ever told me? “don’t share the parts of yourself that hurt because they might hurt someone else.”

you know what they HAVE said to me many times? “when you share with others, you have to remember that not everyone can handle the same things you can, so be mindful of that.”

and that is not AT ALL the same as your “stfu and don’t show this to other people” argument, especially when someone is sharing on a platform like ao3 that intentionally makes it so that we can cater the content we see to our specific needs and wants and comforts, which allows us to be extremely mindful of others. and breaking down the tag system- which is literally the key feature that allows us to be able to do that- is not an act of protest; it’s throwing a tantrum because you don’t want to take personal responsibility for the content you consume on a website that nobody is forcing you to be on.

i started writing fanfic when i was a teenager in the first place BECAUSE my therapist encouraged me to do it, and she encouraged me to share it online, because it made me feel fucking proud of myself. it helped me make friends in an environment that i felt comfortable in for the first time. it gave ME control over my narratives.

so i don’t want to hear this “well if it’s REALLY to process your trauma then go to therapy and don’t share it online” bullshit. because that proves you sincerely have no idea what the hell you’re talking about and why what you’re saying is significantly more psychologically damaging to someone who is trying to express themselves in a way that they feel comfortable with.

it’s really, really ironic that people are using 1984 to wreck the tagging system, because antis are the ones wanting to punish people for thoughtcrimes and pretend that every person who has ever had an intrusive thought/ fucked up fantasy/ dark interest and has written or read about it is an irredeemably guilty evil maniac for doing so.

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Came to me in a dream

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Literally no matter what you search on Tenor for gifs there WILL be that wee cunt from omori there. Omori fans are gif search terrorists

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✨girls✨

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kris and susie 4 my friend

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Late Night jammin‘ 😏

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Late Night jammin‘ 😏

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found an old Rubik's cube in my room and remembered tryna learn that cute algorithm (didn't learn but at least i can solve the damn thing now)

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Yesterday my stylus broke, so I can’t draw digital arts for a while :(

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ART TRADE WITH @blurrymango !!

I hadn't drawn Murdoc & 2D for a while and it was my first time with Frug & Black Hat

Thanks to Francis for this opportunity:33

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Carried three tea containers at work earlier and it reminded me of Chara. Now they get to work fast food

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My part of an art trade with @stellarcorpsee <3.

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NOOOOOOOOO. THEY EXPLODED HIM.

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PEOPLE BULLY YOU????

LUNA NOOOOOOO.

YOU DON'T DESERVE BULLYING.

YOUR ART IS TOO AMAZING. AND YOU'RE TOO SWEET.

WHY WOULD ANYONE BULLY YOU WHAT.

I've been following you for a while and first i love your flug art,i adore him,but quick question,are you still doing preg Flug?

[not kink, not "mpreg", Flug is a trans guy. I don't judge or mind anyone interacting with this, just stating my intention as creator]

yes! it's very comforting to me.

the internet has ruined this joy for me. I feel like I'm back in highschool being bullied. I wish I wasn't a known artist. I stopped posting it bc all people do is repost it and make fun of it and send me harassment... perhaps not even hurt, just tired

I made one for a headcanon ask round on insta about my fanchild Lola. various things, from Flug's pregnancy with her, to her childhood, role in adulthood and relationship to her parents.

I explained some made-up science to those who were curious. so here's some nerd stuff:

he could feel kicks, but a very dulled down version. Black Hat's babies are always born in smth like an intact amniotic sac much like humans, just much thicker and it stays intact and even hardens once it lays out in open air for a while after birth. so the eggs are evolutionary soft-shelled to make labor easier. due to the membrane being thicker he doesn't feel too much movement, but enough to leave him sleepless towards the end. Lola had a calmer temperament too

thank you so much for your long time support and praise!