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As a kid I want to grow up so bad, because I feel like they know what they want.

As a kid I thought that as I grew up, what my life set for me would unfold on its own.

As a kid I think that growing up makes things I can't become easier.

As a kid I wanted to be someone they will be proud of.

Maybe because I grew up seeing a lot of adults around me, who seem to know what they want in their life or maybe, I don’t really know that much?

As an adult, It made me realize how vast the world can be. Things that are so possible with others seem so unreachable for me.

As an adult, It made me see the world in a new lense I did not before. No wonder the adults back then kept saying that we should enjoy being a kid.

As an adult, It's embarrassing to say how lost I feel right now. This made me question some things; Does everyone know what they want in life? Do they know how to get what they want?

As an adult, for some reason my mind can’t put into words what's bothering me. I can’t make it be heard so that must be the reason why It's so hard to understand.

Everyday the question my younger self asks never finds its answer and, until now I’m still asking a lot of questions, mostly kept unsaid and never heard by anyone.

I want something that I don't know, how is that even possible?

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SEVEN SEAS FIRST BAIHE COVER BY XIAO TONG/VELINXI

There’s also a limited edition crunchy roll cover!

It’s a single volume release!

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I wish I could draw because there's a lack of fan art for MY DEATH GOD ROOMMATE 😫 My girls deserved to be known~

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Lack of interaction to new people makes me unable to start a conversation. It used to be slightly easy in the past and now I cant even do anything than think and think.

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Better watch your back, or Shijie will get your ass.

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Cute beings as my stress reliver 😩

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Yun An and Lin Buxian life's could be easier if men in that era learned to shut the fvck up. Especially that bastard named Zhong! I understand Yun An's frustration when women is forced to abide by rules of the so called "nature" that men created.

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filipino highschooler miku (bisaya edition)

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And in MXTX-related news, this is as sweet as it is incredibly cruel! Ow, my heart!

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I find the different execution of the same narrative device-crossdressing to get revenge-in both novels very fascinating, especially because of what it says about Lin Wanyue and Qiyan Agula's relationship with their gender.

Lin Wanyue was a young girl on the cusp of puberty when she took her brother's identity, and she doesn't really think about what she has done until she meets Li Xian for the first time; in front of the refined princess it really sinks in what she is losing by disguising herself as a boy, and finds herself dirty and crass.

It really weights on her lying about her disguise, too-even if she treasures her friendships with her fellow soldiers, she is always guarded and dearly misses having sincere interactions with people, especially girls her age; that's why she is overjoyed when she gets (not for long) the opportunity to have a female friend to confide in without having any secrets.

Qiyan, on the other hand, doesn't care about her gender-she is the prince Qiyan Agula first and a woman after (if she is even that); her identity is intrinsically tied to such title and her sex has been nothing but an obstacle for her.

Moreover, she has been conditioned to lie about herself since the moment she was born for her own survival, and that doesn't change until the very end of the novel, when she reveals everything to her wife; the only somewhat really sincere conversation she has before that is with Nagsi Jiya, and it is to guess her intentions as a fellow scheming tribe noble.

In both cases being found out would result in their death, but for Lin Wanyue is about lying to enlist, in Qiyan's case it's more about her being revealed as the last survivor of her tribe-being a woman is just something else that can be used against her.

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Happy Lunar New Year!

here's a lil comic of my skk little prince au i made a while back to greet you all :)) I hope your new year wishes come to fruition and that your year would be a blessed one <3

Anyways,,, new year shrine visit!

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Why am I an animator why do I do this to myself questioning all my life choices that led up to this point how did I even get here