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OH MY GOD GUYS LETS ALL GO BUY MINNIE TRAMPOLINES

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anorexic anarchist be like im gonna chew/spit the rich

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ugh i feel so grossssss.

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my motivation to be skinti 🎀🤍

(toxic edition & it gets progressively worse)

-the car wont beep when im driving without a seatbelt because it can’t sense the w8 😍 (always wear ur seatbelts though queens)

-i’ll be spending less money on body wash because.. less b0dy to wash 🧚🏼

-i’ll only need one drink to get me drunk <3

-when i walk past sensored lights they won’t light up because im teeny ☺️☺️☺️

-i won’t have to take the trash out/lift heavy boxes at work because nobody will ask me to since i will appear fragile ✨✨

-it will make up for my declining face card & terrible personality 😌

-i can take a hot shower without b0dy checking & flipping myself off in the mirror for 40 minutes till the water is cold

-i won’t have to try clothes on, i can just get the smallest size and pray its not too big on me

-i will feel like a mystery dream girl when im walking around alone listening to my silly little music in my silly little outfit (ego problem?)

-people will ask me how i did it.. and i will tell them i have no idea what they are referring to 👹👹👹

sorry if this is unhinged 🩷 im not well 🎀😋

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my purpose, my will to live and to not k1l mys3lfve (yet)

I will get skinnier in a sk1ns and 🦴s, deadly, emanciated, tragic, supermodel, poetic, iconic and inspiration story with before and after pictures way. And then if I don't die of the physical complications fast enough then i'll k1l mys3lfve or something. J7mp1ng or öv3rd0s1ng

I want it. I will get it. I already did very extreme things so i'll do it again, because they don't see anything anymore now. They just see my overweight ass confort eating constantly, hiding in the bathroom, miserable and insufferable, staying inside all day in bed and never moving because of social anxiety...

I have so much hatred, soo much sadness. My body will take it all. And everyone will see, the portrait of my distress and melancholy in a metaphysical horrific way, or more like of an artistic work that will make it nearly impossible for them to take their eyes away from me. Because my body IS a temple, it's just that it's a basic one... one without History. What makes a temple of ruins alluring is the knowledge of past glory and History. That's why saying that it looks normal is one of the biggest insults ever. Because think of it.. we are all artists, in this community, the 3dtumblr community. We craft our body into oblivion, visible bones defined cheeks, shades of grey under our eyes... We have our own set of pencils and brushes ; diet coke, sugar-free gum, precise forms of exercice, precise c0unt1ng 0f c4ls, precise ritu4ls around m34ls, even just the use of d1et1ing

I don't want to be nothing. I don't want to be a black piece of paper. I want too to have a legacy. But it takes some work for a blank piece of paper to become shades of complex blues... I think that's what I failed to realise prior to writing this post, I spended the two last months painting with my eyes and my head instead of my hands... I want to be more than a mere insect who's only relevency is the disgust that could come from looking at it a bit longer like i've been feeling like since the past 2.. 3 years? It takes some form of will to take action. Oh my dear lord, I wish so much that I was a exercice obsessed bitch. How can people have depression and a restrictive 3d at the same time? Personaly, I can't. Or at least I couldn't for the past two last months, the worst months of my life alongside the worst birthday day I had personaly

I also want people to leave me alone in some way, to the voices and anxiety to fuck off. I honestly cry every single day, there's really no exception... instead the days in which I f4st, I suddendly feel so numb when I f4st, and it's not even in a bad way it's genuiely in a good way, like "yay" "i'm alive!" "I still don't like life in general but in this present moment i feel really ok!"

F4st1ng is a way to cleanse your body globally, to pause and make a "summary", a redo, a rebranding, a rising sun. To reorganise all the google and youtube tabs left on your computer so that your device can be faster and more organised. To take all the raging colors and merge them into pure white or pitch black, shades of grey maybe?

This post is full of angst, I feel like i'm going to cringe in the future looking back at this post and have trouble sleeping at night knowing some people would have seen it nooo

Anyways, staying cold when i'm alone on purpose and taking cold showers is harsh, like i'm on a survival based tv reality show lol. And purposesly not sleeping at night so that I can sleep during the day or just be really tired so that i have less chances to think about or to actually eat food...

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atp I might just die of jealousy!! I’m getting so sick of seeing these girls who are th1nner than me.

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finally got out of the 180lbs 3 days ago yippee!!!!!!!!

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never in my life i have thought nikocado avocado would be my weight loss motivation

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the most delicate & fragile girl in the room looks like this …. and youre still eating

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My most iconic post

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they're just jealous that my body has already completely rotted inside and will decompose faster when it dies

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I HATE HAVING TO LOSE WEIGHT IVE ALREADY LOST AGAIN

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yeah, sorry i exhibited symptoms of the disorder i told you i have. it will happen again because i have that disorder and will continue having it. hope this helps!! 🫶🫶🫶

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who up destroying and betraying themselves for nothing

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save me 0 cal homemade ice cream....

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also can u guys please. shut the fuck up abt ppl drinking diet sodas? "oh theyre WORSE for u than regular sodas" "theyre so unhealthy" "its better to drink no soda than diet soda" can u all just shut the fuck up and let me live my life good fucking lord. and anybody who gives out regular soda when somebody orders a diet soda shld immediately get beaten with rocks by the person ordering the diet soda.