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Hello! So I found a really great article from Submissive Guide. (Which I recommend to read if you want to know more about my life style. Or just submissive work in general.) 

So this article is about many submissives (even if this was a word) with one dominant. Now in my family there are three of us pets and then one master. The article was talking about Littles but still, I learned a lot! 

It talks about Jealousy. About how to handle it and what helped her to keep the green monster away. I know for me, I get jealous because I love attention and I really can't help it. I like having Master's attention but, I am not the only one in the house, you know? In a poly relationship like this you have to learn from it and to see what you can do about it. For the girl in the article she said something about how she has post-it notes on her mirror talking about how her Dominant loves her and she is his. I actually have something like that on my mirror. I have my Master's letter to me on my mirror and it helps with my jealousy because when I read it I remember what Master loves about me and that he does love me and that I am his. Another thing is that I place all my collars on my dresser so I see them and I remember what these collars mean.

Sometimes I just tell me that it is my personality to want to be with Master more than the other. But I can't do that. And I liked how she said to keep busy because you kinda have to keep yourself busy. And it honestly..I would think that it would get easier but, I know maybe it won't you know? No one really knows. I really love my other housemates. So I shouldn't get jealous and compare myself that isn't right. So reading this article really helped me. I think it has to be because I know this is normal..and that it will happen. So I shouldn't worry about it.

I think everyone in a poly relationship read this or just in a mono relationship should read this too! It helps you think about how you do things or to help you knowing that you aren't alone. Because you really aren't about the green little monster in all of us.  

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Master said to clean out my Drafts and I had this in here for a while..And I do not remember when I wrote this...But I will post it. Because it was how I felt at the time. 

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I need to stop thinking so negativity about myself. It not only brings toxic to myself and well being..it also affects the person I love. I can’t make excuses about what I have done…it was honestly very childish of me. My insecurities got to me. Where I shouldn’t have had.

I have always been insecure with my face and body shape..for I always compared myself to girls I have seen in magazines..I even begged my mom to get lazed hair removal from my arms as a graduation preset because I felt like I had too much hair there..and it was ugly to anyone that saw it. I’m not complaining now because I don’t have to worry about it. But for the reason it’s stupid. And I pray and hope that if you are a girl reading this..that you don’t have the same mindset as me. Because no matter what you shouldn’t feel like the person you care about or love tells you that you are beautiful…believe it.

Don’t be like me. Foolish to think that he only likes the girls in magazines..because he did pick me for a reason..and it’s not just because of my face. I made him proud and insulted in the same day..what am I? Who does that? I was doing so well..and with the emotional night already.. Urgh..I’m so selfish..he was just trying to lighten the mood from after what happened. I’m such a childish thinker and I frustrate everyone..my goodness.

Master wrote me a letter that I will keep with me..and I was yet again foolish enough not to go back and read it when I was feeling insecure. He wrote beautiful things that made me remember him..and his touch..everything. I made him feel unwanted, unneeded..and I want to make it up to him.

I make it so difficult for him..I need to show him that he is wanted. I may be a new pet but I shouldn’t be hurting him so much like I have. I hurt him so much and I want to heal it. I shouldn’t strive for perfect. But to be myself and to perfect myself.

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I need to focus on my relationship with Master.

I have to prove to him that I want to be here more than anything. 

I will do what I am supposed to do. I will do everything that will prove that I want to be here. I want to be here.I do with my soul. I have to show him that I do. And I will do it. 

I will.

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I'm like Lady from Lady and the Tramp.

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Here it is again. I guess the reason I am like this is because I haven't written anything in here and haven't expressed myself properly.

talking with master yesterday really hit me hard..I shouldn't care about anyone except him. Is that really me thought? Do I mother too much? Should I not be there for my friends? It's weird to me because I never had to experience this before. 

Something clicked in me..I feel myself just..slumping? I don't know. Maybe cold...that is it. Cold. I feel a lump in my chest. its too heavy and I want it out. I care too much, I am too sensitive to other people and I feel like I should take a step back from Jun and seungho. and not be friends? I don't know. Maybe I am taking what Master said and spinning it around badly or something that isn't right.

Are they ignoring me when I talk to them now? is there a reason they are doing that so I don't get too friendly with everyone? I don't know what is happening but I am feeling secluded right now and I don't know what is happening. 

But it is me as well because Like Master said I mother people..I always have though..How do I stop? Just stop caring and act like nothing happened? that is what he said but...I will have to work harder on that.. TO act like nothing is wrong. There is three of us in here and it's not about me..

And I know that. Which makes me upset that I had to be reminded of it. How could I be so stupid to forget about it.

I think I know what I have to do and I will do it to change how I act now..And I shall see how it goes. I wish myself luck.

Do I feel better?

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Oh goodness.

Today was super rough. Jun was sick and I have to admit it was tough having to do everything on the chore list and make dinner for everyone. But it's not as tough as what master has to go through so I shouldn't complain. 

I'm tired though..and something hurts but it isn't a problem. Maybe broke a nail but nothing that tap and nail polish wont fix! I hope Master is okay though. Something has been off since Tuesday and he hasn't been the same? I don't know I may be over thinking it since he has been getting busier at work and I know how hard that is..That he is just exhausted...Bored? Maybe. But tomorrow I will get everything done tomorrow and Maybe have a surprise later. Not sure. But My birthday is coming up and I would totally love to have Halloween birthday. I know it's cliche because my birthday is on Halloween but this is my first birthday with Master..And Maybe we will do something Halloween-ish. Don't know.

I really want to spend time with master. We didn't get to have our alone time this week and I am really sad about that. I hope he didn't forget. I mean probably since he does get busy. So I don't mind~ But I did ask to sleep with him tonight and he said yes! I almost asked if I could use my cage for the first time tonight but then..My heart started to race..Do you think I am ready for it? Maybe next time I will ask. I understand the cage I just need to experience it..And I am bring my puppy with me because he needs to experience it too..he isn't leaving my side.

What else? Well...nothing really.

maybe I will take a nap before bed or just wait in Masters bed..I have a nice book to read. Yeah, I'll wait.

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I feel like this is me right now with my ah ha moment.. -facepalms hard-

I realized something..And it is huge. I have to write it down soon. Or I will lose it. But this is a miracle. 

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