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Even tho you push me away I’ll still try my best to give you my love Mel. I love you to the very moon and back and from the bottom of my heart

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I put all my emotions and feelings, love etc into it and hope you appreciate it

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I love how energetic you are man, your energy is beyond different, I wanna vibe with you, I wanna live with you. I wanna do all types of things boyfriends and girlfriends do, but I fucked up what we had, I’m a dumbass, I let the past get between us two. I wanna reassure myself now, give myself space and y’all to you when I’m ready but then I find myself never ready to talk to you. I can’t bro, I can’t go without you, I wanna start another chapter with you. A new one, one that’ll be better than all chapters. I’m sure this one will be great and will help shape me even better. I’m changing rn but I need to stop being sad for you. I’m really sorry and I hope that you’ll forgive me. I know you probably don’t wanna hear from me either but I hope my message will get to you, knowing that I missing you rn and I wanna apologize for the shit I’ve done, be a better person for you, to show that I’m a better person for you. But hey I really don’t wanna lose you and I’m sorry so yea. I luv you dearly and hope that you’ll be able to forgive me for the shit I did. Thank you Mel, I luv luv you very much!🤞🖤

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Man words can’t describe how much I miss the way we used to be. I miss you miss you type shit! I need your luv at the moment babe. I guess I’ll wait again for you. I’m not gonna give up, slatt 🤮

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I wanna change bro, to better myself this shit hurts man. I’m changing I think but where I’m at hurts. I visualize death everyday, from when I wake up to when I go to sleep. This shit hurts dawg. I’ve already changed once but I went to the same old konyae, the stupid depressed one. I wanna be positive and fill my life with happy thoughts you know? I hate myself and I wished I’d just fuckin end it already. I promise Melodee that I’ll change for you I promise just wait. I’ll wait for you again even if it matters. I’ll try my best to be with you and be able to give you my love that I’ve been wanting to. I’m sorry for all this stupid comotion. Idk why what’s wrong with my head, it’s all over the place. I’m unstable. The demons are coming, the stupid voices in my head. It’s hurting. I just really need you at the moment Melodee bc your really the only one that’ll be able to hold me down. I’m okay tho but I’ll be back💞☠️

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I hate it, the demons are taking over

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Hopefully I’ll be able to make a new chapter with you, it should be fun

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I’m sorry for all the shit I’ve done that has hurt anyone. I’m nothing but a lame bozo ass nigga!!! It’s alright tho I luv each and everyone of you guys that I was able to call my friends. You guys somewhat shaped my life or at least tried to help me change. I don’t know when I’ll do it but I promise that it should be soon maybe. Oh and sorry for making it seem funny to you if it did. I guess this would be a last word to each and everyone of you. Like I said earlier I don’t know when I’ll do it and if I’ll do it but I want to soon. I don’t belong here, I don’t even deserve none of y’all. I love you guys tho. I don’t want to keep my uncle waiting up there either. If y’all were either give me fake love or real love I really appreciated it and I loved you too. I just find myself trapped in this corner filled with darkness. I feel as if I’m happy with myself. I’ve tried my hardest and my best but I seem to never accomplish barely anything. Lol I’ll for sure miss those days were I played volleyball with everyone. That was what made me happy, especially this one day where I got to spend it with this special little lady that will always have my heart no matter what. I’ll forever cherish that day. And to whom it concerns im content with myself, I’m truly happy I cutted bc I had fucked up or it was to get my mind off of things. I’m fine being alone bc it’s pretty fun, I’ve never been so lonely before but I gotten used to it so yeah. I give zero fucks about my fuckin life so yea. Please don’t tell me you care bc I don’t want you too. I’m no fuckin bitch bc my mom didn’t raise no bitch. I love my mom she’s my first priority.

I miss you dad and I hope your doing okay

I fucked up so many times and Ik I’m young but I just don’t wanna be here.

Ummmm where can I start, I LOVE you Melodee. I feel as if you almost opened a new chapter In my life where as if I can restart but the only way I can do that is taking the easy way out. Words can’t describe my love for you so I’ll make this short.

And to all my friends I fw you guys heavy and Yk that.i love you all💗💗💗🤞

No one will be the blame of my death if I took it. I blame myself only bc I’ll be stupid enough to do it. I just wanna get rid of the pain. I’ve only been numbing it but it doesn’t go away. Just know i impacted or at least like came into your life like yk. I really do hope I don’t bc I wanna change. Well I don’t know what else to say but this is a goodbye letter if I leave so yea. Pc out🖤💜🖤💜☠️☠️☠️

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Radiate yourself with positive energy, be positive,

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Maybe death is what will come soon;)

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I’ll be gone soon