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I can understand how Shuro may be a frustrating character to some folks - in fact that is kinda what he is there for, narratively speaking. But it really gives me ick when people just wanna shit on him for "being awful/the worst/an asshole"

The way I see it, the dude is his own different flavor of Autism- repressed, conditioned, awkward, and forced to participate in high society, not to mention the culture clash - and he sees laios just being his own weirdo self and he hates it --- no, thats not it. I honestly don't think he hates laios; i truly believe he hates that Laios gets to be TRUE to himself, and he (shuro) Doesn't get to be.

And it's a feeling I can understand and sympathize and empathize with, as I have been on my own personal journey to try and un-mask and deconstruct and heal myself in a world that has made me feel broken my entire life

People scream "hypocrisy" as shuro sees the same traits between the touden siblings, and is attracted to one whilst hating the other - and yes, I can agree that it's a bit hypocritical, but yall are taking it at face value and not understanding where his feelings are coming from. Shuro doesn't hate laios because he has a special interest, shuro hates that his whole life, he has had to squash himself into a form-fitting box, behave as his family commands, and now he sees laios being free of expectation, just out here being a weirdo, and shuro is possibly feeling that frustrated grief that comes with the late diagnosed autistic situation of "I could have been happy, too, but no, *I* had to be the responsible one"

... at least, that's how I view it. Coz I myself have had those thoughts. And I know, it's NOT a good look for me to be out here admitting that I have felt this way, like for example, maybe I see someone else's struggle with anxiety, whether it's online or in real life, and I have this bitter thought to myself of "yeah, I have anxiety too, but *I* was still forced to be a responsible adult anyway" which makes me momentarily frustrated.

And before anyone jumps my ass about it, NO, I definitely DO NOT think that "if I had to suffer thru it, so should everyone else" that's NOT what I'm saying. But I AM saying that, there is a bitterness, when u see someone who is able to avoid a struggle that you had to endure - that bitterness is NOT thinking that everyone should suffer as I did, but me being bitter that *I had to* at all.

Does that make sense? Coz I really feel like Shuro just gets shit on because people think he's there to interrupt the Yuri and be mean to Laois, and I really feel that he's a whole ass person. And a somewhat melancholic one, at that. He makes me think of how I had to grow up Christian whilst being queer and undiagnosed Audhd my entire life, and I would be very very surprised to hear that a large chunk of dunmeshi fans didn't ALSO grow up this way, feeling broken and stupid and tired, forced to do things the "normal people" way, and then NOT understand how Shuro feels when he sees someone who is in a position to be mostly free of that...

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I forgot how to draw these losers...

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SECRETS OF THE MACHINE THEORY ABOUT GRANT COHEN (SPOILERS)

so me and my friends (which includes @doxxed0367) have been going feral over the new secrets of the machine game and we've been thinking about something as it relates to grant cohen and the lore...

...so as we know, riley wells' parents were killed in a car crash. the thing about this too is the fact that Gaskett, the car from the now-defunct Bendy mobile game, is used to represent the car that kill their parents. whats interesting to note about this can be seen in this twitter post from YEARS ago

now this hasn't ever really meant anything.... UNTIL NOW.

What if Grant Cohen killed Riley's parents?

now this wouldn't be outside of the realm of possibility. in fact, im a firm believer that this is the case considering that we see Gaskett in the game once you go through the whole sequence and get killed by it.

...BUT DO YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT ELSE THIS COULD MEAN?

let me pivot here for a moment and talk about Bertrum Piedmont. as we all know from the first game, Bertrum was turned into that machine boss fight once he entered the cycle. this means that, among becoming lost ones, people can become whole vehicles.

AND SO I RAISE YOU THIS:

THIS MEANS THAT NOT ONLY COULD GRANT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE DEATH OF RILEY'S PARENTS, BUT IT MEANS THAT WHEN HE ENTERED THE CYCLE, GRANT BECAME GASKETT.

GRANT "HE HAS MANGE" COHEN IS A FUCKING CAR

AND YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT MAKES THIS EVEN MORE DAMNING? DAGAMES CAME OUT WITH A LIFE IS A HIGHWAY REMIX OF BUILD UP OUR MACHINE.

GUESS WHO DAGAMES VOICES IN THE BENDY FRANCHISE?

GRANT COHEN!!!!!

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wilds

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wow, my last post which had links to the bendy novels blew up!!!! would be an even BIGGER SHAME if people began going to this mediafire folder that absolutely doesn't have the first four novels as pdfs.....seriously, don't do it guys!!!! and definitely don't spread this link around!

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Ouhg. I wanna post stuff here. Maybe im putting oc stuff

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horror + posters iii

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Paula doodles! I love her so much wahhh

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best way to deal with alien life forms (beat them up)

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Daanryk for seled, some of other requests and stuff.

Oh and If you want me to draw someone or something from f&h feel free to ask :)

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Intrusive Thoughts are unwanted thoughts or images that you find distressing and/or disturbing. 

more information on what intrusive thoughts are!

what intrusive thoughts are: https://moodsmith.com/intrusive-thoughts/

how to cope with them: https://www.betterhelp.com/advice/how-to/how-to-stop-intrusive-thoughts-and-live-your-life/

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My new illustration inspired by the LN comic!

Imitating the artstyle is very fun!

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I’m working on a new illustration!

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a couple of forever wips

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Here we are

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he’s like a bug to me