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god i hate art so much, like genuinely if your entertainment is trying too hard to "say something" get lost. I don't care what you have to say. Art should look cool or have function and if it doesn't then it's worth nothing. This is especially annoying in music when songwriters think they can just whine about stuff they care about like god just make a beat that sounds cool I genuinely do not care about how you feel about whatever stupid thing your song is about. I hate people so much. Humans suck. The world would be better if there was no community or culture or religion, just function and efficiency. It makes me so furious when people find solace in community. Like genuinely it makes me so angry. Do things yourself, don't be part of a group, don't particpate in your town or city or "church" or whatever just keep to yourself and be productive. Art should be illegal, religion should be illegal, being part of a group should be illegal, just be normal!!!! Seriously just be normal. I saw some stupid post saying "the term binary trans woman is just a justification for transmisogyny" shut up shut up shut up i hate this stupid rhetoric. Be whatever so what boy or girl or non-binary or whatever but shut up about the stupid discourse. no one cares what you have to say.

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It's insane how every detrans kink blog that I follow degrades over time into a sea of tits and ass, fatter and faker the better, all the text posts devolving into "uuung this bitch gets me so hard." It really shows what you fake"girls" truly are once the delusions start fading.

Y'all get dumber and hornier, more and more like the average basic straight male thinking with his cock.

Y'all become more misogynistic and sexist, absorbing more and more objectification and degradation as your idea of a "woman" becomes purely sexually charged.

Crazy how you still think you're girls after flooding my feed with those bimbos y'all wanna breed someday.

Let the testosterone-fueled haze take over.

Keep filling your blogs with porn.

Bigger, fatter, faker tits.

Rounder, thicker, jigglier ass.

You'll sort yourself out that way.

Signed, a fellow confused man.

PS: Start lifting too, bro. Bitches love strong men. Also stop shaving. Also blast your brain with dudebro ideology til you're not just a man...

You're a brutish, dim-witted parody of a man.

Fuckkk 😵‍💫😵‍💫

You’re so right, having this blog has been showing me what I really am and it’s getting harder and harder to pretend to be anything else

At this point I just want it to get worse—I need to get dumber and hazier and hornier and edge my respect for girls and anything feminine in my head away forever 🤤

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u should go ultra short, maybe get a buzz or high fade, make sure noone can see you as a girl silly boy

That is really hot and turns me on a lot yeah, but I just don't look good with my hair that short, and to be honest shaving my head 8 months ago has really negatively affected my mental health.

if I got a haircut I'd want it to be masc but not semi-permanently so.

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pleasepleaseplease

Okay but going off my last reblog i fucking lOVE being renamed. Like stripping my identitty away even further than i already do myself and making me personalized just for you. ♡

Our time spent together is custom just for you. Do i get a new name, a new role, a new self. I'll take on whatever it is you give me, whatever you make me, bc thats whats best for me anyway. because im yours to form anyway. thats the best part of my purpose, being a customizable object for whoever picks me up.

So pleaee give me a name when you say hi or when you want to talk or sext or whatever it is. I want to he customized just to you, so its our little experience together. Isnt that sweet? ♡

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Dreaming of someone force masculinizing me with hypno and manipulation, getting the idea in my head that I'm better as a boy, that you like me more as a boy, and of course I want you to like me right?

The spirals can fix me...

my dms are very open for any tists lol

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I think a lot of my fixation on detrans has to do with how I was originally introduced to the concept of transsexuals (as they were called back then). It was in 2012 and I was 12 years old. I was looking at a lot of trans porn and I was like "man I wonder how these people got like this. They have boobs and a penis???" so I looked it up and found out about hrt. I went into online communities for trans people but it wasn't like how it is now. It wasn't easy to find other trans kids so I talked to a lot adults, many of whom were much, much older than me. They left a weird impression on me about what being trans was. I decided I didn't want to be trans, I just wanted to be a girl, but that was impossible, so I fell into being obsessed with the fantasy of it. At the time a lot of my exposure to trans people overlapped with sissy or crossdressing stuff. That's just kind of how it was in like 2012/2013. I got obsessed with passing perfectly, with being a normal girl, because trans people were gross, right? I never quite got over that. I still find trans girls really obnoxious a lot of the time. I want to be either a normal, cisgender girl, or a normal, cisgender boy. I don't want to be able to switch between or be in the middle. If I'm a boy I want it to be so that any attempt at being a girl is OBVIOUSLY fake and unconvincing. I'd want to unmistakable as a man no matter what I wear or how I present myself. I want to turn any authentic femininity i had into just a sissy kink basically.

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MTFTM Detrans Notes Game

I did a detrans notes game a while back but its scope was too unrealistic and I didn’t end up sticking to it so I’m gonna do a more modest one now.

There will be no hrt related goals because I’m already going off hrt temporarily for unrelated reasons.

All goals start as of June 22

Updated as of 50 Notes

Every 5 Notes - One day of not shaving

Next Shave: July 2

Every 10 Notes - One day I have to wear a binder and masc clothes

Challenge Ends After: June 27

Every 15 Notes - One Day of applying rogaine to my face

I Can Stop After: June 25

Every 20 Notes - One Day of not showering (to let the boystink simmer)

Next Shower: June 24

Every 25 Notes - One Day of using a deep voice

I Can Sound Like a Girl Again On: June 24

50 Notes - I’ll go somewhere public (that I’ve never been before) fully presenting as male

100 Notes - I’ll get a haircut

150 Notes - I’ll buy some new male clothes

200 Notes - I’ll go somewhere public (where people recognize me) fully presenting as male

250 Notes - I come out to people I’m close to as gender fluid

1000 Notes - I’ll cancel my bottom surgery :)

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she’s genuinely perfect 👌 🤩

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Okay so, I am getting a haircut July 3, and I will not be shaving until then, after all it’s cheaper to get a haircut as a guy. I have to be convincing.

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I do genuinely need to get a haircut tbh

For girl reasons… I promise! Really! When I had long hair I always kept my bangs short, and now my hair is getting in my eyes. Also I have a mullet, which I don’t like much. I just want to get it cut so it grows out more even. If I happen to go to a men’s barbershop and poorly explain what I want that’s not my fault, right?

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I’m trying to keep an open mind about all my options with gender identity and how I present myself. I don’t want to close myself off to any possibilities. What if, after being off hrt for several months, I decide I prefer that? What if I find myself playing a masculine role in a new relationship and I want to be a good boyfriend?

I think honestly that’s the scenario where I’d gladly detransition. Being in a relationship with a straight girl that sees me as her project. That’s like my ideal scenario.

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nggghh

Hypnotic

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ok update: im shadowbanned and my messages are disabled i just hadnt realized until now lawl ill fix this later and let you know when i get it sorted out :33

lol okay rip sorry about that

Yeah I mean btw I think the way I’d describe this stuff for me is that for me detrans is a kink but it’s not *just* a kink. I guess in the sense that I figure 5 years from now I’ll be a woman, and I’m trying to get bottom surgery and everything, but until I get bottom surgery I’m letting myself do this detrans stuff and taking it pretty far even, like going off hrt for long stretches of time. So even though I’m fully transitioned and I pass and I intend detrans to be temporary, this kink is kind of real to me.

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hii i was the 19y/o fakeboy! (just a kink for me too im transitioning and pass) i tried to dm u but cant aaa. if u want u could check dm settings or ill just send an ask off of anon if you promise not to post it and doxx me lawl :3 if u dont feel like it tho thats cool

Oh that’s weird, a lot of people dm me I’m not sure why you wouldn’t be able to. You could send an ask without being anonymous and I’ll just not answer it and we can see if I can dm you :)

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i LIED. I shaved just a bit ago. This is all just fantasy for me that I take a little too seriously sometimes, especially when my mental health isn’t very good. I AM A GIRL.

I’ve explained before why I get obsessed with this kink, a lot of it is coping. Honestly I’m getting kind of sick of it and might switch to like egirlification and dumbification because that sounds a lot more fun to me.

Unironically half of why I like detrans is just because I pass worse when I don’t take a shower and I struggle showering enough sometimes and it’s a cope 😭

Who here dares me to not shave until July?

If I get 30 notes I'll do it.

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The thing I can’t get over about being off hrt for a week is the way I smell. I smell very strongly and I smell like a guy. Almost makes me want to avoid showers…

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idk should I delete this account