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Louis on stage in Guadalajara, Mexico - 6/6

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Listen, you know why Andrew loves Neil? Why Neil Abram Josten was the one Andrew would allow into his inner space, to allow growing roots where Andrew keeps the remaining fragments of his heart?

Because hardly anyone respects Andrew's boundaries. Renee does. Bee does. Wymack does. Andrew respects his own boundaries to the point of enforcing them at knife point.

But Neil? Neil Abram Josten?

He views Andrew's boundaries as sacred.

Renee, Bee, and Wymack would view crossing Andrew's boundaries as disrespectful at best and a violation at worst. They earned his trust that way.

But NEIL???

Neil views crossing Andrew's boundaries as a fucking sin. As blasphemous. A devoted disciple would sooner spit in their God's face than Neil ever conceiving of crossing Andrew's boundaries.

Some people would look at you erecting brick walls covered in barbed wire and would start looking for a good crack to aim a sledgehammer. Some people would watch you lock a door and try knocking, just once, to see if you'll open it for them. And some people would watch you draw a line in the sand and never dream of stepping over it.

Neil parked his ass on the other side of Andrew's barbed wired multi-layered brick wall surrounding his concrete bunker and stayed there, running his mouth. And when Andrew revealed the hidden door, Neil smiled, stayed put, and kept talking.

Andrew didn't fall for Neil because Neil wouldn't come in.

He fell because Neil waited for Andrew to come out, waited for Andrew to extend his hand, and waited for Andrew to lead him inside by his own volition.

And that's why Neil was the one who earned Andrew's "Stay".

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Joan Miró

This is the Colour of My Dreams

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why do I seem to need to? || tsc chapter 6

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No thoughts today, just Andrew Minyard... Andrew Andrew Andrew. Andrew Joseph Minyard. Like, wow - He. Just yes, Andrew, Andrew Minyard. That's all I had to say, thanks, but most of all, my thanks to Andrew Minyard.

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“The bravest thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die.”

— Juliette Lewis

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Dear Ash 💖

12/8

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when things are not FINE / ma.c.a

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Bro she can read a whole 400 page novel in a day. If she is not reading your one text, let her go, she's already taken by a fictional character

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Imparate a mangiare da soli, bere da soli, uscire da soli, uscire dalle crisi emotive da soli, non ci sarà sempre qualcuno al nostro fianco

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ultimamente mi sento un po' un fallimento, o almeno più del solito

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Sometimes I'm overwhelmed by how deeply hurt and evil this world can be and other times I'm stunned to silence by its beauty so I suppose the only thing that's certain is that its here, and I'm in it, and I'll do with that what I can

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