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Splurged on workout gear yesterday. This was MUCH needed. Seriously. I have the original Align Pant in black and they are so stretched out and pilled beyond belief and they're just bad. I still wear them, but they gross me out when my hands run across all the pillage(?). I have the Align Pant II in blue, so I got them in black yesterday to replace my original pair. But wow has the quality changed. The first pair I tried on was SO SEE-THROUGH. I grabbed 2 of the exact same ones. The second pair I tried on is the pair I bought. They passed the squat test. The third pair wasn't as see through as the first but wasn't as opaque as the second and had this weird line of concentrated dye on the butt. They were all the exact same Align Pant in black. Wtf, Lululemon? The Nike Indy sports bra has been my favorite for a couple years. I actually only own one, but I got it a couple years ago and it still looks and feels brand new. It's just too small because my boobs are bigger and I'm fat right now and my back is more muscular than it used to be. So I bought the appropriate size and then fell in love with the Soft Indy, too, and had a coupon if I spent $50+, so I got both. And idk if this is a thing, I haven't seen anyone else post about this, but Madewell basic tees are my favorite gym shirts. They are SO comfortable and flattering. Probably comparable to Lululemon tees but $50 cheaper. So I got a couple that were on sale. I'm reeeally excited to go to the gym now. The end.

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No wonder I didn't get any notifications from this pic yesterday. Because of COURSE Tumblr ate it!!!!! 🙃🤗🖕🏼 N e way I saiddddd Did u even have a good leg/glute workout if you didn't take this pic

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PSA:

Actually more of a note to self, BUT

Endorphins are real. I've been working out consistently for a little over 2 weeks now. If I ever stop and question if endorphins are even a thing, please direct me here. I sang and danced driving home from the gym today, and I don't remember the last time I did that alone in the car (for sure every car ride with Matt, but alone? I have no idea).

Could also be that I'm done violently bleeding and am no longer crying over Starbucks running out of almond milk (yay period hormones!!!). But n e way endorphins r still valid

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This week I'm feeling really determined to shed this fat once and for all. I might've said this the last time around, but I'm saying and feeling it again, and hopefully this time really is THE time.

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If you’re trying to get into any type of healthy habit and you’re having trouble sticking to it, my advice is to observe how great you feel when you’re consistent with it and also observe how you don’t feel quite as good when you’re inconsistent. This doesn’t have to apply to only working out and eating healthy. For me this applies to meditation. I’ve recently started doing it regularly, and it’s definitely pretty hard for me so sometimes it’s tempting to just blow it off. But when I commit to doing it everyday and really try my best, I notice a difference in the rest of my day. I don’t feel as anxious over nothing, my mind feels clear, I feel more motivated, it’s easier for me to focus and get things done, and it just gives me a more positive outlook in general. If I have a moment where I think “ugh I’m busy I don’t feel like meditating right now” I remind myself that I will regret not doing it, that I will feel better if I do it, and even doing a little something is better than nothing 😌 Apply this mindset to any goal you’re trying to achieve and slowly but surely you will get there ✌🏼

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Get you a man who texts you across the gym just to encourage you.

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Forever annoyed that our gym doesn't have bumper plates. Godddd I can't wait for our contract to end so we can try a different gym. Even though there aren't any in Fresno that would be perfectly suited to us, I think we could at least find one better than the one we're in.

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It just really hit me that if I would've stuck with the Katy Hearn Spring Challenge and then continued training and cutting after it ended, I would have lost all the weight I want(ed) to lose by now. So that really sucks.

Looking back I'm like, wow I honestly CANNOT believe how I went to the gym 5 days a week and did cardio 4-5 times a week and hit my macros every day with the same schedule I have now. Thinking of reverting back to that now gives me anxiety. I feel like I'm not capable of doing it, even though I did it for a month straight with literally no slip-ups.

I'm trying my best to be better. It's just so hard when my own brain is fighting against itself.

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Finally got back into the gym today. I've been feeling like shit about myself lately. So today I worked out, ate well, and cleaned our place. Feels good to do things that make me feel good. Also remembered what a glute pump is like. It was dwindling at this point, but I was still excited.

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Felt okay about going to the gym until I started my workout. All these fit people keep looking at me and it makes me so uncomfortable because I'm uncomfortable with my body. Usually I'm unbothered by people in the gym. I'm just here to work out, and I don't care about the big, ripped people around me. But something about how uncomfortable I am with my body right now is making me uncomfortable everywhere.

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I've NEVER seen someone I know at the gym. Probably because I don't know many people in Fresno, and the people I do know don't go to this gym. And of course when I'm feeling my absolute fattest and grossest, I see one of my coworkers who just moved here a couple months ago. Reaaaallllyyyyyy. You don't even live in Fresno wtf are you doing hereeeeeee

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I don't want to go to the gym because I feel fat and gross but I have to go to the gym because I feel fat and gross.

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I'm back to the weight I was at at the beginning of the KH Spring Challenge. I lost 8-10 pounds during that challenge, which I only did half of. So I've gained 8-10 pounds back in about 2 months. I hate myself. I've got to be like 30 pounds overweight. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed of myself.

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please remember that if your stomach didnt fold when you sit, slouch, or bend over your tummy skin would rip in half when you stood up again

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I AM GOING TO THE FUCKING GYM TOMORROW. Gosh. Whhhyyyy do I always throw progress in the trash.

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It's already been over a month since I last consistently went to the gym and tracked my macros. I did it for 4 weeks and then got off track. Again. Why do I allow myself to give up on my goals so easily? Ugh. I feel fat and so low on energy and it sucks to think about where I would be right now if I hadn't given up.

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Kind of feeling like shit because I didn't finish the challenge. Our friends' visit majorly threw me off track, and I know it's my fault. I haven't properly tracked a whole day since before they were here, so about a month. Haven't stuck to my training since then. I feel gross. I've had Chipotle like 4 times in the past week and a half. I got a venti at Starbucks the other day. Haven't had chicken in over a week. I FEEL SO GROSS.