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miss them until u don’t anymore, when ur chest isn’t heavy and ur heart is empty you’ll know it’s over then

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I need to plaster this on every surface of my house tbh

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Daily reminder: If they wanna talk to you, they will. If they wanna be with you, they will. If they wanna make things work, they will. Don’t let things be one sided. It’s not healthy, and it’s not fair to you.

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I thought I was doing better and getting over you, I felt like after we talked I had peace and closure. Even though you said we were still going to talk after you didn’t text me for over a week I figured it out. You just wanted to talk about it to get closure but you never wanted to start talking again. Which is fair, that’s kind of what I wanted too but it would have been nice if you would have told me that upfront instead of lying about it. Pretending that you care when it’s obvious that you don’t. I got fucking top surgery and posted about it, I know you saw it and you still said nothing.

I’m just mad that I’m still upset about this. Because I thought i was over it and I was okay but I guess I’m not, you fucked me up and got inside my head and I’m still not over you

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having my birthday in quarantine really sucked but whats sad is it wasnt even the worst birthday ive had in the last few years lmao. i guess thats a good thing because it means it wasnt that bad this year but it just makes me sad because it makes me think about how much i hate birthdays

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there’s a misconception that grief only happens when we lose people. this is not true. we can grieve circumstances, relationships, missed opportunities. in fact, sometimes when you find yourself plagued with waves of emotion from sadness to melancholy you may be grieving yourself. the version of yourself that you might have been if things had been different, or if only you had said something, or if someone had stood up for you.

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took it personally because I never would’ve done it to you

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to myself,

i am trying to love you more

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whatever happened today, please go to bed knowing you are loved and safe and wanted. things will be brighter in the morning, i promise.

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no one tells you how much of life takes practice. not just writing, painting, running, singing, etc, but practicing how to make friends. how to make the right ones. getting practiced at how to be a good friend, a good sibling, a good person. practice identifying when people haven’t earned that. learning to recognize your right to rage and, eventually, how to offer mercy. so much of life is muscle memory, and i’ve begun to realize there are so many more parts of ourselves to flex and stretch and strengthen than those we’re taught in anatomy lessons

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me: takes my meds, sits down to do my homework, feeling not great but okay and motivated to work

me: thinks about an old friend for .5 seconds and how much fun we used to have together and how i ruined it all and now they probably hate me 

me: is now crying and cant work at all

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Grasses in the wind.

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I hope one day you wake up not bearing that heavy feeling anymore.

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You deserve to understand that someone out there really fucking loves you.

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Every breath a trans person takes is an act of revolution …So keep breathing

Short one page comic to help remind you to breathe even when you feel like you’re suffocating.

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