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it took too long for you to call back and normally I would just forget that except for the fact it was my birthday my fucking birthday !

an independent, private, selective multi-muse roleplay blog for both canon and original characters. featured fandoms include harry potter (anti-jkr), glee, the vampire diaries, and more !! penned by berry. previously at pctentialbreakupsong (et al). 21+. minors and personals do not interact.

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There was so much more to it than just doing well -- something that her dear friend would never understand. "Says the one who studies the night before and makes me stay up with her to help." She rolled her eyes at the wiggle of her eyebrows, shaking her head and puffing out her cheeks. "I don't even want to know what that look was for." She lifted her books from her lap when Marlene draped herself across her, raising an eyebrow before she rolled her eyes. "Alright, fine. As long as you promise to do my make up and help me find something to wear." She was right though, she needed to experience the things that all the other normal teenagers were doing. "Where's the party?" She carefully slid off of the sofa and pushed herself up, setting her books down on her bed before moving to her closet to find some kind of outfit.

"Lily. I understand that you want to do well in the exams but you've been studying so much lately - At some point you need to take a break to let it all sink in." Marlene was very much of the 'coffee and cramming the night before' variety. "Yes, everyone." Her brows waggled. She couldn't fully confirm but she had noticed that Lily was maybe a little less resistant to spending time with James Potter. Which was an interesting turn of events. "Your hair is fine. I'll do your makeup and you'll good in anything you wear." She practically draped herself across her friend. "Please? You might actually enjoy yourself. And these are the moments we should be experiencing. When we leave Hogwarts it's going to be real life and we won't get to have these chances."

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She snorted, rolling her eyes and giving her friend a gentle shove. "There's nothing going on between James and I. We're friends. That's all." Though if she looked closely enough, there was a slight tinge of red on her cheeks at the mention of him. "I meant my tongue. I swear, the older we get the more insufferable comments I hear, and it's getting harder and harder to hold my tongue."

"Lily Evans - That's a terribly morbid question to ask and now I must know - What are your intentions with James Potter?" A grin. "Because it sounds like you want to eat him."

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Her eyes lifted to watch him, watching as he spoke and reaching up to wipe at the tears with the sweater she wore. There was a time when she knew what was going on in his head by just looking at him because of the crease in his brow or a slight frown on his lips. A wrinkle of his nose when he was thinking too hard about things. Things had changed drastically between the two of them -- she was too guarded. She'd found solace in the marauders, a home -- a family. Remus and Sirius were the only ones she could trust to keep an eye on Harry. Back in school, she never would have guessed that the two of them would be at such odds. That she would push him away -- because he used to be a sole source of comfort.

"I forgave you a long time ago for calling me a mudblood," she doesn't even wince when she says the word -- because it's just become a word to her, "James and I had just started talking about me sending you an owl -- to talk about stuff. Work through it." She swallowed back the quiver in her words at the mention of James, her chest aching at the reminder that he was gone. "I'm sorry. I just --" She'd been through so much -- her emotions everywhere. Her and Sirius bickered a lot more than they ever did -- and Harry was a hand full. She didn't even have the energy to be too angry with Severus or fight with him. There was too much. Her arms dropped to her stomach, falling quiet for a moment before she spoke again.

"Why?" Her voice was still quiet, her gaze remaining on the floor because she didn't really know what else to do. "Why did you join them? That's -- that's something I never understood. Calling me that name, I understood because of the people you were with. But I never thought you'd -- go that far." She looked over at him again, emerald eyes searching his face.

He had expected her to get angry at him. Shout. Yell. After all, she had every right to do so. Severus knew he had done wrong. But now he was trying to make up for everything. Even if Dumbledore had cleared his name saying he trusted him, Severus didn't expect others to do so easily. And it didn't bother him if they didn't. But with Lily-- there was no mistaking the sting of it. The Potions Master let her push him away before backing away and giving her some distance, suddenly feeling as if his mere presence was only making it worse.

This was all his fault. He had been the one to overhear the Prophecy. He was also the one who informed his old master of a boy who would lead to his downfall. The only thing he couldn't have anticipated out of this all was how between two boys to choose from that Lily Potter's son would be the chosen one. From that moment, nothing would ever be the same again---and neither was Severus.

With the Dark Lord gone, the Dark Mark on his arm had faded. It wasn't completely gone, but it wasn't as vibrant, violent or bold as it had once been. If anything, it was still a grim reminder of the role he had played-- and would eventually come to play when the Dark Lord returned (at least according to Dumbledore.) "I'm sorry." He didn't know what to say, so it was best to start with what he knew, using Occlumency to keep his emotions in check. "I don't expect you to ever forgive me, and I wouldn't blame you if you didn't, but I am sorry. I never wanted to hurt you."

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"How much of a tongue can I bite until we notice blood?"

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"lily evans. one of the brightest i ever taught. vivacious, you know. charming girl. i used to tell her she ought to have been in my house. very cheeky answers i used to get back, too." - horace slughorn

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This was different than the image that was painted in her mind when it came to James Potter. The James she knew was arrogant, selfish -- loud and obnoxious. She couldn't help but wonder how things changed -- why things changed. How he seemed to grow up over night. "You all are so close. I'm almost envious." Green eyes flick down to the ground as they walk. "Ever since Severus, I've never really got too close to anyone." Marlene and Mary were some of her closest friends, but even she kept them at a distance -- too scared to let anyone in too close.

A laugh rings out from her lips and she reaches over to give his arm a gentle smack, shaking her head. "There's that Potter charm. I've been wondering where it's been hiding," she teased, tucking her hair behind her ear before shoving her hands into the pocket of his jacket once more. "If you -- need help navigating the library, I know it relatively well. I've -- managed to get into the restricted section a couple of times," she stated, her tone quiet because that's probably the most rebellious thing she's done since starting at Hogwarts. Minus nights like tonight, where she was reluctantly pulled out and snuck out with her friends. Her lips pressed together slightly and she watches him for a moment, fidgeting with a loose string in his pocket as her dark green eyes watch him. She licked her lips and she shifts between her feet. "I -- don't really want to be alone, so if you're going to the kitchens, do you mind if I go with you?" she chews on the inside of her cheek, clearing her throat and shrugging, "Unless you have someone back at the party waiting for you. Then I don't -- want to keep you from that." Choosing to spend more time with Potter was new -- but she found herself wanting to know more...to just talk more with him.

"I'd be lost without them." James admitted, looking down at the ground as they walked. Vulnerability wasn't something that came easy to him - A lot of it tied back to his parents and the pressure that they put on their only son to be 'perfect'. He spent so much of his time trying to give off an appearance of strength and confidence that when it came to letting those barriers down it was more difficult than it should be. "They've kept me going through Hogwarts. They're like family to me. Merlin, Sirius practically is family - His room at my parent's house is bigger than mine. I'd swear they love him more than they love me." He laughed, hands shoving into his pockets.

"Well, I'd be very pleased to wake up and see you as my Healer. A smile from you could make me forget all of the pain." He couldn't resist, giving her a cheeky grin. He was only human and Lily Evans was beautiful - One little flirty comment wouldn't hurt. Should lifted into a half shrug. "I try. Some classes are more difficult than others but I've been putting the work in, I've se"en more of the library this year than I have the whole rest of my time in Hogwarts." He snorted out a laugh as they stepped into the Entrance Hall, making their way back to their shared common room. "I hadn't even thought of that, I might leave that career path in that case." James grinned, giving her a playful nudge as they started up the stairs. It was hard not to stare at her, hard to give her space when he'd spent his whole time at Hogwarts vying for her attention. He knew people thought he was ridiculous, knew that he had to move on but it was difficult. He was working on it. As they reached the door to their common room he came to a stop, giving her a smile. "Well - Here you are. I'll - I'll head back to the party, give you some space." Sirius had been trying his hardest to get James to put himself out there with one of the Ravenclaws who'd been trying to catch his eye. Maybe a couple more shots of Firewhiskey and he'd be up to it. "Do you need anything? I can run down to the kitchens and get you some food if you'd like?"

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She was used to the insults her sister threw her way -- she knew how much her sister hated her, but she still wanted to try. She still wanted to try and be her friend. She couldn't help it. Her family would never understand just how hard it was for her back at Hogwarts -- how much she had to prove herself to the people who hated her for just existing. It was nice coming home and not having that kind of judgement from her parents. Petunia was just as bad as the kids at school.

Lily set her jaw, her green gaze flicking down to the floor to hide the tears pooling in her eyes. "You call me and my friends freaks whenever you get the chance to. I don't know how many times I have to apologize for being the one that can do magic. It's not my fault. I didn't choose this." She missed the times where they would sit and play games, where Petunia was her best friend. There were so many times at school where she wanted to write to her, to just be able to talk to her about things -- boys, the bullies at school, what she did and her accomplishments. Most of her friends at school would never understand why it was so hard for her -- and her family never would either. "I'm trying to be normal and have a normal conversation with my sister, but you're too focused in on what you couldn't get to just -- listen !" She pulled her fingers through her hair and she wiped at her eyes with the sleeve on her other wrist.

Vile? Petunia couldn't help but scoff at that. How had she ever been vile to Lily? She didn't ask for her sister to become a witch and get shipped off to a school in Scotland that wouldn't even accept Petunia because she wasn't special like her sister. It also didn't help that that Snape boy had started it all, further driving in the point that Petunia was normal and would never be anything like her younger sister.

Talk about being unfair and vile. Petunia was stuck here in Cokeworth, trying to go about life while trying to cope with the fact she would always be the one in the shadows. She would always be...normal. Plain. Overlooked. Ignored. No one understood what it was like or the pain she went through. She loved her sister, but Petunia couldn't help but be sick with resentment anytime Lily shinned the way she did. So she clung onto the only thing she knew was good at-- being the normal one of the bunch. "How am I vile to you? I'm the only one in this family who clearly see's you for who you are, dear sister! While you are busy, attending your school of freaks, turning tea-cups into rats and what not, I'm doing useful things here like helping Mum around the house and applying for a job in the real world. You wouldn't know what it's like. Even if Mum and dad get to see me often, it's always about you, even when you're gone. Why can't you just be normal for once?"

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"What are we, twelve?" There's an incredulous sigh that falls past her lips as she rolls her eyes, her nose wrinkling. "Mum and Dad don't get to see me as often as they get to see you -- I have to go to Scotland for school. You get to spend more time with them than I do, so how on earth can I be their favourite?" She pushes her long auburn hair behind her ear, looking over at Petunia as her eyes flick over her for a moment. "If you weren't so vile to me all the time, then maybe they wouldn't be so hard on you."

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"Anyone would be lucky to be your friend, Sev. You just have to let them be your friend and see how amazing you really are." And she truly believes that -- even if he ends up spending more time with those friends over her, she wants to see him thrive. She wants him to make new friends and show everyone just how kind and wonderful he is. Lily's eyes follow him as he follows suit and lays down next to her. A wide smile grows on her lips and she quickly rolls over to give him a side hug -- the excitement clear in her expression. When she pulls away, she remains close to him -- her hands tugging her skirt down before resting on her stomach as she stares up at the clouds. "We'll figure out some kind of sleeping arrangement. If not, I'll just share a room with Tun--Petunia for a while." A sacrifice she's willing to make if it means her best friend will be there. She can't help but let out a laugh, looking over at him and giving his arm a gentle smack. "You've always enjoyed getting on her nerves, Sev. She's going to be insufferable enough. With you there, it'll make it better."

Her green eyes move along his face, taking him in for a moment -- because she has missed him. Her smile falters for a moment, a question poised at the tip of her tongue -- wanting to ask if everything is okay, if they're okay. Instead, she turns her attention back to the sky. She points up after a slight pause. "That one looks like a rubber duck." She turns her head to look at him with a smile, arching an eyebrow at him

He had to stop his eyes from going wide at this. Him? Severus Snape? Having a ton of friends and forgetting about his current and only one? Severus can't help but scoff at this one. "I can't handle dealing with anyone else. Besides...how could I ever forget you?" The Slytherin leaves it at that, already knowing he might be showing her a little more of his heart then he meant to. The smile fades from his face as his expression turns neutral again. Even if he would only show his vulnerable side with Lily, he still couldn't handle giving someone such power to begin with. He feared many things, and rejection, especially from Lily, was just one of them. Severus quietly watches as she lays back in the grass and watches the clouds before following suit. "If your parents are alright with it, then I suppose I could come with you. That is...if they are okay with me staying over at your place for the holiday?" He would usually stay at the school, trying to avoid his father at all costs, but if this was Lily's wish, he couldn't help but give her this. "I know it will enrage your sister. It should be fun."

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Lily's fingers clutched at her shirt as the tightness in her chest grew -- her breathing laboured and feeling like she couldn't breathe, like something was stealing the air from her lungs. She didn't even hear him come in -- she could barely process his hands on her and just found herself leaning into the comfort of someone near her. She took in a deep breath when instructed to do so -- listening to instructions again like she had when they were back at Hogwarts. Her hands reached to grip onto his arm, taking a few moments to gather herself before she realizes who's holding her. Despite how desperately she wanted to lean into the comfort, she pulled away, shoving his arms off of her and gripping onto her own arms as she shifted away from him.

"You weren't so concerned about our safety when joined them." She told herself that she had forgiven him -- for everything that happened at Hogwarts, that she didn't want to hold a grudge and that she missed her best friend. She had forgiven him, for calling her a mudblood. Hearing that he had joined them -- that he joined the people that despised her mere existence... was almost as bad as Pettigrew's betrayal. She swallowed, curling up on the floor against the wall -- her hands clutching onto her arms. "He's dead anyway, so it's fine. Everything will be fine." Despite her words, the frantic look in her eyes did nothing to hide just how anxious she was that it wasn't going to be fine. That something would happen and throw her whole world for a loop again. Green, bloodshot, eyes flick over to him -- going down to the arm where she knew the dark mark was located before up to his face. A face she used to find comfort in -- but she didn't know what to think of him anymore.

Her head falls back onto the wall, her legs dropping so her hands can rest on her lap as green eyes stare at the ceiling -- tears staining her cheeks. Her thumb fidgets with the ring that still remains on her left hand, the jewel in the center gone and lost in the rubble of their destroyed home. "He's barely a year old and they're already putting so much on his tiny little shoulders," her voice trembled and she shook her head, "It's not fair."

His eyes glanced to her every now and then, mostly trying to process the fact she was here among them, living and breathing and safe, but also trying to gauge how she would handle the information that would be coming from these meetings. It was already terrible enough that Severus had secretly agreed with Dumbledore to start his role as a double agent, listening in on meetings with the Dark Lord and his Death Eaters, acting as if he were on their side and then relaying the information back to Dumbledore for the Order's benefit. Everything Severus was doing now felt like a dance trying to avoid death. But for Lily to know her son's role in everything...he knew she wouldn't handle it well at all. How could she?

Severus quietly watched as she left the room, following her not long after. He tried to stay to the shadows, keeping a distance behind her since he wasn't sure how to would react to his presence. However, the moment he saw the state she was in, almost appearing to have a panic attack of sorts, or as if she were being attacked by an invisible dementor, Severus lightly placed his hands around her, trying to ground her and comfort her. "Lily...breathe. Just breathe." He said gently, letting her sink into him. "It's okay, you aren't alone. I know you're concerned about your son. I won't let anything happen to him...or you."

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She hated how people stared at her as if she were some kind of side show. It was her first outing -- one that Sirius and Remus said would be good for her, to go to this meeting with whoever was left of the order. She wasn't used to all of this attention -- especially after being in hiding for so long. She could handle the stares, but it was when they started talking about Harry being the chosen one -- The Boy Who Lived. She was thankful that Harry was with Remus and Sirius -- had they known what this meeting was going to be about? How the weight of the world was laying on her sons shoulders had he-who-must-not-be-named somehow returned.

Her chest felt tight, and she gripped onto her seat before standing up and quietly excusing herself. She moved into a separate room, hearing murmurs of the people around -- asking each other if she had a scar like her son, and asking how she was able to survive. She didn't know why she had been spared, tossed aside and knocked out rather than killed like her husband. The door slammed behind her as she entered. She leaned against the nearest wall and slowly sank down it, curling up on the floor. Her hand clutched onto her shirt on the center of her chest. She attempted to take in deep breaths to calm her rapidly beating heart and the tightness in her chest -- suddenly having million other things on her mind. The what ifs. How to protect Harry. How to let him have as normal of a life as he could.

And how she could do it alone.

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