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Do we think Brooklynn started chatting with her friends' ai bots on c.ai when she missed them

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AHSGHSH SO GOOD

New fic on my ao3 :)

Kudos to @emberphoenixisgoingtolive for coming up with Darius' moms name.

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What if the way we learn Brooklynn's last name is Darius telling her "Your light burns bright, Brooklynn *last name*"

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They're the same picture😞

Why does this guy always look like this "🥺"

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Brooklynn, updating her Ester Stone fanfic on ao3 after abandoning it for a year in the author's notes: hey guys, so sorry for the long wait on this chapter. long story short i was targeted by two different hitmen and almost died and lost my arm (typing's been a bit slower lol), and i was presumed dead for almost a year, cut off all my hair and dyed it blue, had lesbian sex for the first time, and i'm now dating my ex's brother. enjoy the chapter

ao3 readers: yep. classic ao3 author curse

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Ngl I was expecting Yaz or Ben but I love my cowgirl

jwct uquiz! Reblog wit what you got<3

https://uquiz.com/quiz/2LSycu/jwct-character-quiz-except-i-slander-you

@raptorladylover6969 I expect you get the secret answer.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Jurassic World: Chaos Theory (Cartoon) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Darius Bowman/Brooklynn Characters: Darius Bowman, Brooklynn (Jurassic Park) Additional Tags: Smut, Blow Jobs, Oral Sex, Outdoor Sex, Fluff and Smut Series: Part 4 of Dinostar Oneshots Summary:

One fine Saturday, Brooklynn realises that her boyfriend looks fine as hell while fixing his truck.

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If I had a nickel for everytime Kenji got attached to a blue baby dinosaur and became its dad, Id have two nickels, which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it's happened twice

AND YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE THERE TO SEE IT.

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DINOSTAR NATION

I'm working on some slightly spicy dinostar yearning.

set during the time Brook was living with Darius in his cabin. will probably post it tonight or tomorrow.

hehehehehhe😈

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Ok so I'm thinking of writing a Brokerlynn fanfic, but I have mixed feelings about it cuz the Nublar 5 are kind of assholes in the fic.

A lot of the things are same as CT, but the major difference is the whole Nublar 5 distrust Brooklynn. Every one of them kind of refuses to take her back. They still help her take Santos down, but that's just to keep the rest of the world safe from dinos and to take down BioSyn. After that, they kind of cut Brooklynn outta their lives, even after she apologises multiple times and even saves their lives.

After that, I've got this whole backstory planned for Brooklynn. Her bio parents try to reach out, and long story short, trying to avoid too many spoilers, Brooklynn ends up in prison. Ik it's so abrupt to write it like this, but it'll make sense in the fic I think😭

Anyways, she ends up in the same prison as Soyona. There's gonna be a lotta angst (if I can write it out properly). Especially with Dinostar- they'll realise they can never go back to how they were, and deal with the tragedy of how they could've ended up together if things were a tiny bit different. That neither of them were able to support the other through tough times. They probably won't fall out of love though- not even after Brooklynn gets with Soyona and Darius finds someone else. Ofc Brooklynn loves Soyona but she'll never truly move on from the man she fell madly in love with- the one she'd once follow anywhere. Same with Darius.

I'm not sure if I'm gonna write it because I'm a huge dinostar shipper so writing something where they don't end up together is weird for me. If I do write it, it'd probably be around April because I have back to back exams till March and I'll also need to watch s4.

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What Does That Make Me?

Warnings: ANGST ANGST ANGST. Slightly suggestive content, alcohol consumption

Brooklynn tossed and turned in bed, trying to chase the sleep she so desperately needed. She’d been awake until four am last night, drinking sinful amounts of coffee as she ravaged every crevice of the internet possible. Anything, she would do anything if it meant she could get her job done. Fuck her well-being, what has to be done has to be done. And she was willing to run herself into the ground to accomplish it. Tonight though, she had no reason to still be awake. She’d gotten enough work done, and had even taken the time to eat a good, maybe not so healthy, dinner with Ronnie. But she couldn’t sleep. Not when she saw him every time she closed her eyes. His sweet, warm brown eyes. His gorgeous and achingly handsome smile. His back bare under the sun as he worked on his truck, skin glowing, sweat dripping down his neck-” No! Stop, Brooklynn. She gave up on any hopes of finding rest, pulling herself out of bed and walking downstairs into the small kitchen. She caught a glimpse of herself in the reflection of the window. Her too big pajama shorts that were Ronnie’s in the 90’s, the worn out Calvin Klein bra that had a gaping hole in the side. She had circles under her once vibrant eyes. They were dull and tired now. She looked like absolute fucking shit. She groaned and went over to the liquor cabinet, pulling out a bottle of bourbon and pouring herself a short glass. Once she had secured her heart-ache medicine, she took a seat at the little kitchen table. Every sip of whiskey was an attempt to wash away the memory of him. Each sip only made the memories stronger. She kept drinking. She felt tears well in her eyes as she thought about how badly she missed having a warm body to sleep next to. She’d felt like this for a long while, waking up each morning and reaching for someone that wasn’t there. At first, she’d thought it was Kenji she was reaching for, thought it was Kenji who she missed so dearly, but no. It definitely wasn’t her ex boyfriend she missed. Not when she woke up most nights screaming for Darius, reaching for his solid body only to find he wasn’t beside her. She doesn’t even know how it started. Darius was never…hers. She closed her eyes and drank herself stupid as she recalled the night she had stayed up til 3am working, how she’d practically passed out when she’d attempted to stand up. She remembered Darius carrying her to his bed. He’d laid her down with such care, like she was the most precious thing on the planet. To Darius, maybe she was. He’d tucked her short hair behind her ear before standing to go to the couch. She shuddered as she remembered how she’d reached out and grabbed his arm, stopping him from leaving. She’d asked him to stay, tiredly, deliriously. And he had. He’d crawled right into the bed beside her and held her to him, her head tucked into his chest. She didn’t miss the kiss on the head he’d given her right before she’d drifted off. It was the best sleep she’d had in months. 

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Brooklynn had continued to drown herself in liquor. Her mind waging a war on her heart and soul with all the memories it was conjuring up for her. She could distantly feel tears streaming down her face, could almost connect to her body enough to feel the way her chest shuddered as she shook with the force of her sobs. Why does she feel like she’s going to lose her mind if she can’t be in Darius’ arms? Isn’t that how she should be feeling about Kenji? Her mind was racing, whispering evil things to her, “Unloyal bitch”, it spat, “How could you feel this way? Six years with Kenji and you’re stuck on a man who you’ve never even kissed. Pathetic.” Brooklynn downed the rest of her glass, desperate to make her mind stop tormenting her. She was lost in the depths of her own mind, and didn’t even notice that Ronnie had entered the kitchen. She jumped when she felt a hand on her shoulder, taking a breath of relief when she saw that it was only Ronnie. The older woman was frowning, looking at her in a maternal, caring, stupid, pitiful way that made Brooklynn want to crawl into a crack in the wall. Ronnie’s voice was soft as she said, “Brooklynn, honey, what are you doing?” Brooklynn let out a laugh that honestly might have been a sob, “I…I don’t fuckin know.” Ronnie sighed, kneeling down and pushing the bottle of bourbon away from Brooklynn’s reach. That was probably for the best. Brooklynn leaned into Ronnie’s touch as the older woman wiped the tears from her cheeks. She cringed when she saw that Ronnie’s fingers were now covered in mascara, but the older woman simply wiped her hand on her pants and pulled Brooklynn up, practically carrying her intoxicated form to the couch. She laid Brooklynn down and wrapped her in a knitted blanket. Ronnie was about to turn out the lamp when Brooklynn grabbed her with her right arm. Ronnie paused, “Yes?” Brooklynn sighed, “Ronnie, am I a terrible person?” The DPW agent frowned, “Honey, why would you ever think that?” Tears began to run down Brooklynn’s face again, “Because…” She let out a shuddering sob, “I miss Darius more than I miss Kenji. I think…I think I’m in love with him. I think I have been for a long time, I-” she paused, pushing her head further into the pillow to catch her tears before continuing, “I think if I could go back, and do those few weeks at his cabin over again, I would’ve done bad things. I want to go back so I can do those things. I would tell him I love him too, I would kiss him I-” She let out a broken laugh, “I would probably pull him onto that bed an ungodly amount of times.” She rolled onto her back, a stray tear rolling down her face and dropping onto the scratchy pillow beneath her, “What does that make me?” Ronnie bent down and kissed the young woman's forehead, “It makes you a woman in love, sweetheart. That’s what it makes you, and there’s nothing wrong with that.” 

GONNA POST THIS ON A03 TOO IM JUST SO USED TO POSTING ON TUMBLR IT FEELS WRONG NOT TO

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Hot Girl Summer feat. Dinostar crumbs

@amanderr_art (IG,Twitter) and I teamed up for the Yasammy Summer Week 3: "Beach Day" and I just love how it turned out.

She worked on the background and Sammy, I provided Yaz, Darius and Brooklynn.

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Was rewatching ct and Brooklynn just stepped into Kenji's trailer and oml he fumbled so bad

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I cannot wait that long guys

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Brooklynn as a mom headcanons

(this is long ASF)

She never thought she wanted kids. When she was in her early teens she didn't want to do anything that would prevent her from staying in the spotlight. When she was in her mid to late teens, she just simply had no desire to be a mom. She always felt very protective over children, and loved kids, but just didn't want to be a parent herself. Once she and Kenji got serious, it actually caused quite a few disagreements between them.

When she got with Darius, she was still like 80% sure she didn't want kids, but would sometimes daydream about having babies with Darius and would be really confused. He'd be sitting across from her at the breakfast table with that handsome smile and those gorgeous brown eyes, his hair still messy from the night before and she'd be like "I want to have his babies so ba-" "WAIT TF AM I THINKING?"

Brooklynn starts up a non-governmental, private organization that focuses on humanitarian aid and dabbles in issues relates to dino conservation. But that's not their main thing. It's mainly focused on social issues. She opens a couple shelters with the help of her organization, Darius, and Ronnie. She goes and helps out in the kitchens, cleans, and just sits with the residents. She wants to be there for them. (When she's not busy with other stuff. She's a busy woman.)

At one of the shelters, she meets a girl named Mikayla and her 5 months old baby Tucker. Mikayla's only 15 and had been kicked out by her parent's when she got pregnant. She finds comfort in Brooklynn and they actually become really freakin close. Brooklynn and Darius help Mikayla start her high school career again, and they take care of the baby a couple times a week. Brooklynn is wrapped around both of their fingers. She realizes she actually wants a child. Mikayla and her son brought so much joy into Brooks life, and they aren't even hers.

Darius also melts when he sees Brooklynn doing Mikayla's makeup or rocking Tucker to sleep. He'd never bring it up to her, because he would hate for her to feel pressured or like he expects anything from her. When she tells him she wants kids while they're cuddling in bed one night he literally jumps out of the sheets and is like "REALLY!? FOR REAL?!"

They wait a few years, but when they finally start trying Brooklynn ends up pregnant in no time.

She gets really bad morning sickness the first two months. Darius stops working in the office for awhile so he can take care of his wife.

She didn't tell the camp fam for a few months, but yasammy found out by the fifth week because the girls were out to dinner together and Brooklynn didn't order a drink. When they asked her about it she was like "how the hell did you know?!" and Yaz said "You didn't order a drink. I've never seen you turn down alcohol in your life."

After the morning sickness stops, Brooklynn's the most radiant and happy lil pregnant lady you've ever seen. She flaunts her bump. It's very rare that you see her without a crop top on so her bumps on full display.

She and Darius told the camp fam the gender by sending a picture of Brooklynn on the ultrasound table with a message that said "We've got a little mini Brooklynn in the making"

Brooklynn had to have an emergency c - section. Darius was on the verge of a panic attack when the doctor told them. He had tears running down his face because everyone was rushing around the room and preparing Brooklynn for surgery without answering questions. He didn't get answers until he shouted "IS MY WIFE GOING TO BE OK?!"

Everything ended up being fine. Darius was holding Brooklynn's hand the whole time and didn't take his eyes off of her. He didn't care about anything but his wife. Brooklynn sang to herself to keep herself calm.

When Brooklynn held that baby for the first time she sobbed. Darius was barely able to even see his wife and daughter he was crying so hard.

As soon as she held that little girl, she knew she would never love anyone like she loves her daughter.

Brooklynn took a five month maternity leave, and then started working again. Darius took a year long paternity leave.

She loved the baby stage. She never got over the chubby cheeks and sweet little babbled words and endless cuddles.

She swore she wouldn't co - sleep, but by the third night she and Darius were home from the hospital that little girl was sleeping next to her mama in the king sized bed. Brooklynn cried when Darius told her it was time the baby start sleeping in her crib.

(Brooklynn always let her little girl have sleepovers with mom and dad once a week. She eventually grew out of it, but would still have sleepovers with Brooklynn no matter how old she got)

The kids a #mamas girl. She loves Darius and Brook equally, there's just a special bond between her and her mom.

Brook hated the toddler years. Her daughter is just too much like her and so naturally the toddler stage involved constant screaming and running down the street and throwing food in peoples faces. The amount of times dinostars neighbors woke up to Darius and Brooklynn barely dressed at seven in the morning chasing a three year old down the road is insane.

The kid years (5 - 10) were Brooks third fav. They were amazing, and she loved playing dress up and pirates, but they just couldn't beat her top two favs (baby and teen years)

THE TEEN YEARS ARE BROOKLYNNS FAV. Yes I know teen years are usually everyone's least fav, and people look at Brooklynn like she's crazy when she says this, but it's true. She loves gossip sessions with her daughter, helping her daughter get ready for dates and prom, being the #cool mom to her kids friends, blasting music in the car with her kid, etc.

Brooklynn actually has a really hard time making mom friends. Yaz, Sammy, and Gia are really the only mom friends she has. All the moms at her daughters school give Brooklynn dirty looks and are really horrible to her. They don't think she fits the "mom stereotype". She doesn't wear cardigans and long modest skirts, she wears crop tops and ripped jeans. She's got tattoos and her hair is purple, the moms couldn't possibly associate with her. She doesn't go to PTA meetings because of work, so surely she is an absent mother. And that one time she came to school drop off in sweat pants and a torn t - shirt with no makeup?! It would be social death to invite her to margarita night. Not to mention the "Lindsay, let me tell you. My husband dropped James off at school yesterday, and came home raving about 'that hot mom that drives the truck'. I mean, she might as well not even be married with the way she dresses!" "I bet the kid isn't even her husband's."

It hurts Brooklynn a lot at first, but she's not willing to change for anyone. Why should she? Besides, she's got her husband, her baby, camp fam, and a couple cool single friends who are all her daughters hot single aunts and uncles.

(BTW - there is nothing wrong with choosing to be child free. I just headcanon that Brooklynn went from not wanting children, to eventually changing her mind. Which lowkey I can relate to. I used to not want kids, but now I want to be a mom more than anything, and there's also nothing wrong with that)

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Imagine, if you will:

Brooklynn keeping her investigative side secret from Kenji (her boyfriend) and Sammy (her best friend) for months. Then, she goes to Darius (her Secret, Third Thing), and she almost immediately pulls him in to aid with her scheme.

She would have to explain everything to him. Illicitly-acquired money. Schemes with anonymous people online. Exposing his organization as a front for trafficking dinosaurs. But she was ready to explain it.

She was probably scared, and anxious...but she was also hopeful, because finally, finally, she could come clean about it all. Months of secrecy, and she would finally be able to explain why she was shunning her friends.

And then he didn't show up.

And she was almost killed.

And then she had to go a whole year without telling them any of this. So close to finally getting this guilt off her chest, and she just had to move on to Level Two.

She was suffering.

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Happy Pride Month everyone🌈!!

As a bi teen living in a not so accepting country, my family, teachers, classmates and most of my friends are pretty homophobic, so coming out without a proper source of income, or some kind of support is out of the question lol. Even on the internet, there's so much bi phobia these days.

Just wanna say, to everyone who is struggling with their sexuality, or forced to stay closeted due to their surroundings, or not accepted by their loved ones- No one can really promise it'll get better, and ik that sucks, but you're not alone. There are countless people who are on the same boat.

Whether you are trans, non binary, bi, gay or anything else, you are still loved and accepted. Don't let anyone tell you how to live and who to love.