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Do you know where I live? I still live in the words, "now that the competition is out of the way." I still live in the fact that it was brought to question whether Buck is in love with Eddie. I suppose, though, TPTB (the powers that be) could find a way to retcon entire storylines. Most shows do, most shows have. Yeah, I feel a bit meh right now, but might feel differently after I catch up with the rest of season 8.

Anyway, here's hoping there is follow through.

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the most poignant part of the fight was what came after it. when it was happening, eddie lashed out, and buck was passive aggressive. but after, buck thought eddie had gone back to texas without saying goodbye, and the most he could mutter was a 'jerk' as he threw the note. and when he came home, eddie didn't want to rehash any of it aside his own part. they bickered lovingly for a moment before eddie said 'heard some dick was being mean to you.' that was it. their foundation is so strong, the most they could do is be petty at each other for a day before they both let it go.

that's why no other relationship will ever work for them. because eddie worries about buck in a way no one else does. because buck gets eddie to open up in a way that no one else in the world can. they understand each other in such a soulbond way... it wouldn't be fair to bring someone new in. neither of them could ever prioritize someone else above each other for as long as their friendship looks like this. no matter what is happening in the world, they always feel safe to let out the ugly emotions in each other's presence.

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The fight starting over groceries and quickly spinning out to what they really needed to talk about – grief and loss and how neither of them are handling it well was so good I can't stop thinking about it. Because they weren't talking about their grief with each other!

Buck was using a psychological assessment to ‘measure’ everyone’s grief instead of just ASKING HOW THEY ARE. He wasn't talking to them about how he's feeling alone and lost. He saw grief like it's a thing you can quantify and measure.

So the fight started over who was supposed to get the groceries and quickly moved on to Eddie getting the job offer in El Paso and him letting Buck find out from someone else (even if he was going to tell him, he put it off for so long that Buck found out from Ravi).

Buck making that about him ("did you not think I'd be happy for you").

Eddie throwing how Buck is grieving back in his face ("making it all about you again").

Buck being extremely passive aggressive and saying "sorry I'm sad Bobby's dead".

Eddie snapping at Buck about how they all lost Bobby and how Buck never asked what it was like for Eddie to find out about Bobby while he was 800 miles away.

Eddie letting his grief bottle up because he felt guilty for not being there and because he hadn't talked to Bobby in a couple of weeks.

Not having a resolution at the end of the scene and letting Buck (and the audience) think Eddie left without clearing the air or saying goodbye.

That kitchen fight scene was so masterful because it took all of the things they weren't talking about and put them on the table.

And then to have Buck walk into the house thinking he'll be spending the night alone with his sadness only to have Eddie still there, to have Eddie call himself a dick, to have Chris there, to have Pepa there cooking them a family dinner.

The resolution was never going to be some perfunctory apology because that's not who they are (and that's boring TV). There's a reason we never saw Buck apologize to Eddie about the basketball game and it's because the writers are assuming we're smart enough to know all is forgiven. Having Eddie's apology be with actions, not words is so fitting for his character and for their relationship.

Having that apology be Chris is even more important. This isn't Eddie driving across town with Chris to cheer Buck up, it's Eddie getting Chris there on a last minute flight because he knows seeing Chris will help Buck (will help all of them, really). He knows Buck is feeling alone in his grief and like he's losing his family so Eddie made sure to show Buck he isn't alone and that his family is right here with him.

I love when a show lets the characters be flawed and messy and makes resolutions fit the characters. Really great work from 911 on this one.

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Season 4, Episode 8 | Season 8, Episode 17

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8x09 / 8x17

for anon who wanted this gifed

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«at this point, we've moved on from them just being in a relationship to them being co-parents in the midst of a bitter divorce. this is my marriage story»

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"Now that the competition is out of the way"

I am going to yet again say that I have not fully caught up, so what I know of is spoilers and this post technically has nothing to do with the last two episodes…anyway, I am still hung up on "now that the competition is out of the way." Sure, Buck, could end up having grief sex with Tommy, but I'm honestly baffled at how there is any logic in pursuing a relationship again?? I am really trying, but I cannot come up with anything that makes sense. From a storytelling POV we have brought in the question, "in love with Eddie?" Are you? I mean that wouldn't be so bad…" or whatever Maddie had said. Why bring this up? Hell, I'd rather accept unrequited love on Buck's part as he pines after his straight best friend over Buck and Tommy pursuing a relationship again. What I mean to say, I think the episode in which Tommy came back and said the shit he said in Eddie's house- well that ruined my view on BuckTommy. We have a man who decided to instantly break up and say "I was the first, but not your last…" and now in the context of the information we've got, a lot of that stems from him thinking Eddie is competition. This also lends to an interpretation that Tommy has and that is not trusting in his partner?? So you see signs that maybe just maybe this little new bisexual has feelings for his best friend, but you cannot hold that over someone's head in a relationship even jokingly (you simply end it as that did happen, but then when you see them again you joke, but also get a little seriously huffy about it…) If I'm Buck waking up from a fun time with an ex, who I might consider trying again with, and so I ask, then he says the shit he does about me and my best friend I'd be like, well, that answers that.

Tommy would still feel insecure about our relationship for whatever reasons he has inside his head. I get it, I am now in the house he used to rent, sure there can be logical leaps, but at the end of the day all of what has been said by Tommy really just paints the picture of someone who has been insecure in this relationship the whole time and would still be even if they tried again. So on the other side of this, I can argue a deep deep denial on Buck's part…but right now I'm focused on why BuckTommy should not happen again.

What I would like to see when we come back, is Buck vehemently denying any attention from Tommy and for Buck to realize who he wants in this stage of immense grief: Eddie. He wants Eddie to comfort him. He wants his sister. I just want Buck to say it out loud, "I don't want your comfort. I get you're here in solidarity as a firefighter. Fine." Then he continues about his day, paying no attention to Tommy (and Eddie is also paying no attention to Tommy). Yeah okay, Bobby once said, "Tommy is good people." Yes, that could be true but simultaneously he said some shady shit, made assumptions and remained insecure about dating Buck. Personally, I could care less about Tommy's past with Abby, that wouldn't stop me if I wanted a relationship with the man, but what would stop me is all of the shit he has said since we broke up and saw each other again. Also, reminder that Eddie apparently full on ghosted Tommy after he broke it off with Buck, so there is that in Tommy's head too. After all, though, a few drinks and your ex is so damn hot…yeah, we're going to sleep together tonight. Feeling lonely and seeing an ex then also sleeping with ex is also something that can exist. I believe things can exist simultaneously, without cancelling out the other thing (but some things can CANCEL out the other thing). Buck and Tommy felt lonely. They know each other. There's still attraction so that shit happens.

Logically, I can wrap my mind around that, but it is the shit that was said the next morning and how that WOULD CANCEL OUT ANY CHANCE OF A REKINDLED ROMANCE.

For me, "Now, that the competition is out of the way," just puts the brakes on BuckTommy. It also distresses me to think you wasted so much time telling a story of them dating, for them to then break up, and then you send Eddie Texas (for valid reasons), but still you send that character to Texas while also putting Buck into the house Eddie once rented and then Tommy comes back and says the shit he says and out of that I'm supposed to believe a BuckTommy relationship could flourish?

It would be wasted story telling when you could have just kept them happily together and not overshadowed Eddie in the BuckTommy relationship. If Tommy is constantly thinking he will lose out to Eddie, then that is being insecure in the relationship. Also, Buck as we've seen would still remain in constant contact with Eddie, so what then? Tommy starts to resent the FaceTime calls, and starts to ask him to speak to Eddie less? You see how the show has from Tommy's POV made Eddie the problem competition?

Therefore, it would just be shitty of either Buck or Tommy to consider getting back together, now especially in the after math of a major character alleged death.

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Evan Buckley and Eddie Diaz in 6x13 "Mixed Feelings"

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Disclaimer: At the start of it all, I wasn’t against Buck dating Tommy. Though, I never bet on it lasting, it was good to see Buck going for it as part of holy shit I do like men. It’s just, the show then has them break up, has everything in between with Eddie leaving, then has the fuck it I’m kinda drunk, you’re drunk…now that the competition is out of the way…and thus I firmly believe when a plot device plot devices it must mean something. That then leads me to ask:

Would it be crass of me? To say how funny it’d be, that if Tommy were to drop in again, it isn’t for Buck. It isn’t to check on Buck. It isn’t for some reason to reach out and repair a relationship. It is purely for “selfish” reasons as in, “I’m here for Chim because of him saving my life blah blah and because I used to be in the 118. Here out of solidarity as a former firefighter in this house.” So really what I’m saying is, Tommy wouldn’t reappear again in any capacity to rekindle a relationship with Buck. It’d be just as a former colleague in deference towards what happened between him and Chim. Buck and he maintain cordial interactions because you know that’s the mature thing to do, but I refuse to believe any actual rekindling of a relationship is happening. In fact, logically, it’d make no sense to accept diving back into trying again, when Tommy has said the words, “Now that the competition is out of the way…”

To me that’d break any kind of try again because that means you aka Tommy spent the whole time assuming he was some sort of one off and Buck was not taking anything seriously (Tommy was the experimental stage; his first you know not the last). There is no way the context is not built around the assumption that Tommy assumed the best friend was competition the entirety of them dating. Therefore, how would he be as the relationship progresses? Especially since Buck will not and would not even consider entirely etching Eddie out of his life. I am making this rant sort of out pocket and from only seeing spoilers. Haven’t fully caught up.

Judging from some Tommy reappearing theories (during the contagion emergencies)-my logical conclusion is that he’d be returning solely due to his past with Chim and having been part of the 118 before. I’m thinking that if what happens, happens then Buck actually might be so removed from the present moment that he cannot even cope being around anyone let alone attempt some weird grief “rekindling” with an ex. In fact, it’d speak volumes for Tommy to be there and he and Buck have minimal interactions plus if what the leaks show-then it’d be more icing on the cake if Eddie were also there to have minimal interactions with Tommy. Eddie actively stepping in and simply standing beside Buck who is ripped at the seams, but holds it together. I can give logical leeway to Tommy reappearing because of his past with the 118, but if the show tries to tell me he is magically showing up for Buck then well damn, the show certainly threw me a curve ball and it hit me squarely in the face.

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I love the fact that Buck just assumes everything.

Like... Tommy didn't say he was talking about Eddie. He didn't even gave Buck a hint who he was talking about.

And nobody said he's in love with Eddie. Nobody even said that he liked him. Nobody suggested that big boy, it's all you.

God... I love freudian slip...

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8.11 + buddie text posts

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this whole thing between us // what me and Eddie have

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"Eddie is the yin to his (Buck's) yang." - Tim Minear 9-1-1

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He will. You were struck by the same lightning, you'll forever share a heartbeat.

inspired by @odetteinherhead's post

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(I THINK THAT MUCH IS OBVIOUS.)