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As I.

As I wake up I notice the floating specks in my eyes, and my vision wearing down, but my ears still work just fine, As I notice my senses getting jealous of one another I realize my life is just the same, people necessary for my life are just people and you can find a new one to appreciate however these senses come few and far between. You cannot find a new love as easily as a new outlook and you cant find a new friend like you can find a new band to listen to..its weird being in control of it all and at the same time losing feeling in my hands for no apparent reason, I guess this is what it is to turn almost thirty, almost there. maybe when I hit the big 3 0 Ill learn to live a little better

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If I had a mantra, background music , DAILY

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gloom days could be good, make it so,

I woke up, lower back pain caffeine supplies low, no coffee in sight- Ones a quick fix and the other is a nuisance who’s pain will keep you on your toes, it could also make you feel like time is going to fast, My back defines my age I’d say because once that goes the rest of everything shits the bed.. kinda funny how that works, the caffeine headaches however speed things up how you’d like but when you realize where the times gone you’re head starts to ache..each one go hand in hand, but my coffees got a secret lover, 20 class a tickets to death neatly packaged in a very appealing fashion, savings printed on everything I buy even things I don’t need- a full bodied flavor of dirt at 12.99 a bag and a souls sucking 10 dollars for 7 minutes off my life.. But vices hold things together right? It seems to me that I need these things and to be quite fucking honest they make me happy, Ironic how If I were to be someones vice I’d have no choice but to quite mine, No use having a tool that doesn’t work to its full potential. Ill step it up soon enough, but for today Im gonna make a gloom day good again.

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late night, moon staring weirdo hours.

so vast it seems to be, the darker parts of the sky we look up to each day, It seems like there’s less during the day, In most cases the dark provides you with compromised vision, when you look out there though..that’s the stuff,  you see stars- you see that there is something there in front of you and you could make out what it is, thats a star, thats a planet etc- but trying to find what you’re looking for in the dark of your room all the lights off is impossible, your phone, aspirin, the lamp chain, the significant other- lacking, I wish for a life to sleep under the stars not to be bothered by the harshness of nature, I cant, the elements and time are against me, out there is still somewhat pure as far as we are concerned untouched by unintelligent hands, we are insignificant,we are old news we are known, We are out of the loop like the we are’t tuned in and we are predictable,we are humans and behavior is our downfall  .

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I know when you’re happy because you look to your shoes , I know how your brain works because we share that too, I know when you’re nervous because you laugh until it hurts but more importantly I know, that you don’t want to go there you dont want to go back to queens, you don’t want to come home to me, I know  and everyone just stands there talking in circles around me, but when our eyes finally meet, I know.

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Review

So I’ve decided to start a music review thing on my page, I plan on soon updating my tumblr to have a link to my instagram, I simpy screen shot music I’ve been digging lately new artists and whatnot. For my first review, I have selected the new Iron Chic album “You cant stay here”, this third record release brings to the table some new sounds the band has been working on, Each record is home to the catchiest melodies about forlorn living inside our modern pre post apocalyptic way of life that is essentially mainly listened to middle class Long Islanders, I’ve followed the singers career in music from bands like Splurge , the Devil Himself, and small arms dealer, side acts like Wax phantom fit into this list of previous work of singer Jason Lubrano. The other members are formerly part of various long island punk and hardcore acts such as Latterman, Capital , and the aforementioned bands featuring lead singer Jason Lubrano, They derive their sound from 90s pop punk with a garage edginess that has the appeal and warmth of your favorite hole in the wall restaurant. They are a secret nest egg of amazing sounds right from Holbrook and Huntington NY reigning from suffolk county, Please check them out! you will thoroughly enjoy

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thought I knew who...?

Its rough, knowing you helped destroy something, whether it be a piece of  property, a relationship a home, and not all the time is this your doing, These things dont change overnight, neither do people, including myself, my landlord etc.. The stress of it all is kind of overwhelming, I wish they had insurance for that kind of stuff, for life and not the health aspect of it but the mental stress aspect of it, I suppose they do with therapy and whatnot but hey, it gets the job done somewhat, There are some days that stick out like a sore thumb ya know? they stick in your mind like a splinter, You cant get it out as easily as you’d like to and you know if you leave it as is then itll infect and spread..Like my rotting teethe Ill let it wait out, So Im sharing my own therapy with you- what I listen to musicwise, what Im writing and such, just to let you know Im feeling what you are feeling and I’ve been there, theres a kid out there that needs  someone who went through it too, and I fully intend to be that person for whomever needs it..

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The state of things.

I had recently gotten over a bad situation with this person whom I thought was a good fit for me, Same sense of humor, same music taste, loved to read, all around a fantastic person..I had recently started therapy because It was suggested by said person. Its actually helping, if only she knew that she changed my life for the better, even though we were both in indecent states of our lives this certain situation had made me realize that I needed a change and that my future relationships would suffer had I not made that step. I have no anger or animosity towards her, she taught me things I never thought I could have learned from someone and even though she wishes to not in my life, If she by some chance is reading this I need you to know that you were one of my best friends even though we only knew each other for a short time, I appreciate everything you’ve done for me and I hope you get better too, I still got love for you, just not in it like I used to be.