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bumbles-writes · 6 months ago

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oh chat it is so over

#suicidal tendencies save me #save me #that moment when youre 19 and anything youve ever known is crumbling in front of your own two eyes #oh chat…#im not making it out am i

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bumbles-writes · 7 months ago

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it’s weird

to choke on my own breath

someone’s hand is around my neck

its been disfigured by harsh red scribbles all over

it stunts me

i don’t even know who it is

#i hate feeling like i’m regressing

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bumbles-writes · 7 months ago

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desperation

12/6/24

i claw at my legs and my body and my face

i wail and i wail and i wail

i stifle it all

i try to

im desperate to protect you from me

from all the harsh words i use

from all the violence i have

from all the bad luck im plagued with

and i hurt you regardless

my blood splatters

my claws scratch strays- whatever is there

my words reach your ears

there is no escape

i stare at your figure as you lose your blood

and i lose mine (though literally)

i ache

i grab at you yet pull away

and more and more youre hurt

and i dont know what to do

i dont know who to be

i dont know how to live

#i struggle so much to be good and do good #and i hurt those closest to me #and it aches like nothing else #it tears me open and unveils my mom’s words #theyre naked in the light and glare into my eyes #they surround me and im left with nothing else and it’s suffocating and i cant breathe at all #im left choking on nothing as i ruin what i love most

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bumbles-writes · 7 months ago

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solitude

11/26/24

my figure shrimp-like

i curl in: there is warmth in compression

my hands tremble

fingers fragile to the touch

they shatter

my breath pounds

it makes my body ache

there is never enough air

my stomach wails and my eyes weep and my mouth wavers

#im not good with change #especially with relationships close to me #any significant changes have always led me to have the biggest reactions #i think it’s because it feels like my greatest fears are coming alive #rn im going through what feels like a big change with my alleged best friend in college #it’s hard because im told i need to find other friends now #and idk if that’s true or if i’m the one that’s being dramatic #it’s hard. im not sure what ill do #i feel weak rn

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bumbles-writes · 7 months ago

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my sailor

(11/10/24)

your words, a ship

it wades through crashing waves

and the thunder of my thoughts invades

but the wood is strong,

the sails reinforced,

the sailor determined.

i continue my wrath, unforgiving

but you reach and graze the water

you wait through the storm

———

and you’re left with me,

wisps of clouds once filled

———

the sun peeks through

meekly,

as if to apologize

and you stand up and embrace it

brave sailor,

how i admire you whole

#this is on my wifey sticking by my side despite any efforts to isolate myself #ive been going thru it this year #theyve been amazing to me through it all #i truly admire them #they’ve also said im like the sun so that analogy pops in a little #bee writes #piece of the day

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bumbles-writes · 7 months ago

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hi! im bee :) i’ll be posting my writing (loosely considered poems..) i admire them a lot, they’ve mostly stemmed from how much i admire my gf (aka wifey <3) but i do have some that are vents/generic too! be respectful, thx :)

#bee writes #trying out smthg new !

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