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fifth post!!

came home for the weekend again and i'm starting to realize that i am definitely a 40 year old woman in a 20 year old girl's body. i much prefer being with my family and my boyfriend and my five close friends than going out and meeting new people. it's not that i Dislike doing the latter i just wouldn't choose to do it if i have a choice.

had a little bit of a sad realization that the group i hung out with twice is sort of ignoring me a bit which is kinda mean but also we weren't friends so i'm assuming we just didn't click from their point of view. i had a lovely time tho! that's all that matters!

i'm going to ask my parents if i can do a spring break trip this year and i'm hoping they say yes! i will be upset if that doesn't turn out to be the case but i understand. more chances to travel in the future!

my weekend was lovely, i really like my classes, and i think i'm doing a slightly better job at defending myself from my roommates bullying! i'm improving bit by bit every single day and i can't wait to look back on this moment and see how much i've grown.

here are some pics from this weekend. didn't take many but i have a few!

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fourth post!!

today was a pretty good day! i only had a few lectures and ate yummy food and went to the mall to just walk around a bit. the views were very pretty and all the people i interacted with were very nice today! also i loved my makeup and outfit!

the only thumb down i will say would be how lonely i felt without my boyfriend being there with me. im slowly realizing that he's becoming my only friend outside of my high school friend group and i really dont mind until i remember everything my family has told me in the past about me being antisocial. i wish they never did that. i wish they let me be the way i am because their comments didn't actually change anything. i still only talk to my high school friend group and my boyfriend. i still only hang out with Them. im still only excited and happy to see Them. now i just feel guilty for it.

im really excited for my late 20s and my 30s. i think that by then my lifestyle will be considered more acceptable. im very much looking forward to not getting judged!

on the bright side i talked to my boyfriend a whole bunch today! i really love him and i love hearing his voice and his opinions and his laugh! i love that i am constantly learning something new about him. sometimes its good sometimes not so much but we all grow and change.

regardless of what my family thinks, i am really thankful that i have those five people i can talk to anytime, anywhere. im really happy that i have someone i can trust. im really glad i have someone that i Know Genuinely likes me.

for todays photos, its kinda all over the place as i didnt pay too much attention to capturing a few moments of my day.

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third post!!!

i forgot that i never made it a goal to post on here Every Day! almost got sad when i realized i accidentally skipped a day but! i realized.

anyway.. came back home for the weekend and had a lovely time! i love home i love my hometown its so wonderful here!

some news.. i really like my classes! also! i switched up the furniture layout in my room and it is so nice now im. kinda excited to go back! im not excited about homework but it should be okay methinks.

some goals for this week are to finish my homework early, do laundry, find a power cord for my monitor, ask this question that i've been too scared to ask, and plan an event for my org. a lot of goals for one week but who knows! i think it will be quite fun :3

here are some pics from the past two days

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second post!! im already better at this than i was on my last few accounts.

today was a lovely lovely day! i got lots of sleep, went to a basketball game where i saw my two favorite teams play, went through the syllabus of every class i have and found out i have wonderful professors, and found out hello kitty island adventure is coming to the switch and steam on january 30th!! what a lovely day!

going back to college soon which is kind of a bummer since i dont have many friends there and am in an uncomfy roommate situation but! its okay! i have laundry to do and classes to go to practically all day so i will be busy enough to where i wont have Too Much time to worry about being lonely.

i am worried about how i will feel this semester, but there are many things to be excited about so i will do my best to focus on those instead! i have people that love me and im not completely alone! i have time to make new friends and explore new places!

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first post!! this is my.. probably third or fourth time making a tumblr. i give up bc i feel like i have to be all artsy fartsy with it, but not anymore.

i have a hard time feeling like i belong in just about any setting, and i want to change that. i think the first step is to be more comfortable with myself. not just accept who i am but also start to enjoy who i am too!

decided to create an outlet away from any other platforms and people that know me, just to have a space where i can say whatever, no matter how sad or corny it gets. i hate feeling pathetic for saying certain things, so hopefully this will get rid of that.

anyway... for my first post i decided to show the hummels i found in an antique mall. i got the urge to look for them about 10 minutes into my visit, for no apparent reason other than just remembering that they're sort of a south park reference. made me quite happy!