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I cant tell how much it hurt's to be alone all the time, it's more the feeling of being alone honestly. I like being alone but the feeling is horrible. I can't talk my mind can't even tell tell the happy things. Sometimes I feel like i'm being trapped but its my own fault like I digged my own hole and i'm sitting in it and I can't seem to come out. I never open up to someone, I never believe it if someone likes me the idea is ridiculous why would someone like me? So it is my own fault for being alone. But why does it bother me then? I don't know.

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I startet to feel comfortable around you. Startet to tell you all my worries, thoughts and happiness but now you're leaving. I really thought I found a friend a really good friend but no. You said it won't happen again you wouldn't ditch me again because of someone else but here we are. I miss our movie nights or the spending the whole night gaming and laughing at our own stupid jokes. I miss sending each other fanfictions to talk about them later. I miss the stupid flirting and pissing our friend off with it. I miss how we thought the same. I only knew you half a year but it felt like we know each other for years. You were the first girl in years that I shared my trauma and sadness with. I showed you my scars, I let you into my head I opened up for the first time but here we are and you are kinda gone. I wish it would've lasted longer but I know I'm difficult and a burden so I don't take it personally.

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How can I not think about him? How he looked with his strong tanned arms and that stupid smile. How his gear looked on him, how it fitted so well. The way he always looked over to me and smiled. The way we just grinned at each other and were awkward like stupid teenager when he came over to me. That stupid tension because we both know how wrong it is. How on earth can I not think about it... We only met twice and I still feel like I know him so long. How one stupid question can change everything. How one stupid look can change everything. He still looks like that one specific song. I can't get *it* out of my head. I know how wrong it is but oh boy it's so sweet.

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yeah who are they?!

[bunnynuggies]

Idol of roses, iconic soul. I know your name.