butcher--bird

[butcher--bird]

i usually hate to ramble outside my designated radioactive ramble containment area on my site but i feel this is much more applicable to an actual social media platform rather than my personal website. ill keep it all under the cut for everyones sanity.

in regards to my last reblog...it is sort of batshit to me that i have been actively posting online for so long...since like the early-to-late 2010s and there are people who have been following me for like literal years. since i was like a kid who just posted her fandom-slop drawings to the void and kinda expected nobody to really see it. seeing the drastic pivot in the subject matter of my art of now compared to 2021-2023 must be scary lol oh god.

i dunno, its sort of surreal almost, that some people just sort of stick around for vi's wild ride cuz they like my art as is and not just for what i draw. not that theres anything wrong for following me for the subject matter of my art, per se, im just very unpredictable (sorry!)

kinda has me tweaked out to think there are people who watched me go from a miserable teenaged girl who posted my hero academia fanart and got into fandom spats to a grown ass woman with hair on her fucking knuckles. like i have tattoos, piercings and pay bills. thats so fucked up man.

am i like this for a few artists as well? yeah, i can name like 6 off the top of my head that i have been following since i found them on deviantart at age 11. crazy shit we all can influence eachother like that. everytime i want to cut the cord and stop posting art all together because people are nasty and stupid and algorithms drive me utterly fucking insane i think of how art, even mine as rudementary as i think it is, brings us all together and i want to keep being apart of that. i have utterly atrocious ideas and i think id die if i didnt force people at large to see them!

uh, yeah. kinda a nothing ass ramble but yknow. i hope you guys think my art is cool 👍 i really would like to get better when i dont have 50 things blocking me from locking in and studying.

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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't think anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

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hello you should visit my site! its good for your health, your doctor personally told me this! (updated a good handful of pages n such. poke around at your leisure theres a decent amount of stuff to look at. and feel free to sign my guestbook xoxo)

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smells bad on the lower levels cuz thats where all the demon monster internals are concentrated dont you know.

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smells bad on the lower levels cuz thats where all the demon monster internals are concentrated dont you know.

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ARTFIGHT 2025 HOW ARE WE FEELING!!!! come get me (when the time comes) https://artfight.net/~BUTCHER__BIRD

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i hate picking things apart that i like and forming really stupid in depth headcanons. this sucks i feel like a freak

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ARTFIGHT 2025 HOW ARE WE FEELING!!!! come get me (when the time comes) https://artfight.net/~BUTCHER__BIRD

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ARTFIGHT 2025 HOW ARE WE FEELING!!!! come get me (when the time comes) https://artfight.net/~BUTCHER__BIRD

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TEAM FOSSILS 2025 GRAUUUHHHHH!!!!!!

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dumbass bugs i found on the sidewalk

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I hate bugs (I love them please more)

do not fret...many more bugs of that nature will be drawn now that ive got a firmer grip on drawing them, 🫵

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dumbass bugs i found on the sidewalk

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dumbass bugs i found on the sidewalk

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had to go to the ER last night and it turns out i have 2 infections in different systems in my body at the same time. okayyyy!

(for the record i am ok now i have antibiotics HSHAHSD)

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i dont have social media of any kind on my phone so when im away from home and i get bored, i scroll through my email. i got called an old woman for this.