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Someone save me I keep having the craziest ass dreams, like I don't normally dream so much wtf

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me and my 10 self inserts with minor differences

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HOW!! I've seen your art, your so good!

I'm scared to draw any fanart cause I feel like I'm gonna butcher the characters

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Dapper angry Mudz

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Sneek peak at chapter 2, anyone?

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Theres a spider somewhere near my bed, possibly between the my bed and the wall, and it's most definitely angry because I hit it with a pill bottle, I have no idea if it's dead or alive, but I am not sleeping in that bed tonight, if one things sure

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Y/N: You put the 'stu' in 'stupendous'

2d: Huh?

Murdoc: More like the 'stu' in 'stupidity'

Y/N: Murdoc!

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Vents/rant more so

Kinda personal maybe over sharing

Ya'll ever be reading a fic and get taken out of it because it just has a descriptive that isn't you.

Like I'm chubby and haven't worn a skirt since I was 10 and when I see something line 'hand ran down the flat of your stomach' I find myself cringing before feeling my own stomach. Or mentioning skirts or dresses which writers have all right to do it's there own fic, but still it kind just sucks me out of it to know I don't conform to what's supposed to be my gender and it doesn't help the I've been questioning myself lately, and it sucks.

I've seen this before ish, hardening back to the non inclusivity of fan fiction. Full preference I'm white, but I've seen people talk about how people of color can often be excluded in similar ways(aka the languagebeing used), and yeah, I see it. Admitidly they were talking about stuff in smut fics, which I have no business reading, but when I saw a header about being an inclusive writer, it made me think, and I couldn't help but read. I really wanna be inclusive in my fics, thats why I made my blog, I felt there was a lack of GN content too much fem reader or masc reader, and not enough shared fics for all people to read. Because reading fem assigned fics is what is making me question myself. And this sucks balls.

But besides that, now that I'm getting back to my big fic for murdoc, I want to make it inclusive, I want to avoid possibly alienating people from something as simple as my vocabulary. So any advice on language to avoid or use is I guess what I'm asking for, I don't wanna pander to one audience with my writing, I want everyone to enjoy my works. I don't want anyone to feel that subconscious feeling of being less when you find yourself not aligning with what the author expects.

I don't know what this is or what I'm blabbering about. This could just be me and my self-consciousness getting to me. I mean, I was reading a fic where the reader was pregnant, it was a good fic, and it mentioned the reader getting a stretch mark, and the reader was acting like it was the end of the word, and I was like woof, I feel like dead meat rn. But I kinda get it, I remember when I first got stretch marks on my thighs. By no means is my weight inhibiting me. My weight hasn't affected my ability to live, yet my characteristics are still stereotyped as something gross inheritly, and a person must be comforted over this fact. I knew it was preg fic, I knew what I was getting into, but the way they treated stretch marks just upset me and made me overthink. But it's just so insulting that someone's fears are my reality, and I know this is such a bitchy first world problem thing for me to bring up. But still I just need somewhere to vent about this, don't mind me just screaming into the void. Thanks to anyone who read this far. I ment it about the advice part tho. How can I be more inclusive for my readers, I never wanted someone to feel this way after reading my fics.

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Omg studio killers are so good

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Me: Ughh I probably should've taken my anti-depressants today

Partner: yeah, you probably should..

Partner: Aren't you supposed to take those everyday?

Me: yeah

Partner: Go take your anti deprecents child

Note. I still have not taken my meds, I'll take them tomorrow

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Oh sweet baby Jesus I figured out the password

Fuck, locked out of my iPad because I was off of it too long and can't remember my password, fucking, had so much art on that thing, kill me

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Fuck, locked out of my iPad because I was off of it too long and can't remember my password, fucking, had so much art on that thing, kill me

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Guess who's got my laptop back

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Tried to draw Paul again but ended up with a new OC instead

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I love my green old man

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ignore how , fucking gay this is gonna sound I know russ smells good as fuckkkkkkkkkk

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uh so my friend made art of me licking murdocs armpit how do we feel

there’s also a more colored version