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i keep thinking about how it feels as if we have developed ourselves an obsession with "healing" these days – and a friend said something that really stuck in my head – "if you're part of a community where you're always trying to heal, then that means that you always need to be sick". like i think that we're all taking this ideal of healing too far saying that everybody needs therapy all the time and resetting your gut biome or surrounding yourself with positive energy or whatever it is that you can come up with. you're always focusing on something that is "wrong" and that needs to be eliminated, after which everything will be okay again. it all sounds like just another way of maintaining an illusion of control over your life and i don't think it's doing us any good

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what's wrong babe you've barely touched your potential even though all your elementary teachers really liked you and said you were gifted and that you were going to do great things

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I am so lonely, I never allow myself to say it but there it goes, I’m lonely and all I can think about is what if everyone I meet can smell the loneliness on me, what if I reek of it

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i love you, all too well 10 minute version

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every time i feel like i haven’t done enough things to be proud of myself during the day there’s the voice of louise glück that emerges softly in my ears and says if you missed a day there’s always the next and if you missed a year it didn’t matter the hills weren’t going anywhere the thyme and rosemary kept coming back.. and i feel like life is beautiful and kind to me again

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sometimes listening to waiting room by phoebe bridgers makes me nauseous because I KNOW it’s for the better, but do I, truthfully? am I not incapable of getting over things, am I not screaming; if not bargaining with my journal, begging on my knees, throwing out all the chairs, staring at my ceiling just furious at timelines

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i care btw. i care abt the song ur listening to or the bug u saw or how u just got outta the shower or how ur happily hanging out w ur friends or how ur kinda sad or how good was the meal u just had or ur fav character from an indie game nobody knows or if u chugged down some water. i always will

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"What if my friends secretly hate me?" What if they pray for you before bed? What if they hear a song come on and it makes them immediately think of you? What if when times are hard for them, they close their eyes and think of the memories they've shared with you? What if they study your face closely to see how you're feeling? What if they listen to your stories? What if they smile when you text them first? What if

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Virginia Woolf was right. All a girl needs is a room of her own. And money. Money to buy a good dinner. And books.

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These holes in your wall are beautiful. You punched these urself ? Wow

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everybody moved on, i stayed there

Lucy Dacus & Julien Baker as Pete Davidson & Ariana Grande, Halloween 2023

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Andrea Gibson

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girl listens to bridge of good luck, babe! , 75 injured, 20 dead

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you 🫵 can kiss 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨💋 a hundred 💯 boys 👨⛹️♂️ in bars 🍸🍹✨ shoot 🔫🌠 another shot 💥🎉 try to stop 🚫✋the feeling 🤭 you 🫵 can say it's just ✨the way you are✨🤥 make a new excuse 🗣️🤕 another stupid 🤡 reason 🙄 good luck babe 😘👄 WELL GOOD LUCK BABE 💥✨🌠🏳️‍🌈

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