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Heads, you win. From Indiana University School of Medicine's 1981 yearbook.

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The wild cemetery

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book covers for horror books are so boring nowadays. they need to go back to being gothic as fuck

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This reminded me that one of the first things my first therapist told me is not to be afraid to fire her.

She also had these check-ins to basically make sure we were still gelling/I was getting what I needed out of my sessions. I'm a big fan of just ghosting when I don't like a situation(and hey sometimes the situation calls for it), but the open communication made it much easier to breath as I was never afraid I was hurting anyone's feeling by starting a conversation about my needs in therapy.

I always appreciated that when she knew something how insightful she would be, but also when she wasn't knowledgeable on a topic she didn't shy away from this gap in her knowledge and this ended up leading to way more in depth conversations and understanding. For some perspective I was the first trans person she had worked with, but I was there mostly for grief and ED counseling. She was extremely supportive and wonderful, just not terrible knowledgeable on the first. The latter two were her specialty, which was why I picked her specifically. Those were the things I knew I needed help working through most at that time.

I try to approach teaching in the same way. I think if your immediate reaction to something outside your area of expertise is being defensive instead of being open, it makes you much weaker at your ability to guide/help/teach people. When you don't allow ego to get in the way you end up learning so much from the people you are teaching.(again my only perspective on this is from an educational standpoint) And for me it's this mindset of--yes I have this knowledge to share and I'm pretty damn good at what I do, however my knowledge isn't infinite and is actually super specific and there is always room to learn and improve what I'm doing. The last thing I ever want is to feel like I hold all the power as it's a two way street when you are teaching someone. At least to me in my time in therapy, I've found quite a few similarities.

Is therapy worthless because it’s all a tool of capitalism to correct us into being normal ?

no it's not useless. It can really generate a lot of insight, for example sometimes it can help you realize that you're being abused! a former therapist really helped me crack that a repeated problem that I was having in a social group I was in was caused by the, let's just say, nexus of that social group being a repeated abuser. theracy can help you strategize how to make changes that you are interested in changing in an abstract way, and make them more concrete with weekly goals that they can help you be accountable for. they can recommend different tools, exercises, and readings. The relationship allows you to practice closeness and self-disclosure in a setting where everything is happening on your own terms; one of the most valuable aspects of therapy is critiquing your therapist when they get things wrong and challenging them, and exercising the muscle of ending a relationship we need to. a lot of people find that therapy gives them more perspective on their problems, because they have a dedicated space to externally process them and get some feedback. when someone has no existing close relationships, sometimes the therapeutic relationship is a really important first place to develop certain relational abilities. Therapy can go wrong a lot of the time, part because of the people who are mostly driven to be therapists and their own twisted relationship to power. It tends to be a lot of white women of relative privilege, or people who are similarly positioned to both possess a lot of covert power, and to feel really disempowered and to want to quietly wield power over others. a lot of therapists have really traditional worldviews, even if they don't think they do, and impose those on their clients. therapist could be some of the most judgmental people in the world, and are often uncomfortable with anything that their clients do that is all deviant, no matter how harmless it might be, or how oppressive those rules surrounding deviance are. but there is a lot to be said for having a close, private relationship where you can talk about whatever you want to talk about, get some perspective, get some resources, and most importantly where you are in control of what happens. I think a lot of people miss that last piece. they are fooled by the aura of authority that surrounds therapists, and do not question them or challenge them. but the best way to get the most out of therapy is to come in ready to be messy, critical, open, and to put up a fight.

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Poor Liam's always having the worst time

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made this in protest of censorship

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coworker asks if i like harry potter and i have to make a disco elysium skill check to come up with a response

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I still can't believe they ended POTO 1943 with yaoi

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sorry he bit you. It’s his coping mechanism

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I take back what I said the other day, I'm confident I can write through all my issues with fiction.