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[cag3dsong]

Hello, just a quick update: I haven't been here much because the desire to just not be perceived has been strong. Been in and still am in a low key depressive/anxious episode but I am pushing through it and started getting to bits on my main blog yesterday so I'm hoping by the end of next week I will be getting to things here!

I am super slow atm but if anyone would like to plot feel free to hmu on disco: #lehaneapologist. I am also around on disco for general chitchat but truly that's few and far between rn even with friends bc my brain is in a: consume all the fics and all of TayTay's album on repeat kinda mode and not chatty mode. It's going full introvert so I'm sorry to those I chat with here and there that end up waiting ages for replies. My brain is a dick.

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                               There's  a  pounding  in  her  head  when  she  finally  wakes,  probably  from  the  icer  that  had  knocked  her  out.  She  can  vaguely  make  out  voices  in  a  heated  discussion  close  by  but  the  world  is  still  blurred.  Nadia  blinks  rapidly  trying  to  clear  the  spots  from  her  vision,  groaning  as  she  sits  upwards,  realising  she's  on  a  bed.  She  dangles  her  legs  down,  sitting  forward  and  rubbing  her  temples,  not  yet  trying  to  make  sense  of  her  surroundings  as  she  her  senses  still  come  back  to  her.  Finally,  she  sucks  in  a  breath,  squinting  at  the  harsh  light  of  the  room  as  she  glances  upwards,  gaze  following  the  curve  of  the  room,  or  perhaps  cell  would  be  a  better  choice  of  word.  

                The  walls  are  a  blaring  white,  except  the  front.  The  front  is  glass,  a  glass  Nadia  knows  well.  Bullet  proof.  She  was  in  a  god  damned  cell  at  the  base.  She'd  been  made.  Silence  had  slowly  fallen  as  she'd  moved,  Nadia  notes,  the  voices  becoming  more  hushed  until  they  stopped  completely  and  she's  only  resigned  to  find  two  pairs  of  eyes  staring  at  her.  Natasha  and—  Tony.  She  swallows  thickly,  but  does  a  good  job  of  looking  bored  as  she  allows  herself  a  moment  to  study  their  faces,  smirk  tugging  at  the  corner  of  her  lips  at  the  sight  of  the  black  eye  the  red  head  sported  and  she  tilts  her  head,  brow  raising  as  she  fixes  her  stare  at  the  widow.  

                "  Nice  eye.  "  she  drawls  out  slowly,  pushing  herself  into  a  standing  position,  wavering  slightly  as  the  blood  rushes  to  her  head.  "  Purple  suits  you,  really  your  colour.  "  she  continues  as  she  catches  herself,  not  daring  to  look  at  the  man  whose  attention  is  fixated  on  her.  The  redhead  only  snorts  in  return,  at  her  feeble  attempt  at  deflecting  the  attention,  what  they  both  know  it  was.  She  doesn't  bother  with  a  reply,  instead  glancing  at  her  brother.  "  I'll  let  Fury  know  she's  awake.  "  she  tells  him,  knowing  exactly  what  was  going  to  happen  next  and  with  that  she  leaves  the  room,  leaving  the  two  siblings  alone.  

                Nadia  knows  the  disappointment  will  kill  her,  and  if  there's  one  thing  she's  good  at  it  being  blasé,  putting  on  a  good  front.  She  glares  at  him  from  the  glass,  refusing  to  show  weakness.  "  Welcome  to  my  humble  abode.  "  she  drawls  out  sarcastically  as  she  stumbles  backwards,  allowing  herself  to  fall  into  a  sitting  position  on  the  bed.  She  leans  forward,  gaze  flickering  across  his  as  he  speaks,  trying  to  decipher  what's  going  on  in  his  head.  "  Come  to  lecture?  Please  spare  us  both  the  headache.  " 

@ravarui gets a semi-plotted starter.

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high pain tolerance starters

“[Name], you’re bleeding.”

“How long has it been like that?”

“Did you dislocate a finger?”

“You’re slurring.”

“They say you almost died. You left it that late.”

“You’re snapping. Headache again?”

“You’re in a bad mood. Are you in pain?”

“Why didn’t you say anything?”

“Hey, why are you walking like that?”

“That’s a lot of swelling.”

“Where did you get that bruise?”

“Whose blood is that?”

“When you say your pain’s ‘4 out of 10′, that’s a normal person’s ‘8 out of 10′. We’re going to the hospital.”

“How did you not notice?!”

“If it hurts, it hurts.”

“I know you can manage it, you just don’t *have* to.”

“Holy shit, how long have you had this?!”

“[Name]? [Name]! Hey!”

“We’re a team. You need to tell me about this sort of thing.”

“That’s … a lot of blood, is that - oh, fuck.”

“Hey! Hey! Stay awake, okay? Stay awake.”

“It would have been a lot easier to treat if you’d mentioned it sooner.”

“You can’t keep hiding this stuff.”

“I need to be able to trust you to tell me when you’re hurt.”

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Kaya Scodelario in Tiger House Trailer

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SOFT(ish) ANGST PROMPTS

“  i thought you were gone.  for good. ”

“  you left and—  i thought you weren’t coming back.  ”

“  i miss you.  i know i’m not supposed to,  but.  i just had to see you.  ”  

“  please don’t scare me like that again.  i can take a lot of things,  but not losing you.  ”

“  i can’t even take the very thought of you getting hurt.  ”

“  you could’ve gotten yourself killed! you could’ve— fuck!  you scared the shit outta me.  ” 

“  yes.  i am telling you what to do.  i’m telling you not to pull something like that again because—  ‘cause fucking hell.  i care about you.  okay? ”  

“  i found myself driving home and then.  well i was on my way here.  ‘cause i guess…you’re still my home.  ” 

“  please,  tell me why you’re upset.  tell me who did this?  ”

“  you don’t have to come over here and take care of me you know.  i can clean up my own messes.  ”

“  don’t talk.  just get the fuck over here and hold me.  ”

“  loving you is like having my heart just out in the world.  outside of my body walking around.  every time i see you hurting,  it kills me.  ”

“  i made you cry.  and i hate myself for that.  i swore i wouldn’t be one of the people who left you hurting.  ”

“  you really hurt me this time.  but i want to let go of that.  i really do want to forgive you i’m just scared you’ll hurt me again.  ”

“  i know you’re mad at me right now,  but i’m the one who’s here.  let me be here.  let me help.  you can be angry later.  ”

“  i’m here now.  i know i wasn’t before.  but i should’ve been.  and i’m not going anywhere.  i’m not gonna let that happen again.  ”

“  it’s time to come home now.  ”

“  that’s enough.  you’ve got your revenge.  let’s go.  ”

“  i know you’re hurting.  and i can’t fix that.  but i can refuse to let you hurt alone.  ”

“  i’m never letting go of you.  i missed you so fucking much.  ”

“  look at me,  you’re safe.  and you’re not alone.  and i’ll never let you be alone again.  you understand?  ”

“  i broke my promise to you once.  i’ll never do it again.  ”

“  i don’t need you to go white knighting and fix all this.  i just want you here.  with me.  that will make me feel better.  ”

“  just stay still and let me hold you.  ”

“  you don’t have to hide your tears.  let it out.  then we’ll move on,  together.  ”

“  i just.  needed to talk to you ‘cause.  somehow you always know what to say.  ”

“  don’t bury your feelings.  sadness.  hurt.  rage.  feel it.  acknowledge it so you can decide what you want to do with it.  not what it will do to you.  ”

“  i miss your smile.  and not that sad one you try to fool everyone with.  the real one.  the one you used to show me.  ”

“  come here.  i’m taking care of you tonight.  and you’re gonna let me.  ”  

1) our muses reunite after sender thought receiver was dead. 

2) our muses reunite after receiver thought sender was dead. 

3) sender shows up at receiver’s house drunk after they’ve broken up. 

4) receiver shows up at sender’s house drunk after they’ve broken up. 

5) our muses are on bad terms but reunite after one of them nearly dies. 

6) sender finds receiver crying and approaches,  clearing the tears with their hands while demanding to know what happened. 

7) receiver finds sender crying and approaches,  clearing the tears with their hands while demanding to know what happened. 

8) our muses haven’t been speaking,  but sender rushes to take care of receiver after they’ve been injured or fell ill. 

9) our muses haven’t been speaking,  but receiver rushes to take care of sender after they’ve been injured or fell ill. 

10) sender hurt receiver in some way,  which led to receiver doing something reckless and sender shows up to stop them/or deal with the aftermath. 

11) receiver hurt sender in some way,  which led to sender doing something reckless and receiver shows up to stop them/or deal with the aftermath.

12) our muses are in a fight,  but cuddle anyway because they don’t like sleeping alone. 

13) receiver wakes sender from a nightmare. 

14) sender wakes receiver from a nightmare. 

15) sender wakes up in the hospital and finds receiver at their side,  who is in the same clothes as the day they were admitted because they’ve refused to leave their side. 

16) receiver wakes up in the hospital and finds sender at their side,  who is in the same clothes as the day they were admitted because they’ve refused to leave their side. 

17) our muses are currently on the outs,  but receiver goes through something traumatic and sender pushes past their friends to get to them. 

18) our muses are currently on the outs,  but sender goes through something traumatic and receiver pushes past their friends to get to them. 

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Dev Patel in The Green Knight (2021)

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when the doctor said 'if the history between us means anything to you' and the master said 'the history between us does mean something... it's the rage and pain in my hearts'... what was that. why did they say that.

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                       “ The Doctors daughter, a murderer, “ a humourless chuckle escapes her lips, swallowing down the emotion that rises in her throat, forcing herself to keep her voice low and steady. “ Are you proud? “

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DOCTOR WHO | Eve of the Daleks

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The roar of battle was deafening, their battleground being a playground of death, the remnants of the New Avengers building scatted amongst rocks and dust and fire, littered with enemy forces. Even as their own people returned, swarming them, they were outnumbered— even with all their combined powers, they lacked the sheer brutality of their enemies. There would be no fair game here— their never was. Still it rages on and Nadia throws her sais into the air, making contact with a neck and a moment later she yanks it out, sending a kick to someone sneaking up behind her. She’s conscious of the on going struggle to get the stones to safety even as she fights, forcing her way towards them, blade making contact over and over again as she cuts down her opponents, trying to ignore the backlash, the aching of her ribs from where they’d collided into her, the blood trickling from a gash on her head where they’d grappled on the ground before they’d forced her head to make contact with a rock, the raw hand print on her neck from where the life had been almost strangled out of her. A blast from T'challa had saved her life, barely a word exchanged before they both throw themselves back into battle. They couldn’t lose this— it was too important. Soon enough she finds herself in another grapple, a check mate, and they struggle against each other, each trying to gain the upper hand— and then they’re gone. Vanished. Just like their people had before. Hazel green hues widen and she turns with haste, a mixture of relief and confusion coating her features as she whirls round, gaze flickering over the now half empty battle field. To find everyone gathering. Her heart pounds as she scans the faces for the familiar features of her brother, barging her way through to find him slumped, the glove on his iron hand, features ashen and exhausted. A choked sound slips from chapped lips as she sits back on her heels, reaching for his hand, her other coming to cup his chin, directing his half there gaze to her own. “ Hey— HEY, look at me. “ she commands, trying to keep the panic from her tone. “ You don’t get to do this okay? You don’t get to die on me. I just got you back, you can’t, I can’t- “ A tear slips down grubby cheeks, ash and dirt sticking to her chin, the tear creating a smudged path. “ You’re gonna be okay, you hear me? We can fix this. “ her teeth chatter, lip trembling as her gaze begins to water. “ Friday, you have to help him, you hear me? He’s not dying. “ her teeth grit as the brown orbs of her brother, filled with warmth and sorrow connect with her own. “ Proud of you, sis “ his voice is weak, the words breathy, barely audible, almost a whisper. “ Take care of them, okay? “ Nadia chokes on a sob, heart shattering like glass, the shards cutting deeper and she nods, her lips trembling as she wipes angrily at the tears that are just replaced by more. Pepper appears from the crowd and Nadia moves to the side of her brother, her head resting against his shoulder, her grip on his hand, even covered by the gauntlet, never loosening. Her face is hidden in his shoulder as she cries, allowing Pepper and Tony their uninterrupted goodbye. It’s only as she feels him shift that she once again returns her attention to him, to see a ghost of a smile lingering on his features. “ Love you 6000 “ he murmurs, causing her to choke on a mix of a laugh and a sob. “ Love you 6000 “ she agrees, their own private joke. And then he’s gone.

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                                              HEADCANON: NADIA STARK.

Nadia was also close to Obadiah in a different way to Tony. He was said to be highly manipulative and feigned interest in Howard before Tony and as part of this I headcanon (I have not read the comics and only have the films to go off) that he was part of the Stark family long before Howard’s death. As part of this he was around for Nadia growing up and became somewhat like a father figure to her all while playing the Stark siblings off against each other in very subtle ways. His feigned interest in Tony was naturally all about the company and as such his feigned interest in Nadia was very much just keeping up the ruse.

Obadiah is one of the reasons that Tony and Nadia aren’t closer when they’re younger (along with the fact Nadia is only like 12 when her parents die) and he’s also the reason Tony misses Nadia’s graduation. (a sore point for her.)

She finds out about his betrayal through Tony after the fact and at first does not want to believe it, refuses to. It’s only after she speaks to Pepper who confirms everything her brother has said that it really sinks in and she begins to unravel everything she knows about the man. It’s safe to say he’s one of the reasons she doesn’t trust easily.

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send in “ stay where you are, i’m on my way. “ for the sender to go out of their way to find the receiver in the middle of the night and bring them home safely from a night out. ( this can be anything from a date gone wrong, to a party, to clubbing, a midnight investigation, ANYTHING! )

alternatively, send in “ hey… i know it’s really late, but i didn’t know who else to call… “ for the receiver to go out of their way to find the sender in the middle of the night, and bring them home safely from a night out.

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shippy memes for you hoes

“ i had a dream about you. ”

“ i’ve never cared about anyone the way i care about you. ”

“ i know it’s not fair to ask you to wait for me, but i can’t bear the thought of seeing you with someone else.  ”

“ i’m not really good at this sort of thing. i never really had much luck with relationships before but i wanna make it work. i want us to work. ”

“ i love you. you don’t have to say anything, i just thought you should know. ”

“  i do care about you i’m just. i’m not good at talking about it. ”

“ i didn’t like seeing you with them. ”

“ you’re my person. you’ll always be the one i go to. ”

“ i could have lost you today! do you know what that would have done to me? ”

“ do you even know what you do to me? ”

“ i can’t stop thinking about you.  ”

“ you’re the most amazing person i’ve ever met. ”

“ i don’t deserve you, but i want you anyway. ”

“ you’re safe with me, you know that right? ”

“ please just tell me how you feel. ”

“ just say the words. tell me you want me and i’m yours. ”

“ you’re always there. i didn’t used to see it before, but i do now. every time i’ve ever needed someone, you were there.  ”  

“ you had a dream about me? ”

“ i guess i always kinda had a little bit of a crush on you. ”

“ you thought i never noticed you, but i did. i always saw you. ”

“ oh my god please don’t tell me you tried to make breakfast again, the stove hasn’t recovered since last time. ”

“ you waited for me? ”

“ i was always kind of hoping we’d give it a shot one day.  ”

“ you were always my maybe, ya know? ‘maybe they’d finally ask me out.’ ‘maybe when i wasn’t the one looking, they were noticing me too.’ i know it’s silly, but. you were always in the back of my mind. ”

“ oh god you’re really gonna do the whole rocks against the window at midnight boombox thing aren’t you? ”

“ i’m gonna wait for you, as long as it takes. ”

“ loving you saved me. ”

“ why me? out of everyone you could’ve chose.  ”

“ i’ve always loved you. ”

“ i know it’s late, but i just needed someone and. i guess you always answer when i call.  ”

“ i brought pizza and wine and a horrible movie so in the words of rory gilmore, i’m ready to wallow now. ”

“ you didn’t have to come ya know? i’m glad you did though. ”

“ if we could run away together and go anywhere, where would you take me? ”

“ what are you doing here? it’s the middle of the night. ”

“ i dont want to go back to how we used to be. i want more. i want you. ”

“ you’ve had every piece of my heart since the moment i met you. ”

“ why is it your always the one to pick up the pieces every time my heart breaks? ”

“ are you gonna keep looking at me like that or are you actually gonna kiss me? ”

“ i’m gonna marry you one day. ”

“ i used to think about what it’d be like if we got together. ”

“ yes, of course i love you, you idiot. ”

“ just stay this time. stay for me. ”

“ don’t you dare give up on us. ”

“ i always come running back to you. i can’t help it. ”

“ you deserve someone who always puts you first. ”

“ you were never my second choice. ”

 “ they don’t deserve you. and i’m not— i’m not tryna be that asshole that says i do. but sure as hell would never hurt you like that. ”

“ i’m never gonna let you go.  ”

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[cag3dsong]

Just throwing this out into the ether... Me and @halliwhell are throwing ideas/plots about for a potential charmed group verse. . . Very very early days, we can't even decide on a plot rn just throwing around ideas butttttttt wondering if there is any interest?? BC we absolutely wanna revive the fandom 😅

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Endless edits: Nadia and Clint, 2/?

There's a reason shooting stars are no longer deemed 'stars' once they kiss the earth. Once you fall, you crash and burn.