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almost all my friends tell me that i helped them to love themselves more, accept themselves and be much more confident, so why can't i help myself ?

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Oww.. I did use the whole concept of dead cigarettes along with the concept of the creation of a cigarette so “the growth” and all that are the actual steps to making a cigarette but I used it as sort of a metaphor for destroying yourself or self destructive elements of yourself and then loving yourself without erasing pieces of yourself, even the bad pieces, so even if your vices are awful, they still are part of who you are, and you’re a pretty great person regardless of them so don’t just kill pieces of you and I’m really bad at explaining this aaahhh so it sounds like I’m just romanticizing self destruction and saying it’s okay but it’s more saying that having vices doesn’t demonize you if that makes sense? idk if I got that point across in the poem yikes. but this was honestly crazy fun to write even though I procrastinated so badly and that's the reason you are seeing me ....here ...now...🍷

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“The purpose of literature is to turn blood into ink.”

— T.S Eliot

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I want to run away. Just completely disappear, tell nobody, and become someone entirely new. I can start my new life with my favourite and best person I ever met. I wanted to romanticize things with my best person. I wanted to visit museums where I can dress in pleated short skirts and blazers, be coy and mysterious enough that everywhere I go people are intrigued and charmed by my mere existence, only to vanish as quickly as I arrived. I want to be known yet unknown. Leave behind my past so I have enough secrets to fuel a thousand rumours about who I am. Maybe that's good material for being lonely, but is that not how all the best people live and die?

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Anaïs Nin

Franz Kafka

W. Somerset Maugham

Charles Baudelaire

Albert Camus

Allen Ginsberg

Ernest Hemingway

Rainer Maria Rilke

Charles Bukowski

Franz Kafka

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~I know the phantom

That shies away from the sun...~

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Would I trust them with my drink?

TVD male Edition 🤩

Female Edition

Stefan Salvatore

Would either stand in the same place you left him

Or walk around the party and you’d have to find him again

Either way your drink would be safe

Damon Salvatore

He would drink it the moment you step out of view

Or leave it somewhere after complaining that you’ve been gone for too long

Honestly he would probably just flat out say no😭

It would be risky, so no I would not trust him with my drink

Klaus Mikaelson

“Of course, love! Hurry back though, I have things to do, people to kill”

Or he would compel someone to watch your drink as if their life was on the line... which it was

Personally it would be a no from me, but if you were to leave your drink with him it would be totally safe.

Elijah Mikaelson

Would follow you wherever you went and wait for you to be finish to hand it back to you

Keeps it super close to him so it’s always in his line of sight

Takes a sip out of it so you know it’s safe before handing it back to you

Elijah would just go out of his way to keep you safe so yeah I definitely would trust my drink with this man

Alaric Saltzman

He would drink it

He wouldn’t actually watch it, he’d probably be focused on other things

He would knock out anyone who tried to touch it though

I wouldn’t leave my drink with him

Matt Donovan

He would definitely protect your drink with his life

If he was sober

Catch him after a few beers and it might be sketchy (he’d drink it)

I would trust him to watch my drink

Tyler Lockwood

He would spike it

Or drink it

Or flat out say no

“You don’t trust me?” No. I don’t.

Kai Parker

He’s definitely sketchy but he would not let anything happen to your drink

“Why me?”

Would pull an Elijah and follow you to wherever you were going

Probably become obsessed with you because you trusted him enough to hold your drink

I would let him watch my drink

Silas

I’d trust Tyler before I trust him😭

And he’s my fav character out of the whole show....

“Why is it a different color?” “No it’s not”

You’d wake up with a limb missing

Absolutely the fuck not.

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Wooo 🍷

The many faces of John Lennon (RAVE, October 1965)

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Catch the breeze and the winter chills

In colors on the snowy, linen land....🌻